Footprints In The Sand

by Jade

I don't really know where to start, Im 18 and lost my Nan to a brain stem stroke 4 weeks ago. She was 66 and still so full of life; her and my Grandad had rang in their 49th wedding anniversary on the 16th of December and she suffered the stroke in the early hours of the 17th.

At 4am she had kicked my Grandad to tell him stop snoring and when he woke at 8:30 she wasn't in bed, she'd gone into the guest room as usual. When he walked into the room with her morning tea and paper he realised something wasn't right. To cut a long story short, she was 2 days in ICU and 2 days on a normal ward off the vent before she quit fighting.

When you tell people your Nan died they presume she was an older lady, a bit frail, but mine wasn't. She was amazing, I say "Nan" but really she was like my Mum, my rock and security blanket. She made me who I am and took care of me. Read me books, told me stories and poems. Wiped my eyes when I cried and knees when I fell all that jazz. And when I told her I was gay (her being the first i told) she laughed, hugged me and said "I knew that before you why are you worried?"

I could never put into words what an amazing person she was. She had the biggest heart you've ever known and had time for everyone. She never held a grudge or got mad and if you knew my family you'd know just how amazing that is.

I'm not sure why I did this; guess I thought throwing it out there might make it hurt less, but I doubt it. My Grandad, Me and Ninnie the dog are always gonna miss her and her chair's always gonna be empty.

Jade, Ireland

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Jan 15, 2010
Good memories
by: Hope


Keep the good memories in your heart and when the bad ones sneak in, allow it to hurt, to grieve. But turn towards the good ones that made Nana an amazing, accepting wonderful person that she was. Take care....

Jan 15, 2010
by: Down Under

Jade, my condolences on the loss of a sweet soul. You are a very lucky person to have had such a beautiful nan, keep that in mind Jade, along with all the happy and loving memories. They will get you through. Grieve as long as you need to and don't be afraid to feel every emotion and just let it out, even if it is on this site, it's helped me. I lost my father in Aug 09 suddenly, 2 months before my wedding. The pain hasn't gotten any better as yet but I suppose we learn to deal with it eventually. They will live on forever in our hearts and memories. I wish you comfort. xo

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