Remembered Joy  Remembered Joy
Don't grieve for me, for now I'm free!
I follow the plan God laid for me.
I saw His face, I heard His call,
I took His hand and left ...

Loss of the love of my life 
My husband was only 57 when he got cellulitis in his leg was hospiitalized for 5 days.I was told he was doing great and soon would be discharged At ...

I Will Always Love You... 
My Love,

As Valentines day draws near, I try to figure out where to put all the Love I had for you.

It did not disappear over time as I has ...

The love of my life  I lost my husband on December 29th,2011 after a 1 month fight against maligant brain cancer called Glial Blastoma, a very agressive type. He woke up on ...

Russ was my Soul Mate  I accidentally stumbled onto this website. I am glad I did. I was searching for answers or at least something to tell me I wasn’t alone.
Exactly 6 months ...

The Love of My Life  Just one month ago, I lost the love of my life from a sudden illness. We were married 30 years in October. We met when I was just 15 years old and married ...

The day my world stopped turning  They say love makes the world go around; well my world stopped turning on April 29th, 2011. That's the day my wife, Yong Sun died. We were married for ...

Trying to live without her  I was married to a wonderful women named Tammy for twelve and half years (with her for eighteen). We were the best of friends for sure, we were clearly ...

My husband, John  It doesn't even seem real that I'm on this site, or writing these words.
I lost the love of my life on July 27, 2011. We would have celebrated our 35th ...

Too long to find him, too little time with him  At age 47 I had very rarely dated. I met Chuck through his sister and we knew right away there was something special. He was 54 and had also never been ...

I miss my Bernadette, she was my world! Lord be good to her!   I lost my beloved Bernadette to cancer in November 2010. She was a 9 year breast cancer survivor. But in July 2010, we got the terrible news that no ...

I lost my best friend............My husband  On 5th January 2012 my husband passed away. He had a heart attack a week before & they found he had a heart condition that he was probably born with. He ...

6 months Later and Still No Better  First let me thank everyone who has been so supportive on this sight. I was hoping by now I would feel better, but I find that 6 months later I am feeling ...

Heroin hurts.   Click each photo to enlarge.

I couldn't believe it when I got a friend request on facebook from my long lost love. He was my childhood sweetheart....

I miss you Russ  On Monday January 16th 2012 i lost my soul mate. We met at school in Winchester, aged 4, and many years later, i married and moved to Nottingham. Unfortunately ...

The Day he died, a piece of me died with him ='(  ='( Love can b lost in many ways, but mine was lost tragically, November 26, 2011 The day ill never 4get... This day I watched My Hubby, My best friend,...

three years a life time ago  today is 3 years that my twin flame left this earth in his physical form, the pain is always here, I'm so scared .I find myself thinking about all the ...

The F word  The F word or more precisely FEBRUARY 14th. The day of Love. Painful reminders of the Love we once had. As I walk through the stores and hearts bomb ...

I miss my love and best friend  I lost my husband on January 8th 2012 he was taken in to hospital on Jan 1st after he collapsed at home.I thought he had the flu but he had Legionnaires ...

Road to Nowhere  Jamie and I were a gay couple from Greater Manchester England, we met mid August 2007 and spent a wonderful 3 and half years together. We were very much ...

I miss my beauty  My beautiful wife died on December 4 2011... 7 weeks ago....I miss her more each day....she had been battling cancer for the last 19 months. She never ...

How Am I Suppose to Live Without You  It's been awhile since I've been here. These last 2 days have been painful and a lot of soul searching.
I was telling a friend or I should say explaining ...

Am I Crazy.  My husband has been gone for 14 weeks tomorrow. I have some ok days but I think it is getting harder now. I am having some very irrational thoughts and ...

I am so lost and alone. 
My husband died Oct 2010. Life will never be the same for me. I feel like I am getting more and more removed from others and life. I am not happy ...

A long goodbye  Right now I hate Wednesdays - it's Wednesday the 18th of January, 2012 and its been seven weeks since the death of my wife Wendy. I feel sure that some ...

As Time Passed By  I'm a young widow. I lost my husband 2 years ago due to a tragedy. Not a single day pass by I don't think of him. I had my days of crying, loneliness,...

I lost my best friend  He was well the morning of 11/11/11. At 11pm that night he was taken by ambulance to the hospital and he died monday afternoon at 3:35 pm. He never woke ...

Lost my Fiance 3 weeks after we got engaged! Very tragically  I'm 36, Candice was 34. I asked her to marry me after dating for 2 years. We went to New York and I surprised her on top of the empire state building ...

my love is gone 
i lost my love on 12/20 i woke up to get ready for work, and he was already dead, he was complaining of pains in his jaw, and i feel so stupid that ...

We HAVE come a long way baby to get where we've got to today. 2 years of grief.  It's been a while since I have visited this site. I like to think that I am healing with time. I did have some rough moments when I hit the 2 year mark....

Two weeks before yesterday  My husband of 26 years passed away at home at 4 am Christmas morning.

I am walking through life like a robot.

We had some rough times together, financially,...

My husband, my best friend, my soulmate  I lost my wonderful husband of 12 years on Aug 26, 2010. We were together 18 years. He passed away just before he was to turn 33 yrs old. For the most ...

My Danny 
Today is day 6. Today's feeling is a sense of overwhelming sadness and dread. How do I do start doing normal things again? How do I go to the grocery ...

Rick Radlauer 7/13/09  My husband has been gone for exactly 2 and a half years and it hasn’t gotten any better. I put a smile on my face, cry behind closed doors and tell people ...

My Love  My husband died on the 1st November 2011, he went into hospital on 6th October.
He had bowel cancer 7 years ago and survived after major surgery, he fractured ...

losing my husband of 17 years and being with him since i was 20  my husband and i was together for all of my adult life lost him december 17,2011. my husband went to work on his birthday and went into cardiac arrest ...

Grief and Memories  Its funny the first real cogent thought I had in those first ripping months of grief after I lost John was that I had to put on a Mask. I did not want ...

My soul mate my husband David   I lost my husband 19 months ago he was my life he died aged 57 of lung disease never smoked was the worst day of my life he was my husband & my only friend ...

Don't be Fooled by My Smile  Jan 2, 2012, another year to start things anew but my heart is with my husband who passed in 2010. It's where my heart was in 2011 and will be there no ...

Narsson  On November 4, 2011 My baby went home to our Lord. Words can't describe my sorrow. It all started on October 30th. It was a normal day. We were talking ...

My True Love, My Soulmate  My beloved husband and I were married only four years. It is so short for the couple who loved each other so dearly, so tremendously... My husband and ...

Preparing for My Greatest Loss  I am 85 my husband is 89. We have lived together for 64 years. We have had three children, all boys. Two were twins, one died 24 hours old. The other ...

Wonderful husband 
On Aug 2, 2011 My husband of almost 3 years passed away suddenly by taking his own life. I long for him everyday it has been hard for me and I miss ...

Sue 
Its my first Christmas without you Brian. I spent the day with our oldest and dearest friends and they did their best and I also really tried hard but....

Feeling so lost...  My husband of 14 years passed away in a terrible car accident on MARCH 7, 2011. For the most part I stay strong for the sake of our kids, but most nights ...

Wade - - I miss you so much  On August 2, 2011 my husband was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer - - and passed away on November 23, 2011 and I miss him so much - especially today,...

A Very Lonely Christmas  I lost my loving husband,Gene on Dec.8,2010, although this is actually my second Christmas without him, this was much harder than last year. I think I ...

1st Christmas without you  Christmas has come and gone.We really missed you Davie.I knew it would be horrible without you.Afterall every day is.I just want you to know I love n ...

Phantom of the Opera? Christmas #2Alone  Where to begin? Where does it end? Christmas is upon us and even thought I have a friend who care, a friend from years ago, a friend that could be more ...

Tony half gone  Any who've spent time here truly knows a special kind of pain, the loss of a soul mate. There's nothing like it in this life, nothing. Everyone on here ...

ted is gone 
My loving husband of 30 years passed from throat cancer in 2008 at age 54. We had been separated for 20 months when he passed...if I'd known he had ...

Lost my soul mate   I lost my husband of 30yrs on the 13 November 2011 he was 54 to Pancreatic cancer, i dont know how to go on without him all i do is cry family and friends ...

MY BEST FRIEND AND MY SOUL MATE 
DEAR CLAUDE.
I WISH YOU WERE HERE IT HAS BEEN ALMOST 11 MONTHS SINCE YOU WENT AWAY AND I CAN'T HARDLEY GO ON SOME TIMES. i JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO ...

My First Christmas Without My Love  My love died on April 15, 2011 after a lengthy illness. This was his time of the year. He loved putting up the decorations, shopping, cooking and all ...

No More!!!!  I don't want to do this anymore. I am 10 weeks into this he'll!!! I have had enough of the pain and heartache. Will it never end? I miss my husband so ...

My Jim  Jim and I married Oct 18, 1975. He was 17 and I was 15. We met when I was 11 and he was 13. Jim and I truly were soul mates and remained married until ...

I Am So Glad 
I am so glad I have found this site. My husband, John, has been gone nearly ten weeks. I have gone through so many things and emotions during this ...

Davie Hunter 
My husband of 20 years died suddenly on 12/11/11 of cardiac arrest.He was fine one minute and next minute he was dead.he was only 47.I wish he hadnt ...

Need Answers  I lost my wife Trudy to the side effects of Crohn’s disease. I met her on eHarmony in December of 2007, Engaged April of 2008, moved in May 2008, Married ...

oh my god...now it is the holiday season!!!  My wife passed away suddenly on july 24th of this year...I have three beautiful girls who miss her very much!!!...I do not know how I am going to make ...

Shock and Soon  It has been four months since I buried my loving husband. The pain still feels like it was yesterday. My husband and I were married last year in August ...

Paralyzed and Isolated by the Grief  I am paralyzed by my grief. I met my husband on a blind date in high school, was married after we fell in love thru the mail while he was in Vietnam and ...

I Had a Dream  Chuck, Last night I had a dream about us and in that dream I cupped your face in my hands and said "this is the way it was meant to be , you and me, til ...

Broken  I lost my soulmate May 17 2011. For some reason I expected to be over it by now. I have lots of days where I don't get dressed or leave the house. I have ...

Letter of Longing  Hi-
I am at 5 ½ years since I experienced a car accident death of my husband and our 29 year marriage. I was 46 at the time. My youngest daughter is ...

5 and a 1/2 months - my first Xmas   I wrote earlier this year about my wife debs dieing of necrotising fasciitus. Deb you were so so brave but it is true to say that I feel you around me ...

Death of a spouse  On July 31,2011 my spouse of 36 years passed away. I believe it was due to the improper care he received from the VA. We had a Vash Voucher (Hud Housing ...

Lost Love  I write this morning because I feel like I finally can again. I cant get you out of my head. Your tenderness and the way you made me feel is one of the ...

My Love Francis P. Holt  My Love,

Have you found your way as I have? Is it any less of a struggle up in heaven? I assume you lead the life you want at any given moment ...

My love  My love. James died suddenly and unexpectedly in July 2011. He had flu, that was all. Yes it was a bad one(I had been very unwell a couple of weeks before)...

Miss my love too much!  Hi my name is Kim and I lost my husband on July 16,2011. His name was George and he was only 48. On that day I came down stairs and found him gone on the ...

My Love Francis P. Holt 1964-2009  It was 2 years ago on a Sunday that my life was turned upside down. Though the actual date was Dec 6th 2009. I have come a long way and if I may say ...

One Year Today.......Not Much Moving  If Tears Could Build A Stairway.......
And memories a lane.........
I would climb right up to heaven.......
AND BRING YOU HOME AGAIN....

Without my Bear, two years  My Barry has been gone two years on November 27, 2011. I never thought I could make it this far but here I am. A testimony to the strength and power of ...

Love of my life gone  My beautiful, loving, sexy, wife passed away July 24 2011 with no warning at all. We have 3 girls together and all of them are crushed. She was only 44 ...

As Christmas Comes My heart Breaks  I work and work to keep busy because I'm alone. Last year I was with my brother and his wife so I wasn't truly alone through the holidays. This year ...

Carol  Four months ago today the man I spent 32 years of my life with died. My husband had been sick for a long time but he was never sick in bed he had a lot ...

Love of My Life  It is 5 months today that my husband; my lover and best friend died. This is my third time posting since his death. It truly is a roller coaster ride ...

Hope-Almost 1 Year  I am rounding the corner to one year, December 21st, that I lost my husband. I have come a long way from the day Clyde died. You all were right that it ...

I lost my Soul Mate  I lost my soul mate of 25 years suddenly to a massive heart attack. Everyday I struggle with the loss and the thought of never being with him. We worked ...

Christmas 2011  As the holidays fall upon us I find it tearing my soul apart....
I will continue for I'm not alone.
Love discovered, my love, our days, love taken and ...

2 Year Blues  I'm walking between the light of life and darkness of emptiness. My soul drowning with nothing to hold on too.
This year I'm in my apartment by myself....

Two years ago today  My husband passed away Nov 22 2009. He had heart problems and diabetes and was terribly sick for a long time.
I woke up this morning and of course he ...

I miss him so much!!!  I can't stand the thought of the upcoming holiday. My husband...the love of my life...has been gone almost 8 months now...some days are ok but then there ...

Two Years Today  Today (20th November) is the second anniversary of the death of my husband - John.
The time coming up to this has been a lot harder than the first anniversary ...

Lost without my husband, friend,   Hello, I am 40 yrs old. I lost my husband Aug.22, 2011

I am just a mess, We woke up Monday morning. drank are coffe went off to work. 2 hrs later. my ...

My Sweetheart is gone  My lovely wife and best friend Annabell died on 20 September 2011. I am utterly destroyed by her loss. We were so much in love, we were together 7 years,...

My Maria  I lost my wife, Maria, on Halloween 2011 after a 20-month battle with pancreatic cancer. We have two beautiful boys (6 and 11-years old) that keep me ...

I'm Lost!  Four and a half months ago, I lost the love of my life VERY suddenly (he was only 60, as am I). He had health issues but nothing that should have him ...

I'm So Lost  I lost the love of my life, my soulmate Ron, just 4 months ago in a tragic accident. He left on a Thursday for his annual fishing trip, said I'll see ...

IT JUST FEELS SO BAD  It's coming up to 8 months now since my partner of 20 years passed away. I have moved home to NYC from Sweden and am slowly building a new life. Things ...

LOST  I lost my soul mate, partner and best friend 4 weeks tomorrow to cancer. We hadn't been apart one day in 20 years. He was diagnosed only 8 weeks before ...

Paulene  On August 24th my husband was admitted to the hospital with a "bleeding ulcer". After 10 days of heavy medication and one test after another the doctor ...

Helping me with our son from the great beyond  My Love,

I thank you and the great beyond for answering my prayers. Our son has been moody, not wanting to eat worrying me to death. To the point ...

How Can I Go On  How can I go on? I'm not sure that I even want to. Even though I have family and friends that are convinced that I'm dealing with this and being such ...

I guess maybe it would been easier if he had died...  My husband did not die...just his love for me. I really don't know where I am at in my 7 stages of grief. I talk about it about to whom ever wants to hear....

Why?  I am 48 years old. My husband of 3 years died very suddenly 4 days ago at the age of 52 after an otherwise wonderful day. Nothing makes sense yet and though ...

This year is worse  Roger died last July and I am tired of surviving; I am tired of trying to make a life for myself. I am so tired. The holidays are around the corner. Last ...

Such A Difficult Time  Eleven months ago today, Nov. 8, 2010 I signed papers for my husband, Gene to be put under hospice care. He passed away one month later, on Dec. 8, 2010....

Truly Alone this Christmas   I discovered tonight how truly alone this Christmas I will be even though I'm on my second year.
My last Christmas in Arkansas with Billy was cold, really ...

No One Knows  I became involved in a "polyamorous" relationship with a husband and wife. I am a twice divorced women with 2 children, and they had two kids so we all ...

A WIFE'S GRIEF  MY GRIEF IS MY OWN

No one else will ever feel exactly what I feel
My grief is a part of me
A refection of my life up until now
I do not grieve as ...

He is my Everything!  Hi, I said he is my everything. Because all our 30 married years my husband would say Mom gets everything! I would said that's right because you are my ...

Neither Here Nor There  I've been thinking, problem is that's always seems to take me to places of emotions, pain, missing and right now a life that is just sucking....
I've ...

Till Death Do Us Part  Death has certainly done its job here in "doing us part.". We were soulmates, one of a kind people who loved one another no matter what. We shared the ...

Sharing This With Those Who Want To Understand  My Friends, I saved articles regarding loss over the years before the actual loss of my husband Chuck. I just read the Poem and want to share it with all ...

My Love - My Life  On April 15, 2011 I lost the most important person in my life. He was my one and only soul mate of 43 years. I met him on a blind date while I was still ...

My Heart is not where my Home Is !  At night the loneliness show's its bitter self. The darkness of night gives way to the sorrow I feel each night.
I don't understand this, the pain, the ...

