My young husband Jonathan (29) passed Jan 3, 2010. He passed from a horrible rare disease Lupus, in so much pain. Why God? Is something I still ask today. I just don’t understand why, I know I never will.
It feels like yesterday.
I write this weeping for you my husband.
I’m so sorry you had to pass that way, in so much pain.
We love you so much.
We miss you everyday.
I’ve walked into each day of this holiday season trying so hard to feel something. But there’s just nothing, I’m completely empty, feeling sick with overwhelming sadness. Our world has stopped but life just keeps going on around us. This reality is so cruel, so painful.
God we still need him.
I don’t let myself think of my reality often, it’s still too hard. And I don’t know how.
God help us.