Ex girlfriend left me scarred
I met my girlfriend over five years ago and fell for her as soon as I met her. we clicked straight away and did everything together. I would do everything I could for her anything she wanted I would get it without hesitation as I just wanted her to be happy. Her happiness was everything to me. She had had a tough up bringing as neither of her parents where ever there for her, I promised myself I would always do everything in my power to keep her smiling and happy so she would never be reminded of her troubled past. It wasn't soon before her past family problems caught up with her. She was devastated as she was never able to deal these problems mentally always got to her. Being with me alway made her feel better and at ease. Having only her best interests at heart I suggested we move away together away from all her problems. She was over the moon at this idea and was happy with it. As long as she was happy that's all that mattered. So we moved in together and it was amazing we both did everything together, both deeply in love. All her problems were a thing of the past now and I could see she was really happy and always smiling. We both meet loads of new friends and had a large social circle. She became close to a lot of women which was good, but were a few who I didn't approve of as I was told by friends that they were bad news and in with the wrong kinds of people. I told my girlfriend to be careful but didn't pressurise her as I was never like that I just wanted to look out for her. I had always given her space to do whatever she wanted as we held a lot of trust in each other which was great. It had been four years now. she became close to this guy I knew about as she told me about him and how they were just close friends. I had even met him when me and her were out together he seemed like nice guy and knew we were together. My girlfriend and i had always planned our future together and what we were going to do so I had no reason to feel insecure so never thought nothing of it. It had been five years together things were still good between us but she was still really close to this guy when them talking became a daily occurrence I confronted her if anything was going on but she denied it like always and said she would never do anything like that and that she loved me even swore on my life so I immediately let it go and believed her. It wasn't until she left her phone in our bedroom one day and I saw a message from him. My worse fears were confirmed she had been cheating on me. I confronted her but she still denied it until finally I learned that she had been cheating on me for a whole year. I felt heartbroken, why had she done this to me after everything we had been through. I had never wronged her, had always given her all she wanted, had only her best interest at heart. If she felt so compelled to do this if I had a fault in me then why didn't she leave me for him, it drives me crazy to think why she done it while we where together knowing I'd be so hurt. To do it for a whole year and be completely fine with me lying about it and not showing one ounce of guilt killed me so I left without looking back. I put so much much trust in her and having that broken I don't think I could ever trust again. She broke me mentally and I don't think I could ever be at ease and trust another woman. I don't think I have the energy to go through another relationship with all trust I had broken. I'm changed to how I used to be I wish I wasn't but all this has done is leaveme scarred. I am optimistic I can recover from this but a year on I still suffer from insecurities and trust issues.