R. Jones  We met later in life, I was 36 he was 40. I had been widowed in 1999 and he divorced in 1999. We were so different but so the same. I know you can't understand ...

The Darkness of my Mind  I'v found that during the day I can walk, talk and joke with those around me. Just like I was before. I wear a painted smile, I laugh at all the right ...

The Love of my life.  3 Years ago last month, I lost the love of my life. We met in Florida in 1975. I was 23 and he was just a few months younger. I was bartending at the ...

My Jonathan  I lost my fiance june 25th 2011 in a car accident. just 2 months before our little boy was born. He was so excited and had so many plans for him. A life ...

My Husband, My Lover and My Friend  Married 58 years in April, 2011 and met in Oct. 1952. We had 7 children and raised 6, 19 grandchildren and 3 greats. We had our ups and downs but for ...

A Trusting smuck again  Let me introduce myself, My name is Hope and if you did not know the meaning it is to be eternally optimistic or something like that. Fortunately or ...

Just When you lease Expect It ....  Funny how life has a way of bring things to light when you least expect it.....
I was on a travel journey to my son's and then to a concert with a friend ...

A New Beginning  I lost my husband Kit in April 2011 to Lung Cancer after 39 years of marriage. He'd been seeing a doctor for back pain, and was being treated for sciatic ...

Missing Gary-the love of my life  It's been almost 4 months now. People say I'm coping and some have really been here for me. It's funny. Perfect strangers have been more supportive ...

My partner of 32 years   On June 6, 2011 I lost my partner of 32 years. She was with me thru the good and bad things in my life and always stood by me. When we came together 32 ...

My Beloved Husband Ted  I lost my husband on April 30,2010 by him being assaulted by a fellow veteran in a VA hospital in Ohio... My husband took me to work the morning of April ...

Another Birthday Come and Gone  Hello world, it's my second birthday without Billy and I survived. I think my mother had a plan of keeping me busy as she could and deep down wanted me ...

What was That? What Just happened?!!  This is not a story of grief but still is a story about grief and the Joy that grows from such an awful unimaginable unspeakable dismal feeling that attacks ...

A Second Birthday Alone  So tomorrow is my birthday. Wow ~ alone and missing Billy so much. I've tried to integrated myself into this new world. A world without him.
I don'...

Footprints on my heart  I met the love of my life in April of 2006 he was wonderful and everything i could have asked for and more.... We to be married the summer or 2007 but ...

Unable to save my husband  August 30, 2011, will forever be a day that I will never forget. Around 6:15 a.m. I heard my husband, David, in the bathroom getting sick. I laid there ...

My biggest fan  My name is Jamie,
I am having a very difficult time right now. My husband of 15 years died 13 weeks ago today. He was 38 years old. We have two children ...

Lost Chuck in April   My husband was 65yrs old. He was healthy- no medical issues. Last Nov he had a knee transplant and all was going well. In april he did some yard work and ...

One Year And Still Crying  Click on each photo to enlarge.

Well today 10/16/11 marks one year that the love of my life
left this world.I sat here in front of this computer ...

I feel like it's all my fault.  When I first met Chris, I had thought of him as just a friend. After knowing him for a few months, we started liking one another. I was with another person ...

All Most A Year  Here I sat waiting for Sunday to get here.It will be one year that God came and took you home to The Gardens Of Paradise.
I thought things were going ...

It's Been A Long tough Road  My husband was diagnosed with colon cancer last year and passed away Mon. Oct 10. I'm am so angry and asking God to help me with forgiveness for anything ...

It Comes out from No where when you lease Expect it   I got blindside, it came out from no where...
Of all things I was watching a show ~ Terra Nova and the young son had that first kiss. His hesitation,...

Mike died of cancer at age 30.  My husband, Mike, died of cancer when he was 30 years old. I was 26. Our daughter was 7. He died in Feb 1978. Yes, 1978. I am telling my story now because ...

THEODORE MY HUSBAND  WE LIVED ON A FARM, HE WAS AN AWESOME MAN ,HE WAS A YOUNG 56,YRS OLD. ONE DAY I CAME HOME FROM SHOPPING WITH MY DAUGHTER, THEODORE WAS IN THE DRIVEWAY ...

I GAVE MY ALL  I was watching Dr. Phil the other day and he said " When you give up so much of yourself into the other person in a marriage it's not good". Then why get ...

WHY, From Nowhere Now ?  How many times do we ask the same question, Why me, why now, why ~ what did or didn't I do....
If only ~ the never ending questions.....
What do we do?...

Anger turned sideways  Anger turned inward is depression, what about a completely irrational anger, an anger turned sideways, what is that, oh that is grief too.
Steve Jobs ...

I just don't know why  You should have told us you were sick a long time ago. Pancreatic Cancer surely is a rough thing. We could have helped you out rather than the life you ...

I forgot What the real world was like ~  Well last time I was here I was talking about life after Death. I learned a lesson the hard way I guess. Every man I met is not Billy. Not his way of ...

Love of my life  This is my second post. It was 3 months on August 27th that my husband of 46 years died, of a massive heart attack. I don't cry quite as much, but at times ...

Missing my husband Steve terribly  12/28/10 is when my world was turned upside down. My husband of 14 years died leaving behind 3 children 15, 11 and 5. He was in the UP of MI hunting with ...

Loss of a Husband and Father  It was August 27, 2011 my husband and I had planned a motorcycle ride with some friends.We enjoyed a beautiful ride that afternoon had dinner and was heading ...

I will Always Love You, But I am o.k  My Love,

It has been two Falls.

It has been One Winter.

It has been two Springs

And two Summers without you.

Every ...

It has been awhile  It has been awhile since I have been on this site. My husband died 8 months ago. I can not believe it has been that long. I have started to see a therapist ...

Where are you?  Where are you is the first thing I think when I wake up this morning. Its been about a year and 2 months now and I thought things were getting better. I ...

Life After Death  The sorrow and pain will always be part of my heart and soul. It can never be replaced. I not trying to replace Billy but something happened that I thought ...

My One and Only.  My husband died on 22nd Aug 2008. Every now and again I give in to my emotions and I find myself crying. It might be difficult to understand that I loved ...

My Bird Man  I come to this site every day, this is so helpful with my grieving. Today I read about cremation ideas, so touching, I have yet to open Allen's box, in ...

Losing Mickey  We were married 32 wonderful years. Mickey was my best friend and only friend in life. He fought Bladder cancer for 19 months and at the age of 50, on ...

The Dog's ball is in the toilet pipes  The dogs ball is stuck in the toilet and it will not come out,
The hurricane blew the storm door off of the house
The new cabinets came in for the kitchen ...

11 months   Well today 09/16/2011 marks 11 months that you been gone.
It still seems like yesterday I set in the hospital and watch
with tears in my eyes as you ...

my Prince Charming...the love of my life  I lost the love of my life on August 27, 2011....6 days later on September 2, 2011, our 16th wedding anniversary, I laid him to rest! :( My heart has ...

Without my Love One Year  It’s been a year today since my world was turned upside down and away from me. How did I get here? It certainly wasn’t by choice, for I surely would have ...

What I miss the Most  Roger has been gone 1 year and 1 month. Yesterday was my birthday. I spent it all alone. No one called . My kids sent cards. But to be all alone on ...

How do I go on?  My wife of 32 years passed away suddenly two weeks ago. I don't even know the real reason she passed. The official cause of death was cardiac arrest, but ...

LIFE GOES ON.............  Getting through my anniversary was really tough. Joe always gave me the most awesome cards. He would stand by the Hallmark rack for an hour until he ...

My Bird Man  Tomorrow will mark the 4th month of Allen's passing, and marks the 1st day of the rest of my life...I refuse to be down in the dumps...I will always love ...

my petite annick died of fighting cancer for 3,5 YEARS at 73 years old,  she was my raison detre my life my lover my friend, in the last three years she went through 65 chemo treatments to be with me and hope to see me reach ...

My sweet and kind husband died 3 weeks go.  We were married 48yrs. My Don, my husband, was told he had small cell lung cancer. He was give iyr. to live. with chemo.When the DR. took him off chemo,...

So Tired  I'm just so tired. I'm in my new little apt now here in NYC. Thousands of miles away from Sweden and my life with Hakan for 20 years. Still waiting for ...

A Very Unhappy Single Person  It all began in December of 2008. My wife was having trouble swallowing. After some tests she was diagnosed with esophageal cancer. We got her into the ...

Love of My Life  I never imagined to experience such grief. I lost my Mom 35 years ago on June 25th. She died the day before my 11th wedding anniversary. I was 29 years ...

Still hurting, lost and lonely  This will be my second post. I lost Mike suddenly on 2/12/10 due to a massive heart attack while we were sleeping. I still have those images in my head,...

My Bird Man  I believe in my Lord, I believe he took my husband so that he would not suffer any more.
I would like to believe he is guiding me to help make me stronger,...

Thank You Cuz & The Compassionate Friends of Louisville  THE AFTER LOSS CREDO

I need to talk about my loss.
I may often need to tell you what happened -
or to ask you why it happened.
Each time I discuss ...

Tired  I've been so tired of crying the second I open my eyes. Everything I do reminds me of the past. My daughter passed away 11 years ago. I lost my first love,...

The Pain  My doctor told me I need to go to a therapist. I can't talk to people. I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want to be told I will be OK without ...

Some genuine healing  I've come back to post today to say that some genuine healing has taken place for me. Things do get better and I am living proof of it.

Barry will ...

The Wolf is at my Heart ~  At times I feel my soul is lost, forever drowning in a sea of tears and sorrow.
But, there is a light shining just off in the distance.
I catch a ...

Stop the World I want to get off NOW !!!  I was able to go and visit my son before his 20th birthday cause I'm back to the part-time job at JC Penney's. Different work schedule, days or nights,...

I will always love you CES  My soul mate passed away from pancreatic cancer in Nov. 09. Just one month before our 26th anniv. He was such a strong and fearless man. He made me ...

How do I go on?  Hello... It is just over 5 months since Brian died and I am going through all the stages of mourning and the world feels like a horrible place because ...

Hope2  Hello to all my friends on this site. First of all I want to thank all of you who have commented on my posts and helped me work through this "madness"...

Literally Lovesick  I've always been a hopeless romantic, and when I met Joe on the first day of eight grade we fell in love and stayed together until shortly after high school....

loss of my husband 4 and half years ago  Do you ever get over the lose of your spouse. He died while we were on holiday in the Maldives. Everything seems to move on, but you never really do....

It's So Hard  I have been through alot of trials and tribulations in my life but losing Bryan is by far the HARDEST thing that I have ever had to endure. Our oldest ...

Losing John  It was the most heartbreaking experience of my life. He was a long time friend who I had recently started dating. After his wife passed and my husband ...

My Love,  My Love,

I know that you can see me as I can feel you. I know that your o.k and I wanted you to know that I will be too. I can not bring myself ...

Happy Anniversary Joe...........  I haven't posted for a while because nothing has really changed. I'm stuck in grief. Today would've been our 38th wedding anniversary. I've been dreading ...

I wasn't ready to say goodbye!  It has been almost 3 months since my husband passed away unexpectedly in a motorcycle accident. He was only 46yrs old with two daughters 11 and 13 years ...

The difficulty of saying good bye  Seven years ago my husband was diagnosed with Interstitial Lung Disease. This news was devastating to both of us as the doctor told us there was no cure....

11 Month Mark  8-14-11
It's been 11 months today since my most loved Chuck died. Normally I would have said "passed away" but the fact is he died, the reason for my ...

Lost in a crowded room  My life now revolves around my only part-time job. I make to little money to support myself and to much to get unemployment. Stuck limbo and lost in space....

I lost my husband to a massive heart attack  I lost my Paul on 07/05/11 to a massive heart attack. Our 16th wedding anniversary was 08/12/11. I feel so lost without him. I met him when I was 23 and ...

My job is done  It has been a year since Roger passed away. I have been doing a little reflecting and I have decided that my job on earth is done. I raised three of ...

HOME  It's almost 5 months now since I lost my Hakan. I'm home in NYC and finally getting to move into my apt in a few more days. When the coop board approved ...

The lonely hours of the night ~  Wow, I'm back here again. This must be a record posting for me, it seems to be on a continuous basis. Sometime I wonder if I'm putting myself here on ...

Nick & deb  My wife deb and I didn't ask for much we were happy you know, then on July 1st she rang me saying she was coming home from work early because she had a ...

Widow's Dance  First, there was the loss, the searing pain of loosing my beloved John. Months of being slammed emotionally first in one direction then another. Not ...

Missing Gil  On January 21, 2011 Gil passed away in his sleep of Respiratory Failure at the age of 41. He was taking a nap with me. I never actually saw him take ...

Cinderella   Cinderella came to the ball, married the prince and then the prince died... Brutal concept wouldn't you say?
This very moment for me in time is Hell....

Going it alone  I had a huge disappointment at work today. I was passed over for a job I really wanted, knew I could do really well and felt like I was more than qualified ...

Do You Want the Truth or Something Beautiful ?  How many time do we sit in front of the mirror wondering do they want the truth?
Life, is it an illusion or reality? Do we spit out untruths so we don'...

Life takes a Left Turn  Someone explain to me how when you think things are going good, job, moving forward then the rug is pulled out from under you and here we go again. I'...

missing David   my husband David had a massive heart attack at age 50 in his sleep. I tried to revive him but they told me that there was no use. after the ENT's worked ...

Missing My Husband so badly I can hardly breathe  My husband passed away on June 13, 2011. He has been sick over the last ten years many times. He counted up something like 50 plus hospitalizations ...

Some Day   I've been in a Melancholy Sad way for a couple of days and just the other day I heard a song by Kenny Chesney called
"Some Day" ~ it put into words my ...

My sweet husband...  An African friend of mine was concerned that I did not have a husband. So he called me one day and said "I am bringing your husband to the wedding". I ...

Lost of A Love  I've been doing better since I changed jobs. I discovered that a support group (and they help a lot to others) is pass what I'm feeling I need. This ...

Life Part 2...  As the day stretches before me and I once again try to make the 2nd half my life mean... something. So we (my son and I) head to an Art Museum...A ...

one year-alone  I tried writing yesterday but was crying so hard I couldn't see the word at the bottom= got it wrong 3 times and I couldn't send it. I was so upset I ...

Please forgive my brain fart  I was able to read my post from the 24th today (26th almost 27th computer/internet problems), and OMG I can't believe what I am reading. The only thing ...

First anniversary  July 31 will be the first anniversary of the death of my husband Jim to melanoma. And I find myself feeling much the same way I did when he first died....

Will it ever stop hurting?  I am so tired of hurting and feel so alone. I lost the love of my life in February and I feel half a person. Thinking that I will live without him for ...

It is a deep pain ...   I met the most wonderful man 6 years ago. He was just a spectacular guy. He devoted himself to me and cherished me for the person I was. I met him a month ...

PARALYZED  I’m alone.
July 2nd, 2011, approximately 7:00PM, Craig is conscious. Sue and I are discussing Mangialardo’s for pizza. Conversation’s light-to-cheerful....

I lost my best friend 5 months ago  Since then, I retired and moved to be closer to my son. my life is so empty without my husband. He was my best friend, my rock, and the love of my life ...

one year tommorrow  It seems like its been forever since I have been able to post on this site. It has been so hard, but at least I have been able to read the post here, at ...

New Job ~ New Life  So I been at my new job for just about a week and I've noticed the difference in the way I feel, its like night and day, sad because I don't have Billy ...

Cherish the Moments  I heard words of love and happiness from Billy's daughter and soon to be husband. He wanted 1) a DeLorean and 2) a flux capacitor so he can go back in ...

I Love You Jason.  June 1st, 2011, Was the last time I would kiss my boyfriend of 5 years, Jason. Jason and his good friend had been saving up and working double overtime ...

One way to ease the pain  Some people might think I am crazy but I have found one way to help ease some of this pain, suffering, and sorrow. I decided to go to see a psychic. It ...

Remembering Charles (An amazing man).   Charles was really a good man,he helped any and everybody that needed help. I remember earlier last year we where on our way to the store and it was pouring ...

Missing Gary-the love of my life  It was a typical Wednesday. We live in the desert and the temps were around the 100 degree mark. Gary was upstairs in our bedroom/office surfing the ...

A Key Factor in Depression to Me ~  I'm always trying to look at myself, my feelings, where my thoughts come from regarding Billy and how they effect me. I know I have a different life than ...

6 months  It's been 6 months and I still can't get out of bed. Tried suicide once. The thought wont leave my mind. What to do with my dog? what to do with my possessions?...

Its More than Grief Now   I have wondering for sometime about counseling. To me I'm feeling depressed, lost and spiraling out of control. I thought it was the 1 year mark coming ...

Because You Loved Me ~  I know I'm lost without Billy. Its a fact and no one can say otherwise. I also know my life wouldn't be the same if If I'd never been with him. He always ...

I Wonder If I Will Ever Be Able To Trust, So I Can Love Again.  My fiancé died 2 years ago. He was only 27 years old, I was only 26. He was from France, and had the most incredible French accent. I studied the French ...

