Don't understand why she would suddenly give up
Me and this girl first got together when we were fifteen years old. We had a very undeniable attraction and connection to each other that blossomed into a 4 year long relationship. Like any other couple, we encountered issues and stupid fights along the way, but we always stayed loyal and worked things out. Sometimes these fights would become sort of cyclical in a way, but for different reasons. In spite of these things we always came back to each other because of what seemed like our "unbreakable" bond.
We kind of mutually broke up last year before college because I didn't know if I wanted long distance anymore, and she agreed. Just a week after, we began talking again... on and off for several months until she came to my 20th surprise birthday, 3 months later in November. At the party it was like we were together again. Flirting, staying near each other constantly, smiling and hugging. I wanted to kiss her so bad that night but was afraid by how she'd react. Then we had distanced ourselves from each other for a couple weeks after the party; it made me realize how badly I wanted her back.
I began texting her, sending her snapchats of me smiling and telling her how beautiful she was. Before final exams in December, I asked her if she would let me take her out so we could try things over again. She told me maybe and remained distant until winter break came around, in which I came and talked to her in person. It took me four hours of trying to sway her to start over in which she decided to try. Her problem was that she didn't know if she'd love me the same.
After our first date in forever, things were magical. We continued on our long distance relationship, with much more mature mindsets. We both agreed within a few months that things between us were better than ever. Since I was moving back home for summer, we made all these plans for fun things to do together, I even am transferring to her college (not because of her in particular, but because of my major and their program).
Summer started out great between us; once the middle of summer came around we started getting into silly fights again because we just simply weren't be as openly communicative, I also sometimes began to get really negative about things in my life. (Work, friends letting me down, etc).
A couple weeks ago, she told me that all this fighting was wearing on us, and I agreed. A few days after her saying that, she came up to my lake house for a few days and we had an awesome time. She even told me that it was a great weekend of revival for us, to which I agreed. We talked a little about how to be better in communication with each other, and it seemed like things were sorted out.
She just moved back into school this past week and I am enrolled in community college in the same state before I transfer to her university. She's been busy with her moving... We were texting, the occasional phone call, and everything seemed fine. Until she flipped like a switch.
She got all distant and didn't want to tell me what was wrong because I was spending a few days out with some good friends and she didn't want to ruin my time. I asked if she was breaking up with me and she said she needed time to sort things in her head. Once I came back and we finally talked in person she told me she wasn't in love with me anymore. She made the realization and didn't want to lead me on making me think that she still did. However, she told me she will always love me and care about me. She insisted she wasn't seeing anyone else. I hated this; I stormed away in frustration and sadness. Later that night I came back around and we had some calm closure in which I told her I think she needs to truly reanalyze what she is doing. And that was that.
It's been only two days I miss her like crazy. I would do anything just to take her out and see her all dolled up for me, and to make her have that big beautiful smile across her face. I haven't contacted her at all in hope she will end up missing me and coming back around. However, I am afraid she is completely done with me. I don't know what to do, I just want my girl back :( She was perfect for me and I thought I was for her.
Someone please give me some advice on her to win her back, because I am more than willing to work out anything with her. I can't believe that she would suddenly just not want to try and work things out anymore like we always have.