Facing it

Got off work; made sure I was too tired to cry tonight. I know one day if I try hard enough I can begin fighting this fight because that is what grief is to me.. a fight. I'm only in round one and I havent got a good punch in yet. I've been hit though hit with the force of a train at full speed. But I am still breathing. I can't seem to stop imagining what you were thinking when you put a rifle in your mouth and pulled the trigger!!!!! Go figure I am so hurt I am so angry I am so confused and its already been a year. The worst part is you were my soul mate you are my soul mate! We were supposed to have babies and grandchildren and live in an old southern house by a river and build a treehouse and go on vacations and make dinners together take walks in all the national parks, climb mountains, celebrate big christmas's but you left me and I you and I are so young. ever since you left I feel like I'm malnourished in my soul I feel weak I feel ill. I know you are reading this on the other side and that is why I am writing this. I got to start facing it but I don't know how.

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Sep 27, 2011
One day at a time
by: Rose

Your story is so sad...
You are a survivor. Each day (with God's help)
you make it through, One Day at a Time.
Here is the best thing I can give you right now:
It is a site called GriefShare.
It will help you right where you are, get on the path of hope and healing.
You can sign up for the FREE daily E-mails.
Here is a sample of day 1.

Day 1 - Understanding Your Grief
Grief is not an enemy or a sign of weakness. It is a sign of being human. Grief is the cost of loving someone.

Since grief comes to everyone, why do some people seem to work through it better than others?

?Some people think that going through the losses or crises of life are the exceptional times,? says Dr. H. Norman Wright.

?I see it differently. I see the times of calm as the exceptions. Life really is going through one loss after another, one crisis after another.

?Instead of avoiding talking about these times, let?s do our homework. When you know what to expect, you?re not thrown by them as much, and you?re going to be better able to recover.?

Join us each day for the next year as we walk with you on your journey through grief, strengthened and enabled through the Lord Jesus Christ.

?But those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint? (Isaiah 40:31).

Lord God, teach me to embrace my grief and not
fight it, so that I may experience the true healing that comes from You. Amen.


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