I wrote about the loss of my husband who died in February this year and your story of grief was everything I recognised - I can't bear the thought of continuing without my husband but I have to for my daughters, the youngest is still at school. Elisa I just wanted to say how I wished I had been able to say goodbye to my husband as you did. I was staying over at the hospital in the room with my husband for each night, my youngest daughter stayed as well - one night the staff in the ward said we needed to go home and get some rest, my daughter did not want to leave her dad but a male nurse told us that he was stable and nothing was going to happen and we could come straight back in the morning when we'd had some rest. I am so sad that I trusted and believed him because the ward didn't ring us until it was too late and I couldn't get back to him in time to say goodbye and he died alone...he was my soulmate and after all those years together I can't come to terms with being cheated out of saying goodbye to him. I, like you, keep saying where is he, all the things we did together to make our house a home and now he isn't with me to share it. Sometimes I feel like screaming aloud and wonder if I will be able to stay strong enough to stay here without him.