Feeling lost :(
I am feeling so lost at the moment. People keep telling me I will get better but I feel like I NEVER will. I lost My Grandad recently-the only one I had left.
He lived a good life and he died peacefully in his sleep.
But I just feel so down, when people mention having grandparents round at Christmas
I feel angry and jealous because three of mine have died.
I feel like a 15 year old should have her grandparents around to watch her grow and for Christmases and birthdays etc...
But then I feel really ungreatful and bratty because I know it could be alot worse.
I just find it hard to understand why he died and feel really angry and depressed, I feel like he should be here for Christmas because it is time for having fun and having family around.
Everyone else is coping even my Mom and it was her Dad.
I just feel so angry and resentful of other people who still have all their grandparents.
It is constantly on my mind all the time and I feel like I will never get better or move on.
I'm scared of growing up because I know that one day it will be my parents and the thought kills me inside. Is it normal to feel like this? please help me! I feel like I am going out of my mind!