Eileen Mccarrick

by E Mccarrick
(lancashire uk)

On the 1st of November 2012 i lost my beautiful daughter Catherine.Catherine had special needs but lived life to the full ,Catherine could not speak and had mobility problems,she was a beautiful child with big brown eyes curly hair and a smile that would melt your heart ,five days since my little girl left me ,she was my life. The house is empty and tonight her wheelchair was taken away.we are having her funeral on Wednesday this week, how will i go on without her my heart is broken

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Nov 29, 2012
My Precious Catherine

It is just four weeks since my precious Catherine died and each day that passes i am dying to.I open the freezer and her special meals are there and i break down crying same in the supermarket when i see her favorite things, i keep asking her to send me a sign that's shes happy but i am so consumed with grief ,nothing seems to matter anymore, i cannot believe she has gone, i miss her lovely smile even though she couldn't talk I knew what she wanted i feel so empty and sick inside
Thank you for your lovely comments,god bless you all

Nov 16, 2012
Beloved daughter
by: Anonymous

Dear Eileen,

I am so sorry for the loss of your daughter. She was many things, but companionship is something you will miss most. The others have said it well. Surround yourself with those who have understanding hearts and a gift to listen, no matter how many times you choose to share your stories. Sharing helps. Tears help - they are a language all their own. I have known overwhelming grief too. My son took his life a few years ago. I am still sad for my loss, but for him, he is at peace. I will mourn him until he wakes up when Jesus returns. God is my only strength and hope and in Him, I have found peace. , by Gracie Thompson. Blessings

Nov 06, 2012
Eileen Mccarrick
by: Doreen U.K.

Eileen I am so sorry for your loss of your daughter Catherine. My heart breaks for you as the days ahead are going to be so very difficult. It is after the funeral when everyone has gone their own way that your grief will feel that much worse. Don't be surprised if those family and friends who come together for the funeral go their own way and don't keep in contact. This is all too much a heavy problem for many grieving a loss.
Eileen try if you can a CRUSE bereavement counsellor for support to get over the loss of a child. This is a category of loss that nearly always benefits from seeing a counsellor. I have 3 Adult children and couldn't bear such a loss. I can feel myself crying inside just thinking of this. I lost my husband to cancer 6 months ago. After being married 44yrs. and I am in the early stages of grief. Every loss is different. It is only in time that we are able to put distance between our pain and our loss but WHEN! I don't know. Different for each of us. It is very painfull seeing all the belongings of your loved one in the home. it is equally painfull when having to clear out all the belongings of the one you have lost. Eileen surround yourself with family and friends who can be supportive to you in the days after the funeral when you will feel at your worst and be more vulerable to the Lonliness of your loss.

Nov 05, 2012
I'm sorry for your lost
by: yolanda

Eileen, I'm sorry for your lost, your Catherine sounded very loved and happy, I bet she just loved you so much..My 30 year old daughter Michelle past away Sept.11,2012 in her sleep, Michelle had a learning disability, but very smart, just beautiful, she loved me so much also, always taking care of me, I taught her to be independent and strong..sometimes I thought she was the mother and me the daughter...She's was ready to start working with me at my studio, Michelle was very happy.. when I found her in her room pass I couldn't believe this was happening, I scream out Michelle, please get up, Michelle mama needs you, I'm sorry Michelle I didn't hear you, I ask God why didn't you direct me to save my daughter, she wasn't ready to die, Michelle died of Sudden Death Syndrome Epilepsy I never heard of this in adults, anyway I was very sad and mad with disbelieve, the guilt of not saving my daughter...I prayed to God and to Michelle to help me through this pain in losing the most beautiful soul on this earth, the love of my life... Someone came to me few days ago were my daughter is lay to rest, I was crying out loud, Michelle, Michelle, I'm sorry baby, I couldn't save you, I know you trusted me, I failed you..The lady touch my shoulder and said don't cry so much, your daughter is with you, she hasn't left you, Michelle will always be with you..I told her about Michelle, then she continue to say Michelle was a gift to you for 30yrs, she choose you to be her parent as you choose her to be your daughter, her life here was done and that God needed her to help finish his work..The lady said when Michelle pass in her sleep she saw a bright light a beautiful angel, Michelle graduate to the kingdom of heaven with her white gown and cap, and that Michelle wants you to be happy for her, and that she loves you so much...don't cry too much mom, I want you to be happy for me because I am FREE, no longer that I'm trap in this body, no disability, I'm 20 times smarter then anyone, I have power, and I'm everywhere..I believe that God has a special heart for our children with special needs, that they are truly Gods Angels. Cathrine is so happy, just remember the wonderful times, the memory's that will stay in your heart forever. I talk to Michelle everyday, she goes with me everywhere, I feel her so near to me, I'm so bless, I will always be her mother, that will never change..God Bless you Eileen..

Nov 05, 2012
by: Claire

Dear Eileen, I am so sorry to read about the loss of your precious daughter Catherine. It is almost 8yrs since I lost my daughter Marguerite and my heart goes out to you as I just know the pain you are suffering right now and disbelief...I have always felt that Mags never really left me, I feel her spirit is with me every single day, and with her dad and siblings too of course. I ask her to send signs and she does. I talk to her and pray to her, she is my own special Angel in that special place we call Heaven...but of course it's not the same as having her with us in her physical state, how could it be.She loved cats, her two favourite songs were 'brown eyed girl' and 'in the arms of the angels' she also like 'buffalo soldier' and it is amazing how sometimes, when i am feeling really lost and lonely, i will see a cat in the most unusual of places or hear one of her songs, it is then I really feel her presence around me and get some comfort...so you ask Catherine to send you signs and you can chalk it down, she will. You will survive this, life will never be the same again, how could it be, but Catherine will journey with you and help you to be strong..Grief is a different journey for every single one of us, and you must do what you have to do to enable you deal with your own personal grief. There are many good books to be read and wonderful support groups, such as The Compassionate Friends..I do not know where you live, but I would urge you to seek help and support to help you on your Grief Journey. Elizabeth Kubler-Ross has written some really good books on Grief and Grieving..they helped me, also there is a brilliant book called 'Visions, Trips & Crowded Rooms' by David Kessler..maybe these might help you.

For now, I just want you to know that you will be in my thoughts and prayers as you mourn your beloved daughter. May she Rest in Peace.

God Bless & Take Care...Claire

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