Everything has slowly stopped ,
I lost my mother 5 years ago to cancer I am one of 8 children and she loved us all unconditionally and I know we all say it but she really was the most incredible person .
She was so full of energy she needed to be with nine mouths to feed but never complained just got everything done with a sing and a dance .
Her illness really took a hold of her she had her lymph gland removed which caused her arm to swell up to an alarming size , the cancer took to her legs , brain and chest and it was so difficult seeing this upbeat happy woman being beat by it , it was awful I couldn't,t look at her when she was this ill I found it hard to speak to her because it was so upsetting seeing her like this I really hope she knew that
I havnt realised but depression has slowly crept in and my life has stopped ... I,ve lost all drive , I have no money my amazing fiancé is leaving me , I was oblivious to all this just keeping all my emotions locked away
If my mum knew I was like this she would kick me into shape tell me to " book up !" and would keep on at me until I did ... But she's not here and it's up to to me to simply man up and get my **** back together , then I know I would make her proud .
So if your feeling down and finding it hard just think of your mum looking at you ... It's the last think she,d want ... Get it together , get help , make your mum proud , make yourself proud it,ll feel incredible !