A few years ago my mother died on 9/11 in the hospital in Baton Rouge ,La. Three years ago my little brother Rickey drank himself to death as he was an alcoholic like me . I'm in recovery for now !This last Christmas I went home from Houston , Tx. to see my remaining family in Louisana , basically my little sister , Renee !I got a call on Jan. 27 Renee had went to bed, she was three years younger than me , I'm 60 and died of a brain anyrizm.She was my rock , the last member of my imm. family , I feel so alone , I still cry pretty much on a daily basis . I just can't figure out how or why to go on ! Just feel so lost !!!