Did I make the right decision?
My husband and I have been together 1.5 years. We have been marrid for 3 months. While we dated I endured him constantly lying to me, hidden emails, his divorce not being finalized, him cheating on me by sending pics to another woman of his private parts on my birthday and then denying he even did it or knew the girl. I kept taking him back because I loved him. We are military and we both deployed for 7 months away from each other. In that time, we argued because there was no trust. He bought an engagement ring and then returned it before I got back from my deployment. We finally ended our relationship after dating for 11 months. We were broken up for 2 1/2 months and in that time, he talked to two girls and had sex with one of them 2 weeks before I got home. When I returned he showed me his final divorce decree and said he wanted to work things out and start over. I told himI knew about the 2 girls and if he got rid of them we could start over. He changed his number and his email. I told them these girls would email him at his work accct to still talk to him. If that happened he was to tell me. 2 weeks after I returned he insisted we get married. Against my better judgment we did.
We continued arguing about trust. He would lie about everything and I would find out the truth somehow.
He would email girl )friends) from work and then delete it from his phone. I would find it on the phone bill. I said if you arent doing anything wrong, why delete it from your [phone and hide it? 45 days after we were married, a girl he slept with 2 weeks before I got home called me and said she was pregnant with his child. She sent me the ultrasound and gave me her due date. Her due date reversed matched up with the 4 days he went to see her. I was devastated. She said he knew about the baby and offered to pay for an abortion. I confronted him and he said he never knew about the baby. She sent me 7 emails proving he knew. The worst part is he knew before we were married and decided not to tell me. He didnt even give me the chance to make a decision on my own if I wanted to stay with him or not. That was Dec and its Feb now. From then until now we argue all the time. I just dont trust him at all. All I can think about is this baby. Its not the girls fault or the babies fault. He already pays 700 a month for 2 kids from his ex. We have to wait til July for the paternity test. I filed for divorce 2 days ago. I am so sad. He is so cold and distant and says I will never trust him. He just always throws in the towel. He says he changed but he hasnt changed because he continues to lie and hold things from me. I thought about pulling my papers and trying again. I am so lost