Did my mother die because of my small mistake in my job....
I lost my mother suddenly on 12/2/13 due to a heart attack. My mothers age was 50 at that time and i was 28. She had no heart problems and was healthy and used to go to the market and to do daily house hold things.
She was only suffering from psychiatric illness bipolar psychosis since 20 years but used to have medicines and lead a normal life. she had diabetes and thyroid problem but that doesnt lead to sudden death.
My name is raymond. I am the only child of my mom and she was also the only child.I was only earning member at home and supported my mom. She was divorced since 25 years and I used to stay with her and take care of her. Me my mom and my maid lived together and had a good life as i was in a good job and earning well. Then I took up a job abroad and used to be in touch with my mom and visit her every 3 months
I was happy with my job until one day one small incident changed my whole life forever. I committed a small mistake in my job unintentionally where i accessed a security restricted area and I wasnt aware that area is security restricted. I asked my supervisor permission that could i go there to keep something and he allowed because my supervisor also was not aware. This wasnt taught to me in my training also it wasnt in any manual and there was no memo for it released my the company.
I myself told the company that i entered that area when the company called me in relation to some other issue .I was put on investigation . Days and days passed and i didnt know what would be the result. everyone told me its fine and nothing will happen. Its a small issue. Hence i shared with my mother. Initially she was fine but as days passed she felt more stressed it was 3 days ...6 days ...10 days and still i was suspended for my small mistake and didnt know what to expect. All I knew tht my mother was getting more stressed after each passing day.
Then finally after 2 weeks my company told me its a serious issue and its common sense that I should have not accessed tht area and it would lead to my termination from my job.
I never made any mistake in my job and was promoted due to my good performance ...but this small mistake which i made unintentionally and without knowing that its a mistake cost me my job. My mother was heartbroken and more stressed but i told her i couldn't do anything and its just my bad luck and misfortune that such a thing happened .
I told my mom i had my final appeal with the chairman if he comes back in time and if management allows me to meet him. Nevertheless i have to start my clearance process and its up to chairman if possible to forgive me and give me my job back. Only god and prayers can help me.
My mother and I prayed fervently that I save my job because i left a good job back home and came abroad to make my future but this small mistake changed everything. I requested the management to give me once chance but they didn't and said if chairman doesn't come i will have to go.
My visa was cancelled .. i returned all company belongings during 4 days of my clearance process and I was ready to expect the worst . I had already lost my job .what more could I loose. Then next day when the chairman came I wasnt allowed by security to meet him and was told i need an appointment. I told them I lost my job and day after I am going forever . Please give me one chance to see him as I am only earning member of my family and supporting my mother. Still I didnt get chance and I told my mother I will try again tommorow to meet chairman because i want justice.
My mother told me forget it and just come back .. enough of torture you have gone through .. you will find another job. I am really sad at what you have been through.
I told my mother till last day i will try to meet chairman and explain my situation because i want justice.
As god would wish 1 day before going i managed to go to chairman office without an appointment and explained my situation and He reinstated me although demoted me but atleast i got my job back. My mother was happy and so was I.
My mother just told me that she wants to see me for some time and spend time with me after so much ordeal and torchure of 3 weeks where i lost my job and found it. I told her I will take my 15 days leave next month and come home to be with her, but now would like to resume my job.
She said im very sad that you are not coming now. I told her just wait 1 month as i just got my job back and need to get back in the flow.
After 1 week I got a call from my neighbour that my mother suffered from a heart attack and was no more. I couldnt believe it as last night I spoke to her and she said she was feeling a little sick so went to a dr and took some medicine but would be ok.
Then next morning suddenly my mother became very sick and called the doctor home . the doctor gave her injection and told my neighbour and friends they need to call ambulance to take her to hospital.
My friends and neighbour called ambulance but within 10 mins she suffered a major heart attack or cardiac failure and was no more. I was in complete shock . I just spoke to my mother yesterday and chatted with her on whats app . how could this happen.. she couldnt even tell me her last wish.. I felt that this couldnt happen and its not true. Why did this thing happen to me.
That was the saddest news i would hear and I reached home next day as i had to take a flight. Its the biggest shock and regret of my life.
I feel why did i share my problem with her. why did my mother take so much stress for my job. my job was not more important than her life. i can find a new job but once life goes it never comes back. I lost my job but die to gods grace i got it back... please can god help to take away everything and give life back to my mother.
I am alone without her and miss her so much and she was part of my life, my best friend and i shared everything with her. she loved me unconditionally and I was her most prized possession. She couldn't see me under stress or sad.
I researched online and found out stress can be a major factor to cause sudden heart attack without any family history. So stress killed my mother and I regret that because of my problem she was so stressed that it took her life. Thats what a mothers love is. and its the greatest love anyone can find.. You can breakup with your boyfriend... divorce your wife ... but you cannot breakup or divorce your mother. She is part of your life and willing to give up her life for you.
So people please dont trouble your mothers and give them stress because you dont know. how much your mother loves you and sometimes your sadness or problems can take her life. bad times and misfortune will come and go... jobs will come and go ...money will come and go ...relations will end and start again or new ones will start ... health will come and go...we still have hope for all these things to improve and hope for a better future.
But when life goes there is no hope of it coming back and this is the saddest truth in life. Losing your loved ones is the worst and saddest moment of life and especially if it was the one you loved the most. Dearest mummy I love you a lot and will always do and i pray you are happy in heaven as you were a gem of a person.
But as per science and logic i feel stress killed my mother but i being a muslim and some what religious person believe that god almighty has written everyone's time of death and only he knows.. and when its time for you to go nothing can stop death from taking your life. Thts the hardest reality of life. But i believe in day of judgement and everyones life and deeds will be accounted and by gods grace my mother will live in heaven happily ever after. Sometimes there is no justice in this world and my mother died too soon just at 50.. she wanted to see me married and i was taking her to vacation to singapore this year but all my dreams came crashing down.
I just pray for my mother because there is nothing more i can do. I have become more religious person and hope i meet my mom some day in heaven.I can never love anyone more than my mother and I will always miss her. Now all i can do is cherish her fond memories and remember her.
from a loving son who misses his mom too much