Going over the Edge???  I've done a lot of thinking this last few days. I made it through the "1 Year" mark. Problem is I'm feeling like I'm back sliding.
Not back to the ...

If You had a Choice  We live in a state of constant pain. Nothing we do or see or touch does not remind us of our beloved. Nights meant for those quiet moments, talking, laughing,...

A Difficult Weekend  My loving husband, Gene passed away on Dec.8,2010 after being diagnosed with cancer on Oct.15,2010. Gene was a wonderful husband, father, and PopPop. He ...

Its Time To Leave!  Its July 4th, My lovely mother passed away 3 years ago today. It seems like forever and also like yesterday. I'm sad from her death. She was really something ...

4th of July  Last Fourth of July Roger was in the hospital. It was his favorite holiday. Bar b q, fireworks and sparklers for the kids. He loved it. From his hospital ...

~The Month of June Billy gone ~ My Mother too?  June 21st ~ 1 year. I survived to some extent.
June 27th ~ My mother goes into the hospital. Confusion and disoriented we thought it was Blood Pressure ...

YOU DONT SMILE ANYMORE  They tell me i do not smile anymore, i tell them they didn't sit by for over a year watching the love of there life die. How can i smile when i lost my ...

IT STILL HURTS SO MUCH  It has been seven months now since I lost my husband, my soulmate, my everything. We had only each other and lived for each other. I thought I was getting ...

The passing of time and long term grief  My birthday will be here in a few days. It reminds me of last year at this time. I was running, trying to run away from grief or at least try to escape ...

The Final Decision  “I am not going to do this anymore”. John said the words, the words echoed in my brain. You would think after 13 years of dialysis I would have been prepared ...

The Rambler  I am sure that is what most of you are going to think of me because I seem to ramble on. Every time I post here I just want to say all of those things ...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARSHA  Happy birthday my love its been 4mos i miss you so much. 59 years old 6-26-1952 remember what i always told you "its me and you kid for all eternity". Happy ...

Hello World ~ I'm Here too....  Life without Billy is like walking around with no legs. You want to move but your falling.
I sat at work and thought to myself all the little things ...

Sue  I lost my beloved husband Brian, three months ago. He had been in a wheelchair for 6 years due to unexplained, spreading paralysis of his lower limbs. He ...

Rock Bottom  I have read others blogs saying the eight month mark is brutal. I am seven and a half months down this road and brutal this time is. I have gone onto antidepressants ...

WHAT DO THEY MEAN BY TIME TO "MOVE ON".  2 YEARS WILL COME IN SEPTEMBER SINCE I LOST MY HUSBAND. HIS FAMILY SAID IN LESS THAN 1 YEAR THAT IT WAS TIME TO "MOVE ON" AND "GET ON WITH LIVING". WHAT ...

Alone  It will be a year next week that the love of my life has passed away. I miss him so much my heart is broken. These are my first steps into the world again,...

Stop the World and let me off  D-day is here and I don't want to be me anymore. 1 year ~
I've cried all day and working at the same time has been difficult. While driving home tonight ...

1st Year Anniversary My Love has been Gone  My heart has cried for 1 year ~
I see each minute, each second, the sounds of that day running, running like a movie on a loop in my mind. Then I see ...

To TrishJ  I just want to say thank you for your support and your kind words. I wish you all the best in the world and I will pray for you. We all can get through ...

Burial at Sea my Salute to SKI Lynn J.Mckinney  I received a call today The US.Navy, that your ashes has been escorted to the Sea by the USS.Carney out of Mayport, Florida to have your Burial at Sea ...

Help  It will be six months on the 21st that I lost my husband of 31 years and I need some advice. For the first five months after my Clyde passed away I thought ...

Husband  June 5th 2011 was 9 months since the love of my life, precious helpmeet, best friend, and wife of 42 years died totally unexpectedly. 2010 has been a tough ...

Roses in Heaven.  My first weekend in my new apartment. I've been on the verge of tears all day. I'm really alone. My daughter has literally refused to talk about her ...

I feel so empty and lost  I sit here at my daughter house. and Even though the furniture is moved around I can still see my Jimmy laying on the couch in his last week in life. I ...

Another First  I lost my loving husband on Dec 8,2010. My children and I have gone through so many 1st. The first Christmas, New Years, my birthday, our anniversary, valentines ...

i miss my family  Two days ago should have been S's 36th birthday, but instead it was five months since his sudden death from pneumonia. After having some marginally better ...

Finally Tomorrow !  Tomorrow after a little more then 3 months I can finally bury Håkan's ashes with his family in the family plot here in Sweden. I have waited so long to ...

6 Day's = 1 year  So ~ I'm doing OK at this very moment in time. The 21st is coming and I'm being visited by dear friends. 16th - 20th and then 24th-26th. I'm imaging ...

Don't know what I am doing here..no purpose left inside me  For some reason, today has bee horribly sad and lonely. My neighbor came by to visit and we both started crying because we miss him so much. She insists ...

Missing him so much  I was with my husband for twenty-five years and he passed less than three months ago after a very long, trying illness. During the last four years I watched ...

That one great love  It's been 13 months. I had given myself a year to get things done and be ready to let go. That's not working out too well. We shared 26 years; he was ...

Comfort in Words  I am sharing this with you in hopes it brings some comfort to your otherwise broken hearts.

We sit beneath the night sky
By ...

Count down to 1 Year  Its 6/11 ~ 10 days left until the 1 year mark. I can't believe its almost 1 year. It seems like yesterday I was in Arkansas, working, coming home, coming ...

5 months and trouble with step-son  My husband passed away on Christmas Eve 2010. It was so hard to try to go through the holidays with a smile. His funeral was on December 29, which was ...

NO reason to be here  I am sitting here this morning trying to figure out something to do.It is raining and I had planned to work in the yard If I am not working at something ...

The Perfect Storm  I remember in the beginning thinking I would never survive this, thing, this grief. There was no air in my world, there was only pain a screaming clawing ...

Out of Control  Life as I knew it is gone and I'm out of control. It's the late night hours that beat me, brutalize and ripping the very fiber of my soul. Hours ago I ...

"Godwinks"  6/9/11 - 12 days and counting . . .
What are Godwinks? To me there things that happen that come into our lives, moments, sometimes people and in my case ...

Six Months Without You  My sweet love, I lost you six months ago today (6/9). Was just starting to write this & you sent me another "miracle moment". The song "Smile" by Uncle ...

Six Months- It Seems Like Yesterday  It will be six months tomorrow when my world fell apart. I lost my loving husband,Gene. He was my world. We were married 41 years. He was kind, generous ...

Countdown to Father's Day   Father's will said this year. You see last year father's day was Sunday June 20th, 2010. That Monday, June 21st, 2010 would be the last day I kissed ...

So Angry  I am so angry at the world at the moment (another stage) I want to lash out at everyone for being happy. I know it is not their fault that Bruce died but ...

LOST AND LONELY IN NC CONT  I had a few good days. But now I am in the dumps again. I am just sick in my heart for I miss him soooo much. I just go through the motions. Will anyone ...

Lynn 32yrs of marriage 8/18/50 -2/26/2011 Death Watch  Wow on May16.1979 I met this awesome Man at 21 yrs of age,Lynn was a Navy man and he loved the Sea.I had married early once before at 16 and had 2 children ...

1 Year and still alone  June 21, 2010 Billy left me. I looked at the calendar for this year and June 21st day is the day "Summer Begins". A new beginning brings summer and a ...

I Want To Go Home.....  Today marks the 6th month anniversary. This is an anniversary I never wanted to celebrate. I think about that first month when I was in a total fog. I ...

175 Days Without You  It's been 175 days without you here with me. I am so lost without you. You were my everything. I've had to get on medication just to make it through ...

21 days to go = 1 year  I can't believe in 21 days it will be a year. Ironic because on June 21th you left me. "21"? The location, the state and now the job has changed. Life ...

the pain is so bad  The love of my life was my husband, father, son, brother, best friend, my everything. . We were inseparable and shared everything together. He was ...

A kind of closure  It's Memorial Day Weekend, another hated long and lonely holiday weekend with no Barry, no family, no cookouts etc.

I was morosing around the house ...

Memorial Day Weekend Again...  This is my 2nd Memorial Day weekend without My Love. I thought I was O.K, Not completely healed but functioning and dealing with this new life that I ...

Broken Hearted  How many tears can fall. When does your heart stop breaking or at lease ease to bearable? Don't do this, do that, walk this way and talk this way. Everybody ...

Lost the love of my life!!!!!!!!  I lost my husband on Jan. 12, 2011. I miss him so much, some days I don't think I can go on. We met in highschool, started dating at 16 and married ...

sigh, May has been hard  May has been a hard month this this year. The first, he would say the most important days of the year, without him. Mothers day without him started off ...

Happy 54th Birthday Billy  I know birthday's are a celebration of your birth.
But now we don't celebrate that day ~ its a mourning date of our love ones. It's measured in days,...

so many ups and downs the last month  It has been so long since I have been able to post here, computer/internet problems, sigh. So many things have happened, one post would be too long. The ...

Judy From FL. Re: Living in the here and now comment  Judy,(Fla)

I just read you comment about the Love bugs in Fla. and how the Female holds on and flies with her dead mate attached until he drops ...

Loss of Raymond, my love, my husband 4-23-11  We were married 23 years. The second marriage for both of us. He suffered terribly with cancer for two years. Lung, bone, pancreas. For two years I ...

Nothing Changes  It’s been almost 5 months and nothing has changed. I am still in the same frame of mind that I have been since the day he died. No answers from the coroner’...

11 months & Now his Birthday  May 21th will be 11 months, May 25th would have been Billy's birthday ~ 54 ~
Its a melancholy night as I remember my life. You see I wrote "My" life,...

Lost Soul mate....  I lost my husband 1 month after our traditional wedding and 16 days before our white wedding! If I never went insane in that period, I don’t think I ever ...

I am just so lost and lonely  Where did everyone go? Even the ones who have gone through the grieving process aren't there unless to tell me you need to get out. I don't have the emotional ...

Thank You  I would just like to thank those who added comments to my postings. I have written a few times on my feelings and the loss of my husband, Gene. The comments ...

So Lost...  13 days ago I lost the love of my life. I am so lost right now.

We met on line and knew each other for only 1 week and we both knew it was perfect ...

Guilt ~  I have new friends, Nascar friends ~ this past week-end in Las Vegas the Sahara Casino was closing ~ so we all gathered on Sunday for the last race that ...

Losing my Honey  Only 3 weeks today since I lost my husband of 35 years, my constant companion and best friend. Raymond passed away following a brief battle with cancer ...

Im in a good place..........  Hi all,

I am writing to pass on my great news
that i have after 2 and a half years
i have met someone and it really feels
so so great.
I never ...

Having A Bad Day  Today has been a very lonely day. The weather is rainy and dreary and so is my life. It has been five months since I lost my loving husband and I feel ...

I Cut My Hair  There are things that are so easy to do when our beloved are with us. Those things that we do because it makes them happy and it does not make us unhappy....

2 months today! So sad all the time.  Today is 2 months since I lost my partner. The sadness is just so bad most of the time. I have gone back to work but I don't feel like being there anymore....

Depression  I am sorry. I know this is going to be along one. Don't feel like you have to read it. I just want to say it and really have no one to say it to. The ...

Coming around  Today is my wedding anniversary, the second one without Barry. It would have been eleven years.

Today is a beautiful day, not unlike our wedding day....

"State of Desolation"  It was five months on Monday, May 9, since I lost my heart, my life. Just like all of you my life turned into the motions of existing - working, paying ...

Fragments of a Life now gone ~  I remember years ago when Billy and I first came to be. I told my cousin when she asked about him "I don't want a man I can live with, I want a man I ...

Running on empty  It will be six months on the 16 May 2011 when Bruce died. I am getting through the days but the the nights are so empty. I told my mom that unless you ...

A few bad weeks  i haven't been here for a while. I have had a few bad weeks. It is almost 10 months since Roger passed away. And the last couple weeks have been hell....

Another Night Lone  I work, I come home, I'm on the computer and maybe talk to some friends but late at night when the TV is going off I'm struck with the pain, heartbreak ...

Still Trying  I lost my wife of 28yrs.in Dec.2006. I still feel lost and trying to find out who I am without her. I want to move on, but just can't seem to get motivated....

Advice  Thanks for this Website so that i know we are not alone (loss my dad around 70 days ago). Also, I can imagine how painful for my mum by reading other's ...

I just dont know where to go from here  It's been 3 months and I miss him so much. The loneliness is excruciating. Sorry about the spellings. As I write this my heart is breaking. I am tired ...

Sad on Mothers Day  It was Mother's day 2006 my husband had a TIA when we were out at a nice restaurant . He always made sure I had a nice day. We would dress up and go ...

9 weeks to our wedding =(  Just to be brief, i was going with my fiance for near 4 years, we were engaged to be married on the 1/5/09....when he suddenly took a rare blood disorder ...

Living in the here and now...  Last night I stayed up until 2 A.M reading Pauls old Love Letters. It took me nearly a year and a half to be able to do this. It was in the beginning ...

Going to see a grief counselor  I am going to see a grief counselor tomorrow since my husband died 4 months ago. I am not handling things very well but this is what I have determined ...

We made it, thank you  A few days ago we had some really nasty weather hail/tornado warnings in our county. We live in a doublewide mobile home right in tornado alley. It was ...

BAD DAYS  I had a really bad day at work today. I was tired, irritable, snappy, short tempered and actually lost my temper once today and snapped at a colleague....

Two Giant Steps Back......  It will be 5 months in a few days (December 3, 2010) that God decided to end Joe's suffering. I was already going over in my head what I would post to ...

Poem for my love  Sharing this poem.

I dreamt of you last night and heard you laughing so clear
It's a sound of you I keep and love and will always hold so dear


Wish ...

No one there for me  As I sit here after nine months missing Roger more than the day he died, I realize there is no one on this earth who will miss me as much when I die. There ...

I'm Falling Again  Today was Administrative Day, Secretarial Day or whatever its being called these days. I'd only been at this job since 3/25/11, so I was taken by surprise ...

The Loss of Laughter  It is almost five months since my husband of over 40 years passed away. I am still in shock. It has been a time of great loneliness. Gene was such a wonderful,...

How can I be ok one minute and then the next be so sad?  Anyone else out there feeling the same way? It has been just about 3 months. I wonder if I am doing ok? I wonder if I am facing this enough. There is an ...

The Eyes Have it  You could move me with a look. One of exasperation as I came running in from shopping with bags of things I have no use for (Really Zoe, you would say,...

Good Days follow by bad days  Dad has gone for 56 days. Time and reality pushing us moving forward. Mum is going to move into a new apartment next weekend. During Easter Holiday, we ...

thanks for the song honey  I heard your song as I pulled up in the driveway. Thanks you honey it was one of the Best gifts you could give me for our anniversary. I kiss your Frenta....

GO IT ALONE HERE OR JOIN A LIVE SUPPORT GROUP  Hi All,
It's been 7 months and 11 days since being thrown into widowhood. It, like all of you , was not something we would have ever chosen but we know ...

trying to deal with the chaos along with everything else  my fiance died feb 21,2011 a week before he died i lost my job of 8 years . we lived together he stated many times i was taken care of i would be left ...

You claimed to be our friend, REALLY???  This is kinda of long so I apologize up front but I've got to get this out, I feel so betrayed.

I worked with a guy at Walmart for 3-4 years on and ...

I miss you my love it would of been 36 years tomorrow  I miss you honey! Tomorrow is our special day. Well everyday was our special day. Your heart and love for me was incredible. I feel lost without you. Sometimes ...

I miss my friend  I miss my friend, my soul mate and the love of my life. I miss the touch, the kisses and just a touch of noses.
My hearts aches more that I can bare ...

Why?  Its 9 months today and I still find myself asking God why, why did you have to take Bryan? He was the most loving man I have ever known. I need him so ...

What is Going On?  I keep getting phone calls from the local coroner's office asking me questions about the days leading up to my husband's death. They want to know information ...

its been 2 months  its been 2 months now since my fiance died it seems like yesterday even when the sun is out my days are dark. i feel so lost and alone i pray everyday ...

…and where do we go from here, which is the way that’s clear?  It really is a beautiful, warmer, sunny day, and I can't even move away from this laptop and away from my journal, my pictures, and this site. I've been ...

My Jimmy continued  I went to the grief counselor today. Today I went with her to the next building with her where my husband passed away. I wanted to get a different picture ...

~ 10 Months today ~ 4/21/11 now ~ 6/21/10 then  It started last night. For some reason I couldn't get into bed and go to sleep. Words, memories, you name it, they were running laps in my brain refusing ...

WHO AM I?  I subscribe to a daily email for grief. The web www.griefshare.com has helped me out almost as much as this one. Today's email really hit home. I've ...

17 months today  Today it is 17 months since my sweet love John died. I have come to accept it, I know he is not coming back, I am living my life the best way I can, but ...

