Eleven years ago, at the age of 38 my sister almost perished in a house fire.

by Dale
(Alberta, Canada )

She had 3rd degree burns to 85% of her body. She was unrecognizable- at the hospital she was kept in a sterile room for two and a half months , until she died.
She was in a comatose state that whole time. To visit her I had to scrub like a doctor preparing for surgery- and wear all doctor clothing. Was surreal . Like a movie.

I carry guilt and shame for not expressing any emotion at her funeral. I moved to a different city and keep little contact with my other siblings and mother.

I lost my personality and the direction of my life.
I am absolutely lost. I am now 44 years old and have not genuinely smiled in 11 years. I have been robbing my own kids of happiness . Completely lost of personality and direction .

Can I ever move on. I refuse to take meds. Had a bad experience with Zoloft . So I suffer- social anxiety, anger , basically feel detached from society. Can't write anymore . Too much apathy

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Jan 31, 2013
Eleven years ago, at the age of 38 my sister almost perished in a house fire.
by: Doreen U.K.

Dale it is not unusual for Grief to affect a person going through the same experiences and feelings as you. You are not coping very well and may be stuck in grief and unable to move forward by yourself. You may benefit from seeing a grief counsellor. You would be amazed at how soon you move forward into a life of some sort where Grief won't dominate your life. You will be able to cope better in life and grieve your loss as you need to Don't feel you are the only person who feels the way you do.
Life has to get better in time for all of us otherwise our grief would kill us. You can't rush grief. This has a process in order to buld on this for a better future.

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