My husband went to sleep one night & I didnt wake him in time. The meds & the hard work was toxic & he quit breathing at 41 years old. We were together 16 years & we have a 6 & 10 year old. The safety & security is almost umbearable. He was so good to me & I could trust him completely. I miss him so much, I waited 3 months for a miracle of brain waves to come back but it wasnt meant to be. Some things help. like people say "don't put him on a pedestal & idolize him" Be glad for what you have not what you don't have. He is not in pain any more. Joel Osteen is an awesome preacher, get his books & watch him on tv & e-mail. He is in houston. I buried him May 28, & I was hoping that grieving for all that time, I would be ok now. But the fridge went out & stuff is breaking. My husband could fix everything. He was a master fixer. I love him so much. I hope to find a man better than him if that is possible. The Lord says the 2nd year of your life will be better than the first. Look at the Lord not at your situation. Get the book "Widow to Widow" 90 seconds in Heaven" and hang in there. The first part of this nightmare is 99 percent sad & 1 percent happy but those percentages change every day, a little at a time. Keep your thought toward God.
