Five years later
(Raleigh, NC USA)
Sometimes God gives you the one and only true life partner and it is the most wonderful and fulfilling relationship you can have. You are truly ONE entity. Then for whatever reason one of the partners is taken away leaving the other to find meaning and reason to continue.
Here I am this week at the five year mark missing my wife as much as five years ago. The long period of depression and loneliness can be much longer that the eight months mentioned on this web sight. I guess it is a refusal to reopen my heart and move forward. The pain seems as great now as it did then. I still miss the sound of her voice, doing things or doing nothing with her. The feeling of being whole.
My sadness is deep and I must put on a good face every morning and go to work because no one wants to be around a depressed person. I keep praying that God will give me direction or take me home but just like fishing......I keep waiting. Five years is a long time...when will my grief end?