Trish J  I would like to thank you for all your kind words on behalf of the love of life Marsha. Your words and kind heart seem to put a bandaid on my broken heart....

If tears could built a stairway and memories a Lane, I walk right up to Heaven and bring you home again ~  I've been thinking a lot lately. Good or bad it doesn't make a difference, it enters my brain and I'm lost because I can't control it. I'm remembering ...

No meaning  The kids keep saying I should get out. So I drove the hour and a half to the flower fields in Carlsbad. I never drive. Roger loved to drive and I loved ...

My Jimmy My heart  We were married at a very young age. I was 16 he was 19. No we didn't have to get married.. This month would of been our 36 year anniversary. Jimmy started ...

So much US left  There is so much us left in this house. As I begin to clear out "Our/My" Bedroom I falter, I come back to this computer, this site as through it will ...

Aagh!  This business of living solo in this world is causing me endless frustration. Let's just forget I am lonely. I am having trouble doing even routine household ...

My best friend is gone  After a long battle with colo-rectal cancer (over 10 years) my beloved husband was taken away from me; He loved life so much and fought real hard but in ...

Yo-Yo  Hi, lately I feel like yo-yo. The last couple months I thought I was managing to move forward a little bit. My husband died 6 months ago. We were married ...

Easter Break  It is spring Break. I am a teacher so I have the week off. We always went to our favorite place in Nevada. Topaz. It ended up being a yearly thing. I ...

Marsha The Love of My Life 40 Years  Well its been 2 months now 2-13-11 Marsha will always be the love of my life.I have been holding my own but when i got up today i got a funny feeling that ...

gone  my fiance of 8 years left home on feb 21,2011 to go ice fishing i became worried after dark i kept trying to call his cell phone and finally i called the ...

Hope (continued)  As I posted last month my husband of 31 years passed away on December 21, 2010. After my post, I lost my 13 year old dog who I have had since she was 7 ...

Plodding along  I feel lately like I am just plodding along through life. I just work, come home, endure the long lonely weekends and then do it all over again. The ...

Enough already  They say the spirit of the soul remains with loved ones when they are gone. If this is true (I believe it is) I can only imagine what Ray is saying and ...

WHY............?  Why does the sun go on shining?
Why does the sea rush to shore?
Don't they know...it's the end of the world
Cuz' you're not with me anymore....

Anger Is Setting In  3 months ago yesterday he died. No warning, no money and no one to help me get through all of this crap. I am ANGRY. I am mad at him for dying and leaving ...

Live from long ago  It seems recently I've been posting more. . . I've been pulled back in time to memories, each day I remember or just see in my mind the sweet memories ...

Peace Comes  I am feeling a little melty today. My husband has been gone for six and a half months. The six-month mark, to the day, was the worst day of sadness and ...

What Now , 6 months and all is still the same!  19 years with husband/friend and now he is gone. No children, parents are gone, just the dogs to comfort me. My family (half sister and brothers) have ...

Loneliness  It has been nearly five months since Bruce died. I am so lonely sometimes I do not if I am crying because of grief or sheer loneliness. Weekends are the ...

My Love My life  My husband died 8 months ago I had gone to the dentist and he was alone when it happened our grandaughter found him in our bedroom there is not a day that ...

Married at 17years and lasted almost 41yrs.IIII 58yrs old  I awoke on a sunday morning to find my husband of close to 41 yrs.sitting on the sofa dead. It was terrible. I knew his heart was bad, but you just are ...

new hair, new beginning??  I used to have really long hair, Bryan loved my hair long. He said that I was the most beautiful thing that he has ever seen with my hair long. I ask him ...

SOME DAYS.......  Some days I get so angry with myself for holding my daily pity party. I'm getting ready to move to my own apartment and really have to toss a lot of things....

Loneliness is making me crazy  Hi Everyone,

I am at 15 months now since I lost Barry. I am ok in a lot of important ways but the loneliness is about to overwhelm me. I am embarrassed ...

Twice in one night  OK ~ this is what I call a MAJOR, MAJOR meltdown. I've already posted once tonight but I'm finding I can't stop, why I don't know but ~ after 10 months,...

Memories  Memories press between the pages of time . . .
I miss my Elvis . . .
I sit here watching my electric picture frame with pictures passing through time....

Friends  "Life is not the way it's supposed to be. It's the way it is.
The way we cope with it is what makes the difference."
always,
1 step, 1 breath ...

You will cope!  I lost my partner of 20 years just three weeks ago after a very long illness. We spent the last year and a half in and out of the hospital. He was brave ...

Dad gone .................  It has been 5 months that dad has died. Everything happened in a sudden. He was pretty healthy (at least no sign) and he got a sudden stroke on 2 Mar morning ...

Selfish  I feel so selfish but I just want him here to take care of me. I am so lonely and I am so tired. I miss him so much. Roger died over 8 months ago. He ...

Matthew  He was beautiful. He could make me laugh in any situation. He could do no wrong in my eyes. No one could understand the love that we shared. We were young....

My life my choice...  I want to stop counting the months he died. (1 year 4 months today 4/6/11)

I want my life to start today.

I want to choose what direction my life ...

One Year and Then What?  I lost my husband when he was 66, 1 day short of 67, and I was 65. I had a temporary job, and we were on a one-month vacation when he became ill (MRSA ...

life after suicide  hi, i had been with my partner for 5 years, but we split up and then we got back together 10 years later. We decided to have a baby and I got pregnant ...

For a While  So I survived the year mark, and for a while, I thought maybe I was getting better. Then today I was looking for something in my office and I opened a ...

virgo  I am a widow. Those are some words that are not for me or I had in the back of my mind for 50 years. I lost my husband about 6 months ago. The grieving ...

Our New Grandson Danny Boy  Well its going on 7 weeks since i lost the love of my life Marsha. She only 2 wishes 1 see her grandson be born, and watch the grandsons play baseball ...

My 3rd wedding anniversary without Richard  Hi everyone,

Tomorrow 4th April would have been our 19 wedding anniversary, my third without Richard.
Life has dealt us a really bad deal and i hate ...

Four Months and Holding  Four months today. I look back at the first four months and I don't know if I've really made much progress. The first 60 days were a numb blur of days ...

A message for Hope  Hope,

I have left u a message
in my previous post.
Just wanted to make sure u
got it as its quite a few
posts back.

Jen
The word below is CHOICE....

Am I hear by myself  So I've started a new job. Better pay, benefits and 40 hours a week. Financially I have moved forward and am now secured in money. I have an apartment,...

Tom, the love of my life x  Tom was diagnosed with Lung Cancer in October 2010, we were told the news on 5th October, my sisters birthday who I lost on 15th August 2010. Tom sailed ...

18 years 2 months 16 days  Click on each photo to enlarge.

That's how long my domestic partner and I were in a committed relationship. He died in his sleep January 2, 2011. So ...

Love at first sight  A little over a week ago I met a woman and fell instantly in love with her, and the best part she did the same with me… We met on a popular web site dating ...

"Almost 4 Months"  It's been almost four months since I lost my world, my love, my life, my husband. It is NOT getting any easier or any better with time. I pray & wish ...

There's always the Grief Corner  No matter what stage of grief we are in, no matter what month it is of their passing ,no matter if we are doing better.. there's always going to be a grief ...

Excited but scared  Sat. the 26th my youngest daughter and I went to the Art Institute of Dallas so that we can try and get the financial part of college in place. She has ...

Hope  I lost my husband of 31 years on December 21, 2010. He was diagnosed with cancer on July 27th so I did have almost four months with him. People say at ...

I'm so lost without him  On February 9th 2011 my husband of 14 years collapsed at midnight while I was sleeping..I heard him fall and got out of bed right away only to find him ...

Almost 3 months later  It has almost been 3 months since the love of my life for 31 yeas died. I still do not have the death certificates and therefore still do not know what ...

Dad died at 67 on 2 march and mum is only 53 . How can I help her n myself ?  My dad died on 2 march coz of sudden serious stroke . Basically , no pain for him. All kids n my mum were with him in his last 2 hours, yet, he might be ...

My Love Marsha Lost after 41 Years  Went out to dinner last nite without Marsha.I took 2 of my grandkids, very sad to see couples sitting, talking, laffing, holding hands.I had to give it ...

8 weeks  Its been 8 weeks today since I lost the best part of me, my husband. Yesterday I thought I was doing pretty good, but today is another story. I feel so ...

One day up, the next down  Yesterday I woke up feeling pretty good. I went to work and being a teacher kept my mind occupied all day long. When I came home my brother and mom came ...

My beloved, the love of my life is gone  Today is one month since my life changed. I lost the love of my life, my soul mate, my beloved to lung cancer. He was a great loving husband and father ...

ONE YEAR  So it came that first mark. One year. I cried, I went to work I cried some more.
I survived the first year. Am I better, I guess that is how you define ...

Something has changed  Something has changed for me, in me and about me. Somehow over the past six weeks or so I have emerged from an unhappy person to a happy one. I know ...

How do I get used to being alone?  My husband I were married for 20 years. We were best friends and did everything together with our kids. This weekend, my daughter has a drumline competition ...

Lost the Love of 41 Years  Hard to put in words now. Only 1 month, will love Marsha forever. Thankyou

The.Esoteric.Love  Dear the.esoteric.love,

What you wrote to Jen in N. Ireland really got me thinking yesterday. I am grateful that you got me thinking about all the ...

1 large step for life ~ 1 small step for me....  Another piece has been put into the puzzle. I've finally secured a full-time, 40 hours a week job with benefits. I was beginning to worry that I would ...

Love of my life  I lost my husband John on January 29 2011, his death was completely unexpected. He had went to the hospital for back pain, and it ended up that he was ...

in excruciating pain  i lost my husband in march 2009 and i STILL cant get over it. he was 26 yrs old, didnt drink, smoke, or do drugs and was in great physical health with ...

First Trip away  I had my first trip away without Bruce. I went with a old school friend Duncan (who is like a brother to me), his wife and one of their other friends. I ...

I'm so lost  Yesterday 3-23-11 was one of the hardest days of my life, almost as hard as 7-23-11 the day he died. The day I tried so hard to keep him with me. I have ...

How do we move forward  Hi Everyone,

Im now 2 yrs 3 months into this unwanted journey and yes i am coming on really well.
My issue is that after all we have been thro we must ...

Cleaning closets  If you have been reading along here for a while you know that cleaning out and disposing of Barry's clothes was the most difficult thing for me to do. It'...

JS - Gone forever, but always in my heart  "Where do I begin? To tell the story of how great a love can be? The sweet love story that is older than the sea? "

Except ours has a twist. In the ...

In So Much Pain  “They” say that grief takes time, that the pain will diminish, that it will get easier, even if it never completely goes away. It has been almost six ...

The day my life changed forever  My life changed forever on May 8, 2010. My 48 yr old husband died instantly of a heart attack. We had been married 20 years and have 3 kids. He had never ...

How  How do you explain that you miss someone to tell you most intimate secrets to. That you miss someone to touch you to hold you. That you miss making love ...

How do I go on?  I don't really know where to begin or how long my story should be. I am a young single mother, 25 to be exact, left with the raising of my two children,...

Eight Months  Eight months today. I couldn't go 8 hours with out his touch or his smile. Now it has been 8 months. The pain is as fresh as day 1. Probably even ...

I don't know if I can go on.  My husband of 41 years had been sick with cancer for 3 months and just kept getting worse day by day. When he finally passed in March it was a relief ...

How Do I Continue?  My husband died almost 6 months ago. I honestly have had a few days here and there when I feel like I just might survive this. I seem to be having a ...

Tired  I am so tired of being strong. Of everybody saying I will be OK. I am not OK. I am so lonely all the time. All I want is my Roger holding me one more ...

Questions without Answers  It's only two weeks since my husband of nine years left this life and far too soon for me to share much of our story. But there are so many questions ...

Going against the tide  They say don't make any major decisions, don't move, don't buy anything, don't do anything the 1 year ~

I've broken every rule, everything is like a ...

The Calendar  You know we spend so much of our lives checking the calendar and looking at our watches. Now this fairly nondescript item has become like a bell tolling ...

I Have Lost Everything  My husband of 31 years died on 01/11/11. I do not know what caused his death because he died during an ice storm and the autopsy results will still be ...

so lonely without you  I came home from work, and found my husband dead...he had accidentally taken an overdose of painkillers..It was a devastating time, I was so numb, and ...

The coffee cup  My husband of 24 years left me on Nov 14 2010 to be with God. I brought him his coffee and was down the hall when I heard a crash. I returned to the bedroom ...

Our Anniversary  Today is our anniversary. My first without him. I am so lost. Roger always gave me something to look forward to. He showed me a world I would never ...

Life as I knew it is over  My husband passed suddenly 3/6/2011. I found him, my daughters were not home. We were together 24 years. I was 21 when we got married and I'm 45 now ...

My Partner, My friend, My one true Love  It's been a little over a year since I lost Mike. It was February 12, 2010. He had been sick for two weeks during back to back blizzards. We thought it ...

MOOSE  MY MOOSE HAS BEEN GONE SINCE 9/26/09. I FINALLY HAD THE MONEY TO ORDER A HEADSTONE LAST WEEK. ANOTHER PAGE TURNED.

NOW I HAVE A LARGE SHOP THAT WE ...

No getting Away from It  March 13th will have been my husbands 80th birthday and our 36 Anniversary. On March 14th it will be 6 months since Chuck's passing. It's not easier ...

No Friends  A co-worker told me that the reason I cannot get over the death of my husband is because I have no friends. She is right that I have no friends. There ...

Is any one else still muddled at this point?  Barry has been gone for 16 months now. I'm doing ok in most ways, but I still feel muddled emotionally. Some days I am clear headed, reasonably happy ...

Glass half full  I lost my husband 18 months ago leaving me a 34 year old widow with a 3 year old and 1 year old to bring up alone. We found out that my husband was ill ...

Sharon, Riverview, Florida  I lost my beloved husband of 33 years on January 10, 2011. I miss him so much! I am so thankful that I have a wonderful job to go through but the weekends ...

The pain is unbearable.  I was a cocktail waiter in a bar in New Haven CT and worked with Jim and Shelly Taylor in the piano lounge. I decided to move to LA in 1981. That's when ...

Loss of my ex-husband   I lost my ex-husband twice. The first time when I divorced him 3 years ago. And again when he died 1-14-11. I rushed through the divorce and was so angry ...

sigh sigh again  Well another exciting Friday night...Not.
Rented Eat Pray Love and It will probably make me weepy like
P.S I Love You. Why do we do this to ourselves?...

What purpose is there for me?  It has been 3 1/3 months since my husband of 35 years has passed away and I have no purpose on this earth. I so wish God had taken me with him. He was ...

The Aloneness  OK! I am not sure how to explain this and I wouldn't say it to my close friends or family because they would think I didn't want them to come over anymore....

No Boots to Borrow  Spring has sprung, which means the melt will make the ground muddy. Your boots should be sitting by the door, but they are not, I have to go find them ...

We Choose Our Spouse  Three months today!!! As I look back on the past three months, so many of the days have been just a blur. The moment the doctor said, "I'm sorry, there ...

Afraid to be alone in your New Normal  This is to help those of us who have been left alone . The security we felt with our husbands is gone. We must continue on but we need to feel as secure ...

"Death - I Hate You"  I hate you, Death!!!! You, who have made me a widow for the second time in five years. You, who took the love of my life from me. In the prime of his ...

So Tired  I do not have the energy or the motivation to do anything. I hold down four jobs (was five but gave one up) Three of the jobs have reached year end and ...

Roller Coaster  I feel like I am on a roller coaster. One day I am sitting on the floor bawling my eyes out wishing it were me instead of him who had to go. Then some ...

Loss of my husband and soul-mate  I lost my husband Bill to a terrible work-related accident on Jan 3, 2011. 24 days shy of our 10 year wedding anniversary where we already had a trip ...

LOSS OF MY HUSBAND  MY HUSBAND DANIEL PASSED AWAY ON JANUARY 7, 2010. I MISS HIM SO MUCH. WITHOUT THE GOOD LORD IN MY LIFE I DONT KNOW HOW I WOULD HAVE MADE IT. ITS BEEN A ...

Here in my New Apt and Now alone ~  So, now I've officially moved into my own apartment. It's just me now, nobody but me.
I've picked the furniture, dishes in the cabinets and the colors ...

Grief stole my life and who I was.  Friday 24th of Feb.2011

The first year of grief was miserable. I did not think that a person could experience such heart break and survive to tell ...

My worst nightmare that came true  December 10, 2010 started out like any other day. But it ended in the worst way possible. My husband Aaron died suddenly at work because of a heart attack....

Not so good after all  It's me Judy, Ms Poster child for moving on.

Actually I am doing pretty well, but I got totally freaked today at the doctor's office I'm having a ...

Selfish  Sometimes I feel so selfish but the pain is so great that it is all I think about. I was telling my daughter-in-law yesterday that there really is nothing ...

