My wife filed for divorce 1 month ago before our 19 year anniversary. She is 39, I'm 44..We have been together for 22 years and have four beautiful children together, 2 girls and 2 boys.
We had problems like any marriage but I always was the one begging for forgiveness wether it was my fault or not. Petty things mostly, money, kids.. Now she's telling me that she is done and cant handle it anymore. She just wants out, to live her life, away from me. I don't think there is another man but I also don't go looking because I don't want to know, I don't know what I would do.
She is the women of my dreams even with our differences in the marriage, I grew to love and accept her for who she was, isn't that what love and marriage is about, acceptance?
I can't eat, I can't sleep, I feel like I can't even enjoy my beautiful children. I feel so devastated. We have talked but when we do, it's about how much I disgust her. Her hate and contempt for me after all these years, after all we have done, all we have been through is eating me alive.
I know she won't change her mind and stop this divorce, she has too many negative influences. Her family and friends keep telling her to get out, life is too short to feel this way.
We went to counseling, she never followed one recommendation. I've given my heart and soul to my beautiful wife and she's just chewing on my heart and spitting it out. I'm so lost, so hurt and so devastated.