Fiance not who i thought he was
Oh where do i start? I was 21 and started a relationship with a guy who swept me off my feet. He would always say how i was out of his leage and would write long letters about how i was his angel come true and his soul mate. He proposed after a 1 1/2 years. That valentines day i was helping him with his english paper and he went in the bathroom with his phone. Long story short he went in there to email a girl he had been talking to from his class. The girl thought we had broken up apparently. I then come to find out he has been on craigslist emailing girls and has gone out to the movies and stuff like that with different girls.
The emotions i felt were overwhelming and i break up with him. I then decide i dont want to be without him and want to give us another try because i love him so much. Well he dosnt feel the same way. Its like he switched into this whole different person and was so angry and resentful towards me. He started screaming at me and telling me how i was always terrible to him and causing drama and that his health was better now that he was away from me. I started to feel guilty for all the little wrongs i had done in the relationship and fought to get him back. After 4 months we finally get back together and exactly 1 year later we break up again.
I felt the second time we got back together he was never the same. Like he didnt value and respect me as much. And i was having a hard time trusting him. We had a blow up fight and he moved out. He was giving me so many mixed signals though. He said he wanted to work on us that he moved for us and then the next day he would be ice cold. I think now he has changed his number so i cant even get a hold of him. He cant even be man enough to break up with me properly. My heart is broken and i feel i was committed to someone that clearly lied about being committed to me.
Do you think i made a mistake by trying to get back together with him in the first place? and what do you think is going on with him? why is he so confusing?