"Eleven Weeks Without You"  Today is eleven weeks without my heart, my life, my soulmate. Bobby passed away on 12/9/10 from complications from pancreatitis. Watching him pass from ...

My ex husband Richard  The date is 23/2/11,and 11 days ago,i received a phone call at half 5 on a sunday morning that has shattered my world. My lovely lovely ex husband had ...

How could this have happened??  So this is my story..

We first met via Myspace and instantly "clicked". We told each other stories about our lives and ever since, went to each other ...

seven months my everything's gone  July 23,2010 I lost everything. I had Bryan's picture as my background with my everthing in big bold letters as the banner. I have had this on my phone ...

8 Months and It feels like Yesterday  Then: June 21, 2010 ~ Now: February 21, 2011
8 Months ago my life was throw into a never ending spiral pushing and moving me into the unknown depths ...

my husband, my true love  It's been a month today since my nightmare began. I got to the hospital and saw my four kids faces tear-stained, shattered. He had had a heart attack and ...

How Do You Make Them Understand  My family is wonderful. And I know they have their own lives to go to. But how do you make them understand what you are going through? Roger passed away ...

will it ever be almost normal again?? jody  I met Ken 7 years ago and knew I would end up with him...it took him 5 months to ask me out, but I knew the minute I saw him that we would be together ...

I lost my Soulmate and my best friend  One week ago tommorrow.......my soulmate died in a tragic fatal car crash....He was my world....my rock...my comfort and strength. We did EVERYTHING together....

5 years.........  It has been five years since my husband died. I believe I wrote on this site ages ago when I was in the beginnings of grief. I am now exhausted, angry,...

My story   July 22, 2010 was a very hot and hazy morning. This was the last time we were together....he'd died on July 23rd. We were down a car the day before he ...

7 months  7 months today-that is really all I can say- I miss him so much!

Does it ever stop??  Ok, I have been on here a lot since that day. As horrible as this sounds, to know I am not alone in this helps, not that I would EVER enjoy any of you ...

Putting back the pieces together   My life took a turn in the direction that I was not expected. I suddenly became a widower and a single parent of three boys. While wondering and hoping ...

5 weeks and everything's still raw  It's been 5 weeks, and I still struggle on a daily basis to explain to myself and to others why I feel the way I do. I hesitate to post here, because he ...

What else can I do?  Since my husband Wayne passed away on December 18th 2010 I have read books on grieving and loss, meditated, poured my heart out on here and to a friend ...

Finding a little Normal in grief  I have struggled to find the New Normal for months. In fact the past few months After the Year Mark lead me towards a downward spiral towards what could ...

Three Months  It has been three months since Bruce died. I am so angry at God for taking him from me. I was yelling at God for taking all our husbands. I was listing ...

Someone to take care of me  I always took care of everybody. MY kids, my grandkids, my mom everybody. But Roger took care of me. I could curl up in his arms and he would hold me....

~ Valentine's Day ~ I saw the Calla Lily's  Valentine's Day has come and gone and I'm still here. I did find something to feel good for even though it's my first valentine's alone, or was I?
I was ...

His Bride  Valentines Day was so hard. Roger and I met on Valentines Day. He was a construction worker. Kind of rough around the edges. But he would have given ...

Happy Valentine's Day My Beloved  Today, being Valentine's Day, one of the more special days for couples. As I sit by your resting place, remembering all the times you used to surprise ...

Shauna - my soulmate  I lost my wife Shauna on January 6th, 2011 after a 2-1/2 year courageous battle with colon cancer, she was 50 years old.

Shauna and I met when I was ...

True Love Never Dies  Two years ago today Bryan and I went shopping at a store called Hot Topic, it is a gothic type store. Bryan used to buy me black t-shirts with fairies ...

5 Months of Grieving  Hi All, it's been 5 months ago TODAY since my husband has passed. I want to thank Hope, Eunice, Jules, Jen and the rest, of so many whose names fail me ...

Valentines Day  Roger and I met on Valentines day. It was always such a special day for that reason. Now it is one of the saddest. I miss him so much. I try to get ...

Feeling very low  Well, Valentines Day has come and almost gone here in Australia - and even though John and I didn't make a big fuss, he would usually buy me flowers, just ...

How to pick up the pieces of your life?  With the death of a loved one, all the funeral arrangements taken care of and the funeral services are all done. All his out of state family leaves and ...

My Missing Valentine  It's been a hard day at work with Valentine's day coming tomorrow. I see people at the store buying for loved ones. Kids getting shirts and ties and ...

so happy, yet so sad  My oldest daughter had her baby 2-10-11. His name is Bryan Scott. Bryan after my husband and Scott after his daddy's father, who has also passed away. This ...

Valentine's Day  Valentine's Day used to be one of my favorite romantic holidays, or at least it was until November 21st of 2010, the day my loving husband passed away....

Sweethearts Day/ Weekend  It is the midnight hour, another day has managed to pass. Today I was bombarded with hearts and flowers at W.M. It almost made me sick to my stomach....

Lost Love Again................................  10 years ago I lost my husband. He left me alone with 3 children to raise. I hid my grief, staying strong so my children could go about their lives. I ...

Feels like a huge hole in my heart , losing my husband  My name is Shannon, My husband name is Barry, we were married in May of 1996. We had 2 beautiful children my son Andrew is 14 and my daughter is 11. My ...

Florida update from Judy  Hi Hope and my others friends at this site.

Hope asked my to let her know how I was doing and how I did it since I now see some light in this grief ...

Lost my husband 10/20/2010  My husband was my best friend, we did everything together, including working. He was told he had pancreatic cancer in March of 2010, he had his gallbladder ...

I want to be sad  In one of the post someone wrote I Want To Be Sad. It is a strange thing to say but I know how they feel. I don't know if sad is the right word but I ...

Does the pain ever stop?  I lost my best friend and husband of 24 years, twice. We met in high school, married a short time later and he was my driving force to life. We had two ...

still living but so,so differnt  My husband of 24 years suffered a massive brain injury due to a brain bleed 18 months ago. As a result he lives in a nursing home where he is no longer ...

Missing Mike  My husband Mike and I were in FL - I left to return to Minneapolis on Jan 7. On Monday Mike called to tell me he was in the ER - maybe having a heart ...

It hits hard sometimes  Some of you will know me from other postings - I lost my husband 14 months ago (20 Nov 2009) - and I have had a lot of ups and downs - but this site has ...

So alone  Roger died six months ago. We will be married 34 years in March. I have been trying so hard. I really have. But tonight I just feel so alone. I don'...

Please help....  I lost my husband a week ago to a massive heart attack. We have been together over 25 years and we have no children, just pets. We ran a business together ...

1 YEAR AGO TODAY..........  I lost my best friend, the love of my life, my lover, the man i had waited half of my life for 1 year ago today. It is not easier as time goes on. You ...

Leaving the past behind  I long for the day when I can say to only a rare few people that he died a year, 2 years ago and not count the months days and hours that he has been gone....

What do I do?  My Husband had been gone 1 month then my 46 yr.old son came to see how I was doing. He was not working so I had some stuff needing doing so I put him ...

My Name is Yvonne  My husband died July 19,2010. I have been coming to this site since August. I have probably written over half of the the anonymous postings. I haven'...

Running on empty  I am running on empty. It is just over two months since Bruce died. Get up in the morning go to work drag myself through the day counting the hours till ...

Valentine's Day Present 2009 Las Vegas  Click on each photo to enlarge.

I made a milestone with going out to dinner on my own the other day. One day normal as normal can be and then another ...

Super bowl  Super bowl tomorrow-Roger was such a football fan. He said he went into withdrawal when the season was over. He died in July. The kids always came over ...

What People Say  It is interesting what people say to me. My husband died in July 2010. A little over six months ago. I am just now coming out of the fog and everything ...

Rollercoaster Ride  It's recent. A month ago. It was unexpected and a shock. My soul mate of so many long years is gone. I was in shock at first then in the wee hours of ...

7 weeks................................  In seven weeks my whole life changed I lost so much the day my darling husband passed away, but haven't we all?

All of you reading this know how I feel;...

Shifting Sand  This is a poem I found when clearing some paperwork, it was given to me at Ipswich Hospice who run a grief counselling service, when my husband died 15 ...

Where   Where do you go from here? I feel like there is no reason to get up in the morning. He was the joy of my life. My husband died six months ago He was ...

Greatest love of all time  He passed away 6 months ago. I miss him so much that I could scream! We loved each other and it was meant to be forever. I even loved him when he spoke ...

Is There a Cave  The girls in the cubicles outside of my office love to decorate for holidays. So I looked up yesterday and there were red hearts everywhere, including ...

repeat daily and neccesary...  Another day dawns...Put on the coffee half a pot remember its just you, Take a shower-in the morning taking one at night was with him, It is where you ...

More everyday  I miss him more and more everyday. I thought the pain would ease but instead it builds more and more. Everyday there is something else that I need him ...

Still Miss My Sweet Rusty!!  I lost my husband on November 15, 2010, after being married for almost 35 years. I am so lost and my heart hurts more than I could ever imagine. I was ...

Will the lonliness ever go Away?  I lost my husband, my bestfriend, my confidant..my snugglebunny. Jess was the most loving, devoted and caring husband. We had met in 2004, married in ...

1st Dinner out by myself ~  I had just gone to another job interview and I decided I wanted Olive Garden for dinner. They have have a wonderful soup call Zuppa and it was getting ...

I miss  I don't know if this sounds really stupid. I miss everything about the us of our relationship. My husband died six months ago. I miss holding hands, I ...

Hi  Hi to everyone,

Am sitting watching P.S I love You.
Has anyone seen it.?

Its a great movie. Gets you crying tho..
Very nice!!!

Jenxx

A Place to Come to  I sit here in an empty house not wanting to call kids or family. Really not wanting them to know how much I hurt and how sad I am because I realize they ...

Lonliness...........  Hi all,
,
Im so completely full and had enough of this loneliness!!

I feel that now after over two years i now have the desire to go out and start ...

Go On?  I am reading all of these messages. I think I am being strong but not today! Today I am back to square one. I miss my husband so much. I don't think ...

6 months and still going strong!  I think the six month time of grief is worse for me than before. I'm not numb anymore. I move along doing what I need to do. I'm social with coworker,...

The List  The day before my husband passed away (six months ago), we were sitting in the den and he told me to make a list. I had no idea what he was talking about....

I Need Another Miracle...............  My friend and I are working on a pictorial DVD of my husband's life. I hope to have it done for Christmas this year as a gift to our children. I'm having ...

8 Weeks and Holding  Eight weeks for me. This is a picture of my wonderful husband Joe. It was taken 21 years ago at our best friend's wedding. Suzanne was my best friend,...

how do I ever make love again  This is kind of embarrassing to talk about, because you see Bryan and I were very private people. The one thing that we never discussed with anyone but ...

I thought things were getting better ~ Not !  I was listening to radio the other day and a song from Sara Evans came on called "A Little Bit Stronger". Now if you've heard the song its about a break ...

I don't care one way or another (wish I did)  Wonder if there is any truth to the lyrics only the good die young. My honey was only 45. He was such a good man and everyone he worked with knew he ...

My Pillow  It has been six months and it seems like yesterday. I have taken one of my husbands favorite shirts and put it on his pillow. I sleep with it every night....

6 months today  It was 6 months this morning about 8:30-9:00 am. Why did this have to happen? Bryan was such a good man, everyone liked him. All of his co-workers wanted ...

Some light in the tunnel  My Bear has been gone 14 months now. That I am at this point and still sane is a monument to the healing power of our minds, guts, this wonderful site ...

I don't want to be a ME, I want to be a WE  It was eight weeks ago yesterday that my husband John died. He died at home while I was at work, and I found him when I came home for lunch. I am so ...

he's gone, I'm sooooo lonely  My horrible nightmare started 6 months ago tomorrow. I miss Bryan so much, that's all I can think about now days. I was doing kinda ok until October, I ...

A new life?  I have been told I have to build a new life. My old life was so wonderful and now it is gone. I woke up this morning wondering why. I don't want a new ...

10 Months Today  An anniversary, the only kind I get to have. Today is 10 months since John was taken from me. I should be better right, moving forward looking to the ...

Missing You  I am sitting here writing this letter with tears rolling down my face. I also feel angry. I am not angry at any one or thing. I am angry that she ...

Six Days  When my husband was diagnosed with lung cancer, they told me he had six months to live. He came home. He wanted to die at home. I called Hospice they ...

I just need someone to talk to...  I'm feeling sad and lonely. It will be 7 months tomorrow. It feels like yesterday and yet a forever. How does it happen? Where to we go? What do we do?...

Why  I wonder why people don't want to be with me because I am now alone. I wonder why no one wants me to talk about him. I wonder why they don't understand ...

The Cold  It is cold

I was alone in the house yesterday, no children, no dogs, just me and I cried until I screamed. I want him back, there must be some way ...

You must live for their memory  I am so tired of being told that I must carry on in Bruce's memory. I do not want to carry on in Bruce's memory, I want him here. I was looking through ...

We Know We are Getting Better When.........  I saw something on this site that made me do some real soul searching. One of our fellow grievers made the comment that he was searching for a new normal ...

Disneyland through tears  We used to take the kids to Disneyland for their Christmas presents. It was a way for the family to be together and I didn't have to do a lot of shopping ...

Their rules  OK ~ I will say it now. I've had a couple of beers and my mind and heart are in conflict. Only a couple and of course that brings on the longing and missing ...

Six Months  I am writing this through tears and I am not sure why I am writing it. Waking up this morning to an empty house six months after my husband passed away ...

Lots and lots of photos  Hi to everyone,

I came across all the photos Richard had put onto the computer the other day from the digital camera and was overwhelmed by it all.

So ...

4 years & counting...  Fair warning: This is going to get lengthy (if you want to get straight to the point, just read the 2nd to the last paragraph). I'm terrible at being concise ...

God is a man  I have decided that God is a man. It is normally the husbands that die first, leaving all the grieving wives on their own sometimes for years. The second ...

The Only Love I Will Ever Have  Well it has been a little over 5 months since my wife passed away. A lot of ups and downs but just trying to make or force a new normal. I miss her so ...

Tired of Saying I Miss You  I've been saying I miss you to my husband who passed 4 months ago. As I was writing in my journal the other day something hit me as sounding odd. The saying ...

Two months today  Bruce died two months ago today. I feel as if he has just died all over again. With tears streaming down my face I am reading all the other blogs. This ...

So the strangest thing happened last night...  The strangest thing happened last night. Like many of you, I haven’t dreamt of my husband Jim at all since he died a little less than 2 months ago. So ...

I don't know  I sit here and I read what everyone says every night. I try to understand but I don't. Sometimes it is hard to read because what you write is everything ...

Your rights as a widow/ widower  Just when you think that you can take no more...The creditors start calling. They want the money from Hospital bills, ambulance rides, credit cards, yadda ...

Am I Expecting Too Much?  It's 6 weeks today for me. December 3, 2010 was the worst day of my life. When the doctor came out and said, "I'm sorry there is nothing more we can ...

Going Backwards???  I don't know if it is the current situation with people losing so much in the floods here in Queensland, but I am feeling so low at the moment.

I don'...

I knew when I saw him  In Dusseldorf, Germany at a business meeting that he was the one! I had been single for many many years and would wake up each day and my first thought ...

Do you hear it?  I sit for a moment, trying to feel what used to be our life. There was a rhythm, a pulse, an energy that moved around us. You had an energy about you ...

J.J. of Fort Wayne, IN  I lost my husband 4 weeks ago today. I am anxious, stressed and the pain is almost unbearable some days. Sometimes, I don't know how to make it to the ...

Finding purpose  It is really hard to find a purpose right now. Why am I here? My whole life was my husband we did everything together. I have no reason to even get ...

Hang on its going to be a bumpy ride (again)  1/11/11 Jules,

I am so sorry to hear about your brothers health problems. I want you to remember back in early-mid grief. Remember when we doubted ...

1 step forward 2 steps back  It seems like I just now finally made it to one step forward, then the special days and holidays hit. Now it feels like I have taken two steps back. It'...

Here you go  Jen,

Here's THE BEST HUG I can offer you. You are still young, witty, have a great personality and I can tell you're in the loop since you have teenagers....

Reflections  Being lonely and reflecting on what was, I have come to realize that I am holding onto the first stage of grief for fear if I start to move on I will have ...

My Life  I am not a person who talks easily to other people I was the introvert-my husband the extrovert- now he is gone and there is no one- the loneliness is ...

Hi!!  Hi again to you all,

I sit here as lonely as i can, no one to talk to and so here i am!! Two yrs on.
One daughter is out with her 17 yr old boyfriend ...

I must have cooties Or is it the "W" on my forehead?  I wonder if I am the only one in attendance of this pity party. So, I think I am doing better.. Grief is no longer a constant companion, just an unwelcome ...

Loneliness  It is nearly two months since Bruce has died and friends have disappeared. You would think being a widow was contagious, just when you need people the ...

