FIRST DREAM OF MY HUSBAND
BACKGROUND - Cody was killed Jan 16 of this year, I have not been able to dream about him until last night.
When he passed I was 7 months pregnant.
Our son Ryder is now 5 months.
Cody has been gone for almost 8 months.
I have had all kinds of emotions, It has been very painful and hard, I dont know how to control myself at times. I do have alot of support and alot of help with Ryder. I have been begging to dream about him from the moment he was killed and last night it finally happened. I dont know if the dream means anything but it was beautiful to talk to him and see him.
Had my first dream about Cody 8/31/12
I was getting my hair dyed blond because I didn't want to die with brown hair, the world was coming to an end. Once my hair was dyed I went to go find Cody the world looked all picklely but i found him, he told me my hair looked great and that I had to prepare because we were about to disappear.
I started to cry and I told him I wish I could say goodbye to my mom and he told me "she knows" then he looked at me and said hold on to me, so I held on and I told him "Cody I love you so much and if I had to chose this life again I would because you were in it".
The surrounding world started to turn completely purple and every object started to disappeared, I don't know what was holding us up in the air but my body was wrapped around Cody then he told me "its about to happen and your not going to be able to breathe"
the purple was being taken over by white and there was only blankness and silence. Before it took over our faces Cody told me "kiss me, I love you Steffy goodbye" he kissed me said goodbye and I stopped breathing, there was nothing left of us.
I woke up gasping for air and thirsty at 1:45am 9/1/12
This dream was beautiful to me because Cody was talking to me and I was holding him as we died. He told me he loved me and the goodbye Ive been waiting to hear. It was so real it felt like I was floating and the world was so strange all the colors and when the white was taking over I was scared but I was holding so tightly onto Cody that I knew nothing could hurt me that not matter what I was going to be OK.
I'm not sure why my son wasn't in my dream, it was just Cody and I no one else and in my dream the only other person that was mentioned was my mother