Everyday that passes I miss my Jamie Michael Boudreau !

by Jessica Peters
(West Frankfort )

Jamie and Jess

Jamie and Jess

Jamie and Jess
Jamie Michael Boudreau
Jamie and Jess

The 8th of this month makes 5 months since Jamie Michael. has been gone. Each day that passes I miss him more. I still wait for him to walk threw the door. Or when the phone rings I catch myself thinking he s gonna be in the other end. Or Im gonna wake up and this is all gonna be just a nightmare. Ill never know when were gonna get married. Ill never know w mny kids we are gonna have. I ll never get to see are grandchildren . I. will
never get to sit in my rocking chair beside him and rock on the front porch when were old and gray. I will never get to kiss him again. I will never get to hug him. I can't hear his voice besides for a voice mail or on a tape. I can't touch him. I can't see him. I can't understand why hehad to go. Why I have to hurt. Now I know how he hurt from the loss of his mother a year and half before. I know now he is no longer in pain. I know he s with her and gets to see his little girl everyday unlike before. But instead Im the one that's hurting without him. Why? I MISS HIM! I WANT HIM! MY HEART ACHES FOR HIM! I cry and cry and cry. I. don't see why I had to loose the man I love.What did I do to deserve this. I wish I could just go back and change things. Or I just wish I could have him back. They say it gets easier. Well there wrong its got harder. I don't want to get out of bed. I don't want to keep going. I don't want to image myself without him anymore. I don't wAnt any of it to change. But it all ready. has and I don't wAnt it too. Its suppose to be Jamie and Jess not just Jess. Everyday it just another day closer to him but how do I keep going? I feel lost, alone,scared, robbed,angry,sad,confused. I just know this isn't fair and I WANT my Jamie Michael back. I don't and never Will understand why I got to fall in love for the first time and he was taken from me so soon!

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Oct 12, 2012
everyday that passes I miss my Jamie Michael Boudreau
by: Jess

Its the worst. I wouldn't wish this on ny worst enemy. I sorry. about the loss. I ll never understand why I had to fall in love and then loose him. I know he s always with ne but its just not the same and I know its not forever. But I just want HIM BACK. Im sorry. He was my life besides my kids. I feel so lost without him. we might not had the perfect relationship but it was are s. No one can take that away. But who. is perfect. no ones. I know he wouldn't want me like this but its Sig hard. i have good days and bad ones. I just. miss. him so much.

Oct 06, 2012
Everyday that passes I miss my Jamie Michael Boudreau!
by: Doreen U.K.

Jessica it really is so difficult facing a loss of the man you loved. You did nothing wrong and neither did you deserve this. We have no control over when we die. We are never prepared for death. It is not something we like to talk about. My husband was terminally ill with cancer and I still couldn't talk about death. It was too painfull looking into the face of my husband who knew he was dying but didn't know when. It has been 5 months yesterday I lost my husband Steve to this dreadful cancer.
Life will NEVER EVER be the same again. Even if we have to live like this. IT WILL BE FOREVER.

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