Feeling really alone in this......  This is my first time on this site, I have read a lot of stories from people like me. Today is one year my husband was taken from me. It has been the worst ...

Mike, Mom and Dad  I lost my dear husband November 23, 2010 after a year and a half of fighting esophageal cancer. He was a strong man, a good man, a great Dad and the best ...

Mark  My husband of 24 years died very suddenly Dec. 12, 2010. I know it's a new year, but time has stopped for me. I don't want it to continue because every ...

He still has all of me  My husband of 23 yrs...Oscar died over 2 yrs ago from Pancreatic Cancer. There were so many things left undone, today I'm angry!!!! So angry that he gave ...

The Loss of my Husband  Dec. 11, 2010 has become the worst day of my life. My husband of 13 years at the age of 45 had a heart attack and left me alone. We have three children ...

New Year  I lost my husband 10/30/2010 to homicide. I find myself a single mom after over 19 years of marriage. I totally agree this is not a "Happy" New Year....

Wedding Ring or No Wedding Ring?  Today has been one month for me. I don't feel like I've made much progress. The holidays were horrendous and the thought of spending 2011 without my ...

a new year.................  Hi all,

Yes a new year and who knows how far it will take us.

All i know is that yes i am further down this unwanted journey and yes i am a strong ...

New year  Ambien and various other medications made it possible for me to sleep through most of the holiday. Christmas was bad but for me new years is worse.

See ...

A new perspective  Hi everyone it's Judy in Florida

Let me begin by saying that most of the healing I have done has been because of this site and the total acceptance ...

LIFE STARTS NOW  I went to youngest daughters room a few minutes ago and she had this song playing. I hope that it can fit us all this coming year.

You say you feel ...

Please be a better year for us all  Everyone was telling everyone Happy New Years and I said I will say New Year but I can't say HAPPY New Year. How can it be a happy year or day or second ...

A New Year here, A New Year Gone  I leave this year heartbroken and alone. My heart lonely wanting what it can't have. My soul searching for my love now gone. Words cannot describe the ...

How much worse can it get?  First, I want to thank everyone here for their kind words; Buzz, HH, Patricia, Jen and everyone else. Sorry if I can't remember everyone's name right ...

Glad it's over  Feeling very sad and lonely today more than New Years eve. Can't believe I made it through that one! I can't get the love of my lifetime out of my head....

My Husband Doug  Christmas Day was 7 months since you graduated to Heaven. I miss you and need you so much. You truly loved me and I you for 32 years. You always accepted ...

My beautiful husband Loni  My husband and I had 37 years together. Not all were great, but we tried. In the spring of 2010 he was diagnosed with Leukemia. For months treatment went ...

Hope (still) Loves Paul  01/01/11

My Love,

Today would have been our 18th anniversary. I am trying to make that huge leap in words from Today IS our anniversary to ...

From Time to Time  I was listening to a song and it say's a lot of what I feel for Billy now that you're gone. So many things we took for granted, it's a shame we have to ...

A New Year ~ 1 Step, 1 Breath at a time ~  As I walk down the hall ~
Foot steps echo my good-bye
Each door closes with the tenderness of loves sorrow gone ~
Its time to step from the past, the ...

New Year  It is now 6 weeks ago since Jim passed away. Somehow I thought that New Year’s eve wouldn’t be as painful as Christmas – since we usually celebrated at ...

HAPPY NEW YEAR - BAH - HUMBUG  Well thanksgivings gone, I survived. His birthday hit really really hard, but I survived. Christmas well its over also. No frills, no tree, only a few ...

Letting go of 2010 and allowing 2011 in  Hello,

I am 2011 begging you to learn from my predecessor 2010 and congratulate you on your long ride with grief.

I know that you do not want ...

What Remains Behind  Tomorrow will be 4 weeks since the death of my beautiful husband, love and best friend Joe. We had such high hopes for a transplant but it didn't happen....

Empty inside  My young husband Jonathan (29) passed Jan 3, 2010. He passed from a horrible rare disease Lupus, in so much pain. Why God? Is something I still ask today....

22 YEARS AND ADD 9 YEARS  november 30,2010 he took his own life. now i and his son and daughter are carrying his burden.

christmas and now 2011 is facing me....

Next year i hope is my year  Hi to all my friends,

I'm now two years into my life without Richard,
I have had many many outbursts of down times
but also many times of feeling ...

I Need Hope!  Hi, I'm Mike. I posted the blog "I Lost Her, My Beautiful Butterfly". Anyway, I made it through Christmas and it was tough. My buddy invited me over ...

grieving before death  my girlfriend Val, of 5 years, was diagnosed with cancer in July.2010 terminal. The doctors give her 1 year, my grieving started on that day. Put on a ...

Family & Friends, Even Facebook  I was having lunch with some old friends and family the other day and I found out from them I'm saying or putting my feelings tos much on Facebook.

Well ...

So....He's Really gone huh?   12/27/10
Having survived Christmas, I thought the worst was over and done. The snow that hit the East coast that was a blessing Christmas Day now ...

Christmas meltdown  Went to my sister for Christmas dinner. What a mess, everyone made a point of not mentioning Bruce at all. I exploded and yelled at them that his name ...

Christmas Eve  I cried myself to sleep this Christmas Eve ~ I closed my eyes and remembered every Christmas, every feeling with my heart breaking again. I've had friends,...

Sometimes It's Best They Don't Say Anything  That's Chuck and Me on the Right In before-illness days with his friends from Detroit.

It's been 3 1/2 months since Chuck's passing . I said in my last ...

The death of my true love.  Daryl and I lived a charmed life. We met while teaching math at the same high school in New Jersey. I was in an unhappy marriage and she in an unhappy ...

Christmas hope  I lost my husband Jim from cancer about 5 weeks ago, and like all of you life has been really difficult - particularly with Christmas.

But today I ...

SANTA CLAUS  Last evening my son had a get together at his house. A very dear friend of ours plays Santa. He really is authentic ~ he has written two books and has ...

Christmas-Time Without The Love of My Life  It has been 3 1/2 months since the death of my love. Lee was diagnosed on May 19, 2010 and on that day I felt my heart literally drop. We were both told ...

Christmas agony  Christmas Eve and I am sitting wrapping presents (without a tree) when it came to writing the tags and I only had to put my name on the tags it was a complete ...

In Memory of Graham...  My partner of ten years died in early November. I could never have imagined how much I miss him…this pain is like no other.

Today has been exceptionally ...

God's Will  I truly believe it was God's will that Tommie is gone. He had a beautiful sense of humor and a heart as big as Texas. We were married for eighteen years....

Wishing you well This christmas  Hello to all my friends,

Just wanting to wish you all, at whatever stage of this journey you are on my best wishes.
You all have brought so much to ...

Up, down and sideways ~ Its always the same  Yesterday I was OK, well OK as can be expected these days with Christmas around the corner. Tonight I'm watching a Christmas show and they sang "I'll ...

Matt my Ironman  He was diagnosed June 2009 with an anaplastic astrocytoma (brain tumor). Per usual he took it on full force. That is how he did everything, once he set ...

Bittersweet Christmas  Christmas is just days away and just that thought could send us all into a tailspin. I know we're all feeling the loss more than ever and we wonder will ...

The Sun does shine.....still.  I have written many notes, stories, pain, and now a sense of order on this site. This will be my 2nd Christmas without John. My wonderful husband of 14 ...

The light  It's been 8 months since losing my one and only and it's Xmas season and I'm sure things will be rough. However, today as I look out and ponder on a very ...

CHRISTMAS ANGELS  I woke up this morning with the most terrible depressed feeling. I had a doctor's appointment yesterday and to have to circle the W in the marital status ...

Unless you walk the walk ~ Don't talk the talk  So I was visiting family and friends. With the holidays so close I've been feeling down. I thought being around my friends being they were close to my ...

a year tomorrow  Hi

Well its here two years on and im stunned.
What can i say i am this far on and the steps do get slightly bigger but im still alone without him.

Love ...

My Beautiful Darling, Best Friend and Soulmate has been gone almost 18 months  It's now almot 18 months since my most Precious Darling Husband passed away. I still feel the pain, and miss him so terribly, but thank goodness, I have ...

Trying to get through all these feelings  Five years ago my husband was diagnosed with Glioblastoma Multiforme and he was only 24 at the time and just brought our beautiful son into the world when ...

My first solo outing  Woke up yesterday and had a feeling I must go to the 3rd day of the test cricket Match between South Africa and India. Bruce always wanted to see Kallis ...

Guess what!!  Hi,

Just wanted to let you know that after a massive load of snow falling here, no flights out of Belfast took place today and we didn't get to London....

A Christmas wish for us all...  Wow...Christmas is a week away and I am stronger than when the season started. I hope the same for everyone here. For those not having a blessed break ...

His Heart Stopped Now Mine is Broken  My wonderful husband just passed away on December 3rd. He was on the UNOS list for cardiac transplant but that dream was not to be. We all had such hope ...

Losing the same person, twice...  Click on each picture to enlarge

At 25 years old, I don't have a single friend or family member that has been through what I have experienced. 2 years ...

Christmas angel  I got a letter from the funeral home that our (Bryan's)family has used for many years. They had a special ceremony remembering all of the loved ones which ...

I lost her, my beautiful butterfly.  My wife died in her sleep on Dec. 1st. She was 47 and had no known health problems. The night before she was packing for a trip to visit her sister in ...

Two years... I cant believe it!!  Hi all,

As i head to London in the morning to spend Richards anniversary on the 18th with our girls i simply cannot believe it.

So many ups and ...

Bruce I miss you so much  Tomorrow will be one month since Bruce died. I am feeling totally shattered. Every time I pick up a piece I drop ten pieces. I am trying to put together ...

It gets Easier  Its been just over four months since my love died on me, everyday is still a struggle and sometimes it seems like i cannot go on but I would like to share ...

It's Becoming Less Hard  Hi all, it's been exactly 3 months today since my love died. The moments I thought were impossible to have, have come. I think it's because I allow myself ...

Mind their own business  I went into the store that I have worked at for the last seven years and quit. I told my manager that I just am not physically or emotionally ready to ...

reliving the beginning of grief  I am weak, I am strong. So tired of these ups and downs, good days and bad. This new life, the New Normal that I am supposed to be experiencing One year ...

Tough day  Today was a really tough day, it was Bryan's (my) family christmas. We had it at my father-in-law's church. Everyone asked how we are doing. I tried to ...

The love of my life and my soul mate.... Rusty Kendrick  I lost my husband on November 15, 2010, after being married for almost 35 years. I am so lost and my heart hurts more than I could ever imagine. I was ...

Love, my Love  My husband Jim was diagnosed with esophageal cancer in May 2010. It was devastating. Although he was quite a bit older than I, he was always so healthy ...

Affirmation ~ Grief  Christmas is almost here and I miss Billy so desperately. My heart ready to break, the ache so much in the forefront of my life. I'm trying to be brave,...

Jennie - for you  Jennie - I am so grateful for this site - having met a lot of widows over the last 12 months, I know that I am coping pretty well - I see others who do ...

Nearly two years  Hello everyone,

Its two years on the 18 Dec since i lost what was my life and best friend. We met when i was 18 yrs and we married when i was 21 and ...

Christmas coping skills  How are you handling your first, second Christmas alone?
HH

Hope this will help  Its been 4 months and 6 days since my whole life collapsed, losing my love, soul mate and other half just three months before our wedding day. In this ...

The cold howling winds bring memories  It snowed last night...

Just enough to spark the memories of last winter. It will forever more be burned into my mind the snowiest day VA had for ...

I wasn't ready to say Good-bye  Christmas is coming closer and all I feel is panic. I miss him so desperately it feels like my heart is just going to stop beating. But then I think ...

Losing My Other Half  Josh is the love of my life, and my other half. We dated all throughout high school and were high school sweethearts. We stayed together while we went ...

Bruce I miss you so much  Collected Bruce's ashes today. Feeling totally defeated by this thing called grief. Collecting Bruce's ashes put me back to the starting point again. How ...

To those I love and those who love me  I was trying to go through some of the papers that have piled up in our room since Bryan got sick and I came across the obituary that they gave to all ...

How did you find God?  Hi all,

I lost my husband in June after a terrible battle with cancer. I thought I was ready to accept his death cause he was so sick, but apparently ...

Still Hard to Cope  Well, here I am again. It's been almost 3 months and I realize a few things going across this road from the loss of my love Chuck to just being alone. I ...

Feelings of intense sadness  The pain will not let up. I wake up in the morning and just for a second the world is normal then it all comes back. I know tomorrow will not be any better,...

made it through the day  Yesterday was Bryan's birthday. My two daughters and I went out to see Bryan. When we got there we noticed that the flowers we had put in our vase had ...

I tried, and I cannot do it  I know what we do at the worst hour, one breath one-step one day at a time.

However, I had no idea that the holidays would do this to me. I am back ...

The dreaded Christmas  Today I had to go to the executors of Bruce's estate. I did not give any thought that the offices are in a shopping centre; as I walked in I saw all the ...

Nothing makes me Happy  I had an appointment to get my nails done. I had them removed a couple of years ago because of financial reasons. We had just lost our home and were ...

Reflections of what was, and is...  The mirror doesn't lie. It shows what I have been though and still have to face. So as I look into the mirror and study the changes. It would appear ...

Happy birthday Bryan??  Well, somehow I made it through Halloween, and Thanksgiving. Today is Bryan's birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY my love. Am I supposed to continue celebrating his ...

How could you be so cruel?  I was told yesterday that life is not fair and I must deal with the loss of Bruce. This coming from my mother who of all people should know the pain of ...

I am safe here  I'm coming back to this site because it is the only place where I feel entirely safe and and can say exactly what I'm thinking or feeling without fear ...

Christmas? I'm Mad I want You Here with Me !  So another holiday down, 1 more left to pull my life apart ~ what do I do? I gave thanks for what I still have and cried for what is gone. Christmas ...

Missing you so much  Today has been a really hard day. So far Halloween and now Thanksgiving have been a real bust. I just can't quit crying today, it has been a real rollercoaster....

Bruce was my everything  We were together for seventeen years we were married on the 24 October 2009. On the 12 September 2010 he woke up unable to move his legs and was admitted ...

Is My Partner still hurting ????  Hi to all...this is a very different story and I hope some one can help us both. My Partner lost his love of 32yrs and I believe he is still hurting. It ...

Suddenly I became a widow.  Our car trip up to see Gary's sister was like a honeymoon, he was so handsome, and thoughtful, and kind, and giving, 39 years of marriage.
He had beat ...

Please Come Back  People tell me it's ok, he will come to me in my dreams, and it's true he does. But I wake up and he is definitely gone, I really hate waking up in the ...

When You're Gone  I was online the day after Thanksgiving (that was a difficult and crying day) reaching a emotional low. How will I survive Christmas? I found a song by ...

The dreaded day has arrived  Well, the dreaded day has arrived, the one year anniversary of Barry's death, and I feel.....nothing. I left this day open to be alone because I thought ...

THANKSGIVING???  Well the day has come and gone. We did absolutely nothing. I was sick Wed. which kept me in bed all day and night. Forgot to take the turkey out of the ...

Widows thanksgiving  I am thankful for this place we have
The day is over I managed to eat
And talk
Then I came home and got in
Bed and cried
One down
I hope all of ...

Thanksgiving day ~  Well here I go ~ over to family for Thanksgiving dinner without Billy. I'm trying to stay positive and remember the fun times we had but all I can think ...

Could I be going crazy?  For whatever reason, I am holding on to this thought and feeling that I will be with him in the afterlife. Everyday I get up and think how I could see ...

I am thank full for...(grief modified)  I am Thankful for:

1. Once having had a man who loved me, He asked me to take his name and share his life.

2. Able to look back at this last horrible ...

I SAW HIM  How does that saying go, there is no rest for the weary; what it says for me is there is no relief from the endless torment of grief.

John and I went ...

12 Days of Happily Ever After  My husband died on the last day of our honeymoon in Maui, Hawaii on Thanksgiving Day November 26, 2009. We were married for only 12 days. He drowned in ...

going on without him  Where do I begin, Carl,my Carl is really gone and not like out of state but out of me and his children's lives for ever. When I got the phone call on ...

JTWinsor  My Husband Was a truck driver. We had just celebrated our 16th wedding anniversary.(8th oct 2010.) On the 9th oct 2010 he was cleaning his trailer out ...

Thanksgiving is Coming and He's not Here ~  The holidays are coming and doom and gloom following close behind. I found when I got to Las Vegas, work and looking for a home would help. The home ...

Confessions of a widow (& Apologies)  1. I think that I am in control of the situation making the most of my days (but I'm Not)

2. The days go on and I feel that I should too (but I don'...

Not a true soulmate  Would a true soulmate, someone you devoted your life to for 26 years, just up and leave you for a younger model?? would that person then put you and your ...

Buried my heart with my love  My soulmate, the man of my dreams, died suddenly from a heart attack, he was only 41 years old. It has been two months since he passed and it feels as ...

