I am only 18 years old and I've lost too many people to count. My grandfather shot himself when I was 1, my freshman year of high school I lost my uncle dave and my grandma barb. My junior year I lost my other grandpa, and I was very close to all of these people because I never had a very big family. This year my cousin and my uncle jimmy.
I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I'm almost used to hearing about people around me passing. I can't get out of the past. I miss all of these people, I still haven't completely grasped it and it's been years. I miss having a family. It's always the worst around Thanksgiving and Christmas. I don't know what I'm getting out of putting this on here I just had to get some things off my chest I guess.