died at 18
by Chris LaPointe
My identical twin brother died when we were 18 years old.10 years later i feel just as broken as the moment he died of a car accident. I am very alone except for my 8 year old son who means everything to me. I got divorced 2 years ago and i feel lost. I don't care about much other than my son. My twin and i loved to play guitar but since he died I've had very little motivation in playing i seem to just go through the motions. I have 3 remaining brothers all older and i want my brother who's only a year and a half older than me to fill hush shoes but he never will and doesn't want to. I don't blame him i just can't find a solution or help anywhere. I feel like no one understands yet they think they do. I'm so different and broken more so than everyone I've ever known. Even other twins don't seem to give me much thought. I totally fail.to understand most people and they don't understand me. I suffer from chronic anxiety and depression. I'm going nowhere fast. When i was married my wife somewhat filled the void. I'm totally lost.