Double Relationship Loss
(Edmonton, AB Canada)
Long story short, my lover whom I had lived with and shared a life with for 1.5 years had given me an ultimatum of acknowledging that I was his girlfriend. I answered yes. Unfortunately, 1-2 weeks later he changed his mind. He moved out and soon after he and my cousin (who mentioned that I was more than a sister to her) are dating. They had hid this for close to 3 months before getting caught. Apparently, my lover needed to build "courage" to tell me.
They started "dating" 2 weeks after he moved out.
I was really hurt by both of them; mostly by him. I'm angry, humiliated, livid, etc., etc.
My relation with my cousin (who had lived with me & my family prior for 3 years as well) will never be the same because it WAS like we were sisters. So a lost of a relation of a relative.
My relation with this lover - although I've known him over 8 years - has created distrust. I don't know what kind of a man he is any longer. I question his integrity and his intensions while he was with me. Although my cousin is about 10 years younger than both of us - his characteristic in this situation just baffles me.
So, yes, I'm going through the emotions - didn't know how much this would affect me because it is just a boy. But it affected me so much that I've been feeling nausea, anxiety, etc., etc. and am at a complete lost. I'm crying for no reason now. I acted like a crazy woman trying to negotiate with him - it's really petty. Anger, disbelief.
I'm just broken to the point I don't have words to describe.