The ice burg that hit is melting  Hello,

After really what has to be described as an emotional and debilitating two weeks i seem to be getting on track again.

It hit hard and unexpectedly ...

The Choice  I can feel the holidays rushing toward me and with them the flood of memories from last year, the last holiday we would ever have together. I cannot stand ...

Almost one year  This coming Saturday (20 Nov) marks 12 months since my darling left. On the outside I look like I am coping well - and I suppose I am, but I just want ...

What is the Point?  Here I sit, it has been 18 months since I lost him. Since my life changed and came crashing down at my feet. Since I lost my home, my life, my love. Some ...

The Hardest Experience I'll Have Ever Done  It's been 2 months and I want him back, my true love of 35 1/2 years. It's just awful without him. Oh, I know it was a blessing for God to take him so ...

Branded a Widow  Yes I am a widow certainly not by choice there was no fortune gained here as in the movies. Peg me if you like as the pre-conceived notions certainly ...

Our Secret Spot  Click on each photo to enlarge.

As I have said, I lost my wife, of 39 years, in March of this year. When she left for the lord, I was so shocked, I ...

They just dont get any part of it.... Why??  Hello again to you all.
I sit again on my own in ireland and i hate it!!
I had ten friends arranged to come up tonight and i was all organised with cheese,...

That Day  I lost my husband 76 days ago from a massive pulmonary embolism. We had been together 7 years. He collapsed on our anniversary. From that day, family ...

This New Life (sucks)  Hello once again fence. I say that because I lean on this site heavily as of late. It is a damn shame that I need to go here for healing. That I somehow ...

I did it  Only me again,

Sorry to get in touch again so soon but.........
Its now ten oclock in n ireland and i have got thro another big day.

My brother ...

Two years today  Hello everyone,

Have had a really rough couple of days and this is down to reliving Richards last two days at home before a large seizure hospitalised ...

Restoring order  I'm wandering around my house this morning trying to restore order. Part of this is because a visit from the auction company leaves chaos behind, and ...

11/06/10 Without My Love Paul Holt  My Love,

It will get down to 32 degrees tonight, The house will be warm enough but it is my heart that still feels as if an icy blanket has wrapped ...

My Wife of 39 Years  My wife passed away March 14, 2010. I quit work ten years ago to take care of her, she had MS and toward the end she could not do anything for herself....

God I'm lonely  Last night the auction company came and took the last of Barry's collection of military and military historical book collection away to auction. For some ...

Amanda  Yes! I also loose my hushard nine month ago and still can't believe it. Every now and then I expect him to just walk through the door and everything will ...

Feels like I've done it all already  I lost my husband to brain cancer two years ago. I grieved so fully that I had a complete mental collapse. I stayed on medication for 18 months and finally ...

a bad day.......  Hello all,

A Bad Day and i sit here in northern Ireland with a chip buttie and im lonely, Really really lonely.
This new life is horrific, unwanted ...

Shine on you Crazy Diamond.....  I Listen to the song and torture myself. Unsure why I do things to bring on the sorrow. I tell myself that I am in the beginning of the acceptance. Perhaps ...

Too Much Loss  Was dealing with the passing of my 87 year old mother. She'd lived with me, my husband and son for 7 years, since my dad died. She was in a nursing home ...

We widows are a big group.  I lost my husband, friend and confidant on April 17, 2010 and was immediately admitted into the widow's club of the world. I have found since that we ...

Is there a finish line?  My grief is I assume at the later stages. I do not really know what acceptance is. I suppose it is the ability to move on without the one person you ...

12 Days of Happily Ever After  My husband died on the last day of our honeymoon in Maui, Hawaii on Thanksgiving Day November 26, 2009. We were married for only 12 days. He drowned ...

empty empty empty  10 days before our wedding he just didn't wake up one morning. 12 years we were together - since we were 17. It's been 3 years since he died and I can'...

4 months Its still dark and I see no dawn  I've sold his truck, packed our house which now belongs to me and only packed my stuff. I've moving across the states and now sold our/my car because it ...

nightmare called life  It was 3 months ago today, Bryan collapsed in my arms July 23, 2010. It seems like it was just yesterday that my nightmare started, but it also seems like ...

where/how do you start?  It was around 9am, July 23rd when my love collapsed in my arms. I now just wander around aimlessly most of the time. I talk to Bryan's star every night ...

No Longer Wedding, now Nightmare  Were almost 2 weeks away from the day we were gonna get married. Now that you are no longer here with me, how am i expected to get through this. what ...

AND IT STARTS AGAIN  You think that maybe you are making steps forward. Well even if you do not life pulls, you forward and you are along for the ride. So there is movement....

Only Love that I will ever have  I lost my wife and best friend on July 23, 2010 at 37 years old. This October 17th will be our 18 year anniversary. Every day it seems to get harder. Everyone ...

Getting through this together  Bryan has told me for the past 26 years of our lives that as long as we have each other and the lord we can get through anything. No matter how tough times ...

A Dreaded Anniversay  Jerry and I were true soul mates. We loved each other totally from the first time we saw each other. We worked together, played together and were a true ...

the love of my life  Norm was the love of my life. I knew from the first moment I met him at work and looked into his eyes that he was the one for me. It was not one of those ...

my love Bryan, the brightest star  My daughters and I noticed a star in the sky the night that my husband was taken to heaven. This star has never been there before. Bryan and I always loved ...

Waiting for the loneliness to subside10-10-10  Its the midnight hour and for these past few days I have noticed a change, some sort of metamorphosis and I am not comfortable with it. It was an angry ...

Wondering what he is doing today....  My husband died 2 months ago tomorrow of end stage liver disease. He was told on his 38th birthday most in his condition don't make it past 3 to 6 months,...

Thank You All  My husband Bryan and I always made the effort to let people know how we felt, whether that be good or bad. The one thing we observed over our years together ...

The Pain never stops.....  May 10th, 2009. I awoke, my loving husband awoke, with only one thing on his mind, going to the store to get coffee creamer so that I could have coffee,...

The Anger The Tears and The Memories Strangle me  So here I am at 11 months as of tomorrow 10-06-10
Part of me is Proud that I have made it this far.

That each day that I choked down did not kill my ...

It does get better  Hi all,

I have written before and get great strength from this site. I am nearing two years into my journey and slowly but surely I am getting thro....

My first anniversary by myself  Click on each photo to enlarge

Today was our 24th wedding anniversary. We have actually been together for 26 years but married 24 of them. Today was ...

Tomorrow is his birthday  It was the first time we were going to celebrate it on the day, together, in a very long time.
He was on the road last year, he came home I sent him his ...

Weary Soul  It will be three weeks tomorrow, 10-5-10, since I lost my true love. We never had our time together. We were planning for a future that, while we knew ...

Anniversary tommorrow; how will I survive?  Click on each picture to enlarge

I lost my everything July 23, 2010. It has been really really tough, but my two girls have been my rock. I found ...

Our Love Together  This is a picture of total happiness.

This is what I was forever ago.

The man of course My Husband My Life

Hence the Huge Smile.

I was Once ...

True Love Never Dies  I lost my soulmate on July 23. 2010. He was my husband for almost 24 years (Oct. 4). He was my lover, best friend, and soulmate for 26 years (May 1984)...

Backwards  Just when you think you are going ok - it comes and bites you again - I had felt quite positive, am about to move house, take some steps forward, then ...

Never Our Time  On Sept 14, 2010, I lost my best friend. We were co-workers who, thru shared experiences, became best friends and a hope for more in our lives. About ...

Tinu my love, best friend, soul mate and fiance,   In the middle of all wedding preparations, all the final touches, at the peak of all the happiness just when life could not get any better he took the ...

Losing Larry last week is so hard to understand  Larry and me met over twenty years ago, we were actually together for the past two years. Unfortunately, on Wednesday, September 15, 2010 Larry died in ...

We were 15 and fell in love, 3 years later he passes away.  Click on each photo for caption

I was a sophomore in High School when i first laid eyes on him. I could not stop thinking about him for a month ...

It's been 2 weeks   Wednesday will be 2 weeks since I lost the man I was supposed to spend the rest of my life with. We had been living with each other for 9 years (which ...

Why so young and so close together!!!  April was a month of hell for me. I lost my cousin Chad at age 35 on April 21st and lost my kids father(Ray) age 36 on April 23rd. Both was unexpected!...

Baby steps  I have written on here before, "the shell on the outside", well every day, all day and night, I miss John as if I have had my right arm cut off. But I ...

I Am Not Living   Seventeen months and two days since you passed away. I am still left with so much grief and some anger. What happened to ...And they lived happily ever ...

Another long, lonely holiday weekend  Well it's Labor Day Weekend, yet another in a series of lonely holidays stretched out before me. Since I lost Barry these holidays are like two sided ...

A Turn of the Wheel  Whether I like it or not, life forces me forward. John and I were going to move into our home, then, he died, eleven days after his cancer diagnosis he ...

My Love, My Husband, My Buddy  It's been only 3 weeks since since my husband Chris left me and went to heaven. It seems like an eternity. Family left, I am alone in the house now and ...

I've hit the fourth stage  Already I feel better. Having found this site, and reading the 'seven stages of grief' I realise I've hit the fourth stage, the one of deep despair, withdrawal,...

Day 50  Why can't I sleep? Why am I a bundle of tears again?! I was doing better. I've been so busy learning my new job. Now, I find myself on this computer unable ...

My Heart  July 16, 2010 started out like any other day. I talked with my husband before I left for work, kissed him and told him I loved him. Little did I know,...

Paul's Garage month 8 8/06/10  They talk about ghost in the closet. How about ghost in the garage?

We all have a place where our boogyman waits. To scare us into the pit of memories....

Re: the shell on the outside  The other morning I woke up to someone snoring - I turned over in bed to wake John up - he wasn't there!

That day after eight months, I found this site....

Loss of my husband, my love  On June 13th I lost the love of my life, my husband Len. He had suffered thru 11 years of treatment for a brain tumor, and Parkinsons. He had tried everything,...

"My Best Friend"  In Jan., 2009, I lost my husband of 39 years to liver cancer. Anyone who has watched as the love of their life slowly disappear into the body of pain ...

EIGHT MONTHS AND STILL GRIEVING  I lost my Barry back in November 2009. It's been almost nine months now and I am still really grieving for him. My outward appearance looks like I'm ...

STOP PLEASE JUST STOP  STOP, please, please stop

Stop telling me that it has not been enough time.
Stop telling me I have so much to live for.
Stop telling me that others ...

The perfect man for me  I lost my husband Jim to pulmonary hypertension on Sept. 17, 2009. He was on the transplant list for a double lung transplant. We were together for 32 ...

Mac Died on July 25, 2010  It?s hard to know how much/little to write here; my husband died unexpectedly a little over 48 hours ago . . . and I don't know whether this site demands ...

Trapped  Im trapped in this house.

It's 105 degrees

Just like when I was Trapped in December A snowstorm and fresh raw grief.

The heat forces my to busy ...

My Darling Sylvia  My wife Sylvia and I had fifty wonderful years of marriage and for that I am grateful. She looked after me for months when I had a life threatening illness....

One month  Today is one month since my love left this earth. And today I received in the mail a package, some of the cards and letters I've sent him over the years....

The Picture  A moment frozen in time. Desperation, hope and utter hopelessness. I look at a picture of the two of us taken before you left me, and that is what I ...

Forever Interrupted  On April 24, 2010, my life was changed forever. My 40 year old husband died from a massive heart attack. One minute he was there....the next gone. We were ...

My Love, (Francis P. Holt)  I Hope that The life that I am carving out for Boo and I meets your expectations. I feel that I do not give the other kids the support that they ...

GIVE HIM BACK TO ME  I'M 26 YRS OLD AND NOW A WIDOW, MY HUSBAND PAST AWAY 2WKS AGO FROM CYSTIC FIBROSIS. I WANT HIM BACK!!!!

HE WAS ONLY 27 YRS OLD, I GUESS THAT SONG IS ...

My Love My Life My Johnny  I'm 24 an I am a widow already! Life sucks!

I met Johnny when I was 15 years old. I was always so shy, he helped me pick up my books that had fallen ...

How do I get off this roller coaster?  One minute I'm fine, the next I'm sobbing uncontrollably. One time I look at your picture and I'm so full of love and have that sweet warmth of your love....

I lost the love of my ife  Ten years ago I met a man from West Africa, I had never dated a man of color, I fell deeply and madly in love with him. We saw each other frequently but ...

THE LIES  How many times before his death, I heard it. How many million of times after his death have I heard it. You will survive, you will heal, and it will ...

How do I love thee? let me count the months...7/6/10  My Love,

It has been 7 months and my love for you has not lessened. You left me to carve out a new life and I am trying.

I know that you'...

Today would have been his birthday  My husband of twenty years died in his bed after a short but severe illness on May 5, 2009. It was just a few days before my birthday. Today, July 5,...

July 4th Weekend and Yet another holiday without My Love...  July 4th is tomorrow...
Another Holiday to "celebrate"

Without My Love it is forced.

But My son expects it and I will keep My facade on for him....

Loss of a spouse  I lost my husband on April 2, 2010, after a long illness where I was his caregiver. I had promised him that I would care for him at home, as long as I ...

Butchie's Battle for All His Loved ones..........  It is very difficult to know how to start...I am Lisa( Butchie's, Stanley Anthony Tyrrell's Wife and now Widow). On APRIL 7, 2009 my husband came home ...

Loss of husband 7 months ago yesterday  Yesterday was a most difficult day for me and depressing. I woke up as sick as I have ever been, and miss my viejo so much. I went to the doctor and am ...

Roy  On June 10th, 2010, my husband, best friend, confidant, protector and love passed away. He had retired in 2008 and a month later discovered he had two ...

My beautiful man  I lost my husband on Feb 20th 2010, after he lost consciousness on Jan 1st 2010. We did not wish happy new year to each other that day, we were struggling ...

Where am I?  I married my High School sweetheart, Jenny, on February 18, 1989. I was 16, she was 18. Everybody told us we would never make it. We knew better. In September ...

My Husband, My Best Friend, My Life  I lost my husband Joe on 3/6/10. He was my best friend and my whole world. We were married for 10.5 yrs., but together for 18 yrs. When we first met,...

My true Love  I lost my husband of 18 years in January of this year. He had a seizure in November and it was diagnosed that he had a brain tumor and cancer throughout ...

Missing Bill  May 30, 2010 I found my best friend and love of my life dead from a heart attack. It seems like a bad dream and I wish I could wake up. I have had many ...

Lost Susie  On Thanksgiving of last year I lost my best friend, the love of my life, my pal, my loving Husband. He came to me and said he was having trouble breathing ...

THE ONLY MAN I EVER REALLY AND TRULY LOVED MY POOCHELINE   I GOT WITH HIM BACK IN THE EARLY 80S HES THE MAN I ALWAYS DREAMED ABOUT GOOD LOOKING, BUILT GREAT PERSONALITY, WASN'T SCARED OF ANYONE OR ANYTHING. WHEN ...

Lost my Hope and don't know where to go from here  Lost my husband...lost my hope and dreams and vision. I can't express the ache in my body, heart, and the clatter in my brain that says "I didn't pray ...

She died peacefully on 5/9/2010  My soul mate of 20 years died. I was with her as was her two sisters and our dog. I cannot sleep and Buffy the dog can't either. Lin was my best friend,...

Memorial Day (weekend) 2010  Memorial Day is to honor all those that fought for our freedom. Even the freedom to have that cookout with friends and family.

My husband fought in ...

I Thought it Would Last Forever-3   Josh and I had been together for 3 1/2 years. We were planning on getting married & having children together. He was 19; I 18. We were both attending college ...

Grieving wife  My husband died on June 25th, 2008 from suicide, I have been struggling daily with this and the waves of grief are unbelievable. What is really hard is ...

I miss you more every day  I lost my husband four months ago to suicide while he was incarcerated. What makes this so hard to bear is I thought his being arrested would save his ...

April  I lost my wonderful husband of 40 years on April 3rd in a terrible tractor accident. He had been driving tractors since he was young. He had worked his ...

Lost but still here ?  I was married in May of 2008, 3 1/2 months later I lost her. Your parents are 2 rocks to keep you steady through life. Losing 1 has put me seriously off ...

Lost my husband on June 30, 2009, it feels like yesterday  I lost my husband June 30, 2009, and it still feels like yesterday. Sometimes I think I feel him around me, but then I wonder if I am going crazy or do ...

loss of husband 6 months ago update  It will be 6 months since I lost my husband on May 22nd. I am still missing him and still feel the same intense love for him. I am very busy with work ...

lost my dearest dearest love  Dan and my self Thomas were almost to together 21 years . 3 1/2 years ago he had a heart attack and the got pml . Was unable to work, i stopped working ...

The Mask  There are those moments, early in the morning, when I am pulling myself out of the sleep that is induced by sleeping pills, when I look up and he is laying ...

My Best Friend, My True Love!  I lost my husband last September, he was always home every evening. We spent day and night together, he was always such a joy, we traveled many miles and ...

