Father lost only daughter 3 years ago. My world is still a different color.
by george farmer
It was on a Friday, March 30th, 2007 when my mother and sister came up my drive and told me I needed to go to the hospital that something had happen to my daughter, Christa. They never revealed the complete facts but the look on their face was all i needed, i was sure she was gone.
She had passed in her sleep, leaving behind a 2 year old daughter and a 4 year old son and a husband. After learning my feelings were true my world has been a different color since and I know it will never change, it is here to stay. After almost 4 years now i still have nothing to live for. I once was a goal seeker but now things are different, I have no desire for anything and will be content only when this life is over. When she died I died and am fully convinced it will never be different. I was an extrovert, now extreme introvert. Have spent most of last 4 years in my bedroom. I have no intent in taking my life or anything unreasonable.
The only way I can describe this situation is my world changed colors and will always remain a different color. I raised my family in church with Christian, Bible believing principles. I am aware this happens to people of all walks of life. i am not sore at God or feel "why me", it is just part of life that I can never deal with. She is in my thoughts constantly and I feel for others that have faced this situation. I am sure it will never get better and I guess that's the way it supposed to be. No doubt one could not face anything more painful and life-changing as loosing a child or children. Thanks for allowing me to share what this can do to a person. If you have a child, spend as much time with them as you can. Thanks:George