Empty and Meaningless
On November 5, 2012 my dear wife and best friend Melissa, passed away after a 18 month long fight against Liver disease. We have been happily married for 9 years but we have been together for 23 years. The day we first met was only a few days before her 16th birthday and we have been together ever since. On December 1st, 2012 Melissa would have been 39 years old.
It was only 7 weeks ago, today, that Melissa passed away in my loving arms, but it feels like an eternity. Since that terrible day, everything in my life has become Empty and Meaningless.
I have always been very motivated and productive but now I have no drive to do anything at all. I am usually patient and compassionate but now find I am impatient and short tempered. I have plenty of family and good friends for support, yet I feel so alone. I don't feel like me anymore.
I know I will get through this long journey (and I have a long way to go) eventually and build a new life for myself but it will never be the same. It's heart breaking to know that the one thing you want most in this world, that you actually had, you can never have again.