I Cannot Breathe  Someone asked me the other day how long I planned on grieving.. I said, for the rest of my life..
It is like the world is moving, and I want it all to ...

My wife my best friend my true love  May 30th, 2006, started out like every other day, but would end up a day i would never forget. My wife of 21 years died that day suddenly. Out of the blue,...

Francis P. Holt... What stage of grief is this?  It's heading towards the 5th month, May 6th, 2010.

Yet I do not understand this latest form of grief.

I don't give a Damn.

Yet feel guilt and ...

My husband,my best friend  I lost my husband Gerald (age 36) on 2-1-10. He was driving to a friends house about 20 minutes from home, when he crossed over into the other lane and ...

Husband and Best Friend  We were married for almost 36 years. Bruce was a gentleman. Always thought of me first. When we met, we knew that we were going to me married. Met in ...

I've lost my Bear  I’ve lost my Bear.

My husband Barry died on 11/28/09. He had been ill and in some hospital facility for 75 days. He should not have died from a routine ...

Losing my little soul mate, not quite getting through it, 7 months later..  I never thought at 23 I would have to be saying goodbye to my true love without any kind of warning.

I met Ryan 3 years ago when I was 20 and he was ...

Jeannie   I lost my companion, it will be 4 months on the 19th of April. I am so lost, I feel like I will totally lose my mind, I cry constantly and so alone. I ...

Misko was my everything!!!  On January 3rd of 2010, I lost the love of my life. We had been friends for 12 years and we finally crossed paths and started dating. We both were finally ...

I just want my wife and son back  It started on 12-09-2002, my wife and son were arguing. He pushed her, which started me and Bryan fighting, She got on the phone and called the Dallas ...

Carolyn...Love of My Life  Today, March 25th, would have been our 37th wedding anniversary. My wife Carolyn drowned in a rafting accident in New Zealand on Jan 17, 2010. I miss ...

My baby.. gosh I miss you. 3 years. Now I'm all alone..  My boyfriend of three years passed away on the 14th of March. I am 19.. he would have been 21 in November. He died doing something he loved oh so very ...

Mrs. T. F.  I have been staring at this blank page for 10 minutes and still don't know where to start.

My husband of 34 years is no longer holding my hand. As of ...

Loss of husband  I am giving an update on how I am coping since the loss of my husband. It will be 4 months on March 22.

I miss him something terrible. I think about ...

Brain Injury...Anyone dealing with this specific Grief?  Aug of 08 My Husband found out he had an aneurysm on the left hemisphere. Surgery (9-8-08) was to be 3-5 hours for a clipping. It took 13 hours, there ...

Lost my spouse and true love  I found out last June that I have cancer. Two weeks later my husband died. We went to our house in Maine on June 28th and he died three hours later. He ...

Lost My Love, My Best Friend, My Support - Five Years Later, The Loneliness is Unbearable  Five years ago, April 22, 2005, my husband passed away unexpectedly. Two years prior he suffered the same illness, severe asthma, the treatment was the ...

My John  I lost my John on 16th january 2010 after 39 years being married, this year we would have celebrated our ruby and I just cannot believe that he is gone....

29 Year Love  I met my husband when I was 12 years old and he was 13. He always made me laugh. We talked on the phone until the early morning hours almost every day....

My whole life was pulled out from me in one fatal night  I was married for seventeen years, me and husband had two kids one girl and one boy. My husband was a plumber, he worked very hard. He was a wonderful ...

Loss of my Best Friend  I lost my best friend on Jan 31,2010. We met in Sept of 2008 and we instantly fell in love. We both had bad marriages and we finally found each other....

My Darling Wife Lisa - 8/13/61 - 2/4/2010  After a 3 1/2 year battle with a brain tumor, Lisa died with me and our three boys at her side, telling her how much we loved her. A model wife and mother ...

Kristina  It started with a toothache at the end of September that my husband took painkillers for. He then had severe diarrhea through the night for around 6 weeks;...

My world ended Nov 25, 2009  My husband passed away from complications of a bone marrow transplant (for Leukemia) on 11/25/09. He had been in ICU for 5 weeks with various pneumonias,...

Loss of Husband 3 months ago  As of 2-22-10 it will be 3 months since my husband went to be with Lord. I think of him all the time and how much he suffered with that heart failure. I ...

Gary - The love of my life  I lost my husband on January 27, 2010. He was diagnosed in October 2009 with terminal lung cancer. They gave him max a year with chemo and radiation....

My Husband, my friend, my lover, my everything  
I lost my husband 19 days ago,

I met Garry when I was 21 and he was 23, he was just out of the Navy, So handsome..it was love at first sight..we ...

Selfish suicide  My boyfriend committed suicide on Sept 16th and I have been having a very difficult time dealing. He actually disappeared and it took almost two weeks ...

Doug - my husband and best friend  We met when I was nearly 16 and he was 18. I wasn’t keen to go out with him at first, but two and a half years later, we were married! Since then, I ...

Paul My Cajun Love - I Miss You!  I thought I would be spared, forget what today was.

Its been 2 months to the day he died.

Some days easier, some days brutal sorrow.

Making ...

Brian Moriarty  On 9th November 2009, my husband of 29 years was diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer, also in the liver and intestines. The prognosis was 6 months with no ...

Lost Without You  My love, yesterday would have been your 46th birthday. I could not get out of bed. I miss you more than words can begin to describe. I still think you ...

My True Love...Ronnie Lee Underown  Ronnie was my life, my world, my everything!!! I have so much to deal with and it is overwhelming me. I know that I am not the only person that has ever ...

My Daisy  My Wife, Daisy Baillie, passed away on Jan 09, 2010...
I wish to share her smiling recent photo, to let
others know how important she has been in my ...

Too Sudden; Too Young  He was here; then he was gone. My beloved husband. He got up the morning of October 20, 2009 expecting to go out with me and help me with an errand. He ...

My wife, my angel, my whole world  This past Tuesday, January 12, 2010, my wife of 13 years passed on to her next job as an angel. And every moment without her is unbearable.

She spent ...

Loss Of Husband  On Nov 22 2009, my husband went to be with the Lord. He was 70 yrs old. He had stents put in his heart at a cardiac hospital and only lived a week after ...

My Beloved  We met. I was 15, he was 18. We had 45 years of love, companionship, tenderness and, and ... How do you express being connected at so deep a level that ...

The half that made me whole: Francis P. Holt 12/06/09  The Half that made me whole died 12/06/09, a mere month ago. Instead of getting easier, it is getting harder. The grief overwhelms me at times, sometimes ...

Stephy and Stan  I met Stan 4 years ago. He was 18 years older than me and all of his friends and family thought I was with him for his money. When we met it was love at ...

Losing the Love of My Life  Chuck and I had a unique relationship. We ran away together and deserted our respective spouses 14 years ago. Of course it was a reprehensible thing to ...

I lost the man who showed me life  My husband was in an accident October 21st, I still have not received all the information about his death. I hate that word, it makes me so mad, because ...

My friend, My heart, My husband   On October 2, 2009 I lost my husband of 21 years at the young age of 56. Not only was he my husband, he was my best friend. When the light went out in ...

I lost the only person who ever understood me...  On November 15, 2009, my partner of 5 years died suddenly at the age of 39 at 10pm. Earlier that day he’d said he didn’t feel well and went to lay down....

We had such a short time together....  We had both been in previous relationships with alcoholics, we met and immediately fell in love and married within two short years. He went out to work ...

Loss of the Love of My Life my Beloved Mike  We met when I was 9 yrs old in a park and he was 13. I joked around and said I was going to marry him.

Well I did just that and we had 40 yrs together....

Mack  It was the night of February 9, 2009, a date I will never be able to forget. Mack and I had been having marital problems since October of last year, and ...

My lovely husband died of cancer, 2 weeks after being diagnosed  My husband and I met when I was just 17 and he 24. I am now 46. We had just returned from seeing our son and his wife in America. We had only been home ...

The Other End of an Echo  I used to get Roses with a card that said behold the flowers of love. He used to love to use Red Envelope because he could order me surprises and they ...

My Husband, My Hero, My Everything  My Husband and I had been together 6 years when he decided to be one of the 1% of Americans that join the army during war time. He went through boot camp ...

Missing my love  My finace was killed August 17, 2011. Although its been a little over 5 months, its so hard to make it through the days still. I finally went back to work ...

The hole my soulmate left in my heart 
He went in for a simple outpatient procedure that cost him his life. He was only 34 we had plans to get married and have kids now they will never come ...

Entered the 2nd Anniversary of my Husbands Passing.  Hi. Everyone. I posted A year ago.
Well here I am again. I wanted to update where I stand 2 years &13days later in in my Grieving. Well let me say this ...

shock or grief 
i just lost my fiancee a week ago and i feel so empty...hes really gone and i am never going to see him again

Lost 
My wife died 14 years ago when our two kids were very young. Now, my youngest will leave for college in a few months. Empty nest for one. I battled ...

Grief and My Own Journey  GRIEF AND MY OWN JOURNEY

Grief comes in several different ways and times during a person’s life. It can be in the loss of a spouse, child, pet, job ...

Five Months Today.  Randy and I were married about nine years when he died. Randy was safety supervisor on oil rig in PA. He had worked in the oil field for circa 30 years....

From here to Eternity  
She is 37 years of beauty and grace we did every thing together every thing at 57 she passed from dementia a family of 10 the other 9 were trash not ...

thank you 
This is a thank you to all that leave a comment for my story
though they are grieving too they take the time thank you
Also I just want to say how ...

Mel 
My husband was killed on 9-3-11 in a motorcycle accident. The Holiday Season has been do hard. But even harder is starting a New Year without him. I ...

Merry Christmas Marsha 
Marsh, Merry Christmas My love MISS you so much..... I will allways Love You!! Rick

The Love of my life  I lost my Husband Jan.12,2009 to lung cancer at the age of 50 we were married 32yrs.He was my everything and I really don't know how to go on without him ...

My Walking Angel Doug  Doug and I met in December of 2010. We did not start seeing each other until June of 2011. Doug called me out of the blue and asked me to dinner. I went ...

dont feel right  my son has meet a women 6 months after her husband died less infact already she sleeping with my son in the bed she shared with her dead husband ...

1 year, 10 months and I'm still in so much pain  This weekend has been horrible. I have not stopped crying. I miss Mike so much and the pain is so unbearable. Last night I was crying so much I wanted ...

lost my life  i lost my friend lover mother sister what not everything to me.. where i feel happy and comfortable in her presence ... i lost her i lost my life..i love ...

Only a year...  I only had a year with the most amazing man and Im devastated. I have so much respect for you all that get through this horrible experience with so many ...

REALLY GONNA MISS YOU......  When my husband passed away my daughter and her best friend prepared a CD of his favorite songs to hand out at the funeral. This was the last song on ...

I stood by his side & watched him fight.  I met my lover and knew from the start he had leukemia but he was a fighter and was going to a world class hospital for treatment- stem cell transplant....

my true love M.A  I only just lost my true love last week :( the pain in my heart is unbearable and the rest of my body is hurting to the point where I find it hard to simply ...

Fall Is here again  For the last few months I've been healing or so i thought. Everything seemed to be getting better I mean after all i should be after a year and three months....

Karen Edwards  I am 51 years of age and live in the UK. I was married in 1983 and eventually managed to give birth to a lovely daughter in June of 1992.

In January ...

MY DREAM COME TRUE  Over 5 years ago a friend introduced me to a very nice gentleman he was my dream come true. I was in a bad relationship and my friend decided to introduce ...

Well I'm still here  It's 3 am on july 24th. Well I'm still here, the day went better than I thought it would. I only had about five to seven outbursts, meltdowns, whatever ...

so sudden  it just happened...tiger was ok living with his hep c.but he had under gone so many tests and everything over the last weeks and was considered ok.....nothing ...

Debbie  My husband went to sleep one night & I didnt wake him in time. The meds & the hard work was toxic & he quit breathing at 41 years old. We were together ...

8 Months of Heartbreak And Accomplishments   It's been 8 months today since the love of my life went to heaven. I have lit a candle and held his small urn close to my heart and cried still loving ...

unbreakable  i miss my donte,donte was my everything my hubby/son dadddy i loved him dearly, i mean a love thats undescribable , and i sure he felt the same about me ...

While we are down  If anyone of our group needs to talk now while they are fixing the site
Please feel free to email me at zoebdraughon@hotmail.com

Joe You're Missing So Much  My first Christmas without my husband is just a blur. Pictures of the family posing without him there. I don't want to those pictures. He missed the ...

Losing John  Losing John...

If memory serves correctly I think it was around May 2010 when he started to complain about not being able to breathe very good. He would ...

Missing my Love on New Years Eve  It's New Years eve and I've been crying most of the day. I miss my Chuck so damn much it aches. We always said Happy New year, I love you and kiss early ...

5 months  My oldest daughters boyfriend asked me yesterday as we were sitting on my front deck, if it felt like it was just yesterday that Bryan passed. I told him ...

Goodby charlie  i had cancer almost 5 years, now i'm in remission i think what helped me threw it all was a very good friend of mine who i knew all of my life while growing ...

One week, and still in shock.  My boyfriend/partner and I have been together for three years. I have a teenager at home and we decided to keep separate homes until my son was on his ...

One year ago today was my first post  For any of you that have had a recent loss. It's true at first you feel like there is no way that you can go on. It's also true that the pain gets easier ...

my husband the one I knew for 30 years  We didn't have a perfect marriage, far from it. But somehow we always seemed to be together. He was suffering for a long time, and no one could seemed ...

"Special Friend"   "Special friend" is how the obituary read. Nine years with this man and I'm referred to like some helmet wearing retard that was his pet project. Did they ...

Little Gabby is Here  My darling little Miss Gabby was born Sept.15, 2010 at 12:23 am. You should be here. Bubba even cried and said "Mama, Leroy should be here to see this....

I need you  MY love, you were so happy when Bubba straightened out his life. He's working, married, and next week his child will be born. All I could think today when ...

Paul Holt Labor Day 9 months 9/06/10  My Love,

Nine months have past, And it would seem that life would head in a new direction as in birth. It indeed is a labor to live this life ...

During the day you said, "promise me you'll never leave me." During the night, "YOU" left me!  Around 4am March 30, 2002...

The shell on the outside  That is what I feel like most of the time, as if I have a hard outer shell, but inside I am marshmallow - I can only hope I am strong enough to survive,...

My Soul Mate is gone  July 1st of this year, I lost my wife, Jan, to that insidious disease, cancer. This coming July 28th would be the 30th anniversary of our 1st date - yeah,...

Losing The Love of My Life  Tommy and I met 38 years ago. Young kids who fell in love. Circumstances parted us. We had separate lives but never forgot each other.

38 years later ...

I'll never again pick up the phone and hear "Hi, Babe!"  I met Leroy 31 years ago. He was a beat cop and I a graveyard shift waitress. There were lots of cops who came in. They clowned, flirted, and were boisterous....

Mary  Just came upon this website; feel bit more normal as i felt i shouldn't still be in such a mess after 3 and half years of losing my soulmate. Everyone ...

After 50years 1 month and 16 days I am alone for the 1st time  My guy was always healthy and strong. He probably missed work less than two weeks during those 50 years. I always have had a weight problem and was absolutely ...

The Love of My Life  March 20, 2010 was the absolute worst day of my life! I did not know he was as sick as he was until then. I will NEVER forget the most heart breaking ...

MY SHAD  On August 9, 2009, my husband drowned. We will have been married for 18 yrs on June 15. Like most relationships we had our ups and downs. At the time ...

I Lost My First Love and My Soulmate  February 22, 2010 I lost my soul mate. We had been married for 26 years and divorced the last 6 years. He had liver disease for 12 years and I never thought ...

Four Months like yesterday a forever ago...12/06/09 Francis P. Holt  I remember you at the oddest times.

I Cut Your Grass and sobbed for all to see.

Your garage is a mess, all reminders of you.

A weed whacker is ...

Why Did You Leave Me With So Much Hurt?  One year ago, you went into the hospital and never came out. You left me, my sweetheart. I am still so hurt by some your actions during the end of your ...

Caveman  I met adam in the spring of 2008. He was the kind of guy that I had always seen myself with. We started to date on March 25. We had a difficult relationship....

Endless Tears  I lost my love my life that night. The lyrics of a Pearl Jam song sum up what happened. I was waiting for him to come and see me, he didn't make it. I ...

January 27th, 2006 and still grieving.....  Almost four years ago my husband died of brain cancer. It was sudden and although we were to have him for 8 more months, it was only 3 weeks. It was ...

The Other Half Of My Heart  At the age of 51 and 51, we were married. Things were great ! I suppose it is not common to think about bad things ahead, and we didn't. Only the good ...

Nancy, a beautiful soul lost to cancer...  God how she fought to stay alive!! And although suffering tremendously, she always thought about how others felt, and wanted them to be happy....

When ...

I miss the love of my life!!!  My fiance and I reunited after 20 years being apart this year February 28, 2009. He found me on facebook, he lives in New Jersey and I live in California....