Endless Tears

by Laura
(Vancouver, BC)

I lost my love my life that night. The lyrics of a Pearl Jam song sum up what happened. I was waiting for him to come and see me, he didn't make it. I got a call from his step father saying he had been killed at 12:00 am after thinking he was just tired, and fell asleep instead.

He was involved in a head on collision with a semi. He wasn't wearing his seatbelt and was ejected from the vehicle.

The pain in my heart was immediate, I shot out of bed after that phone call and fell to my knees in tears. I felt like I died inside. Confusion, screaming, how is the man that I love so much dead? He told me how much he loved me the last time I saw him, and how he felt he was going to marry me.

We were both broken souls when we met each other and wanted to make life changes. Together we got better and made plans for the future. I will always remember our beautiful time together and the love that he showed me. I have never felt that before.

I still cry, I still would give anything to be with him. I am in complicated grief. I will always love him and his kind good heart. I hope a piece of me is still with him, as I know he will always be with me.