forever in my heart mommy
when i was 14, my life changed . my best friend and the only person who gave me unconditional love slipped away
on September 28th 2009, i was at my gmas funeral and i saw my mom . i had been taken from her in 2008 by dhs.
my mom had always been really sick because of her liver.but when i saw her at the funeral it was horrible, she was yellow and her eyes were very yellow . she could barely walk or speak. i hugged her and cried and told her she needed to go to the hospital asap.
a week later i called my mom, and she was going to the hospital by ambulance because she had collapsed and was puking blood.
i immediately went the hospital and she was so sick she didn't look like herself at all. when i had to leave i didn't want to i cried and cried and gave her a big hug and told her i loved her.
a couple days later i called and my uncle answered. i asked if i could talk to my mom, he said she couldn't talk, i asked why and he said she was hooked up to tubes and on life support,. i immediately rushed to the hospital she was in icu. i walked in the room and it was the worse thing to ever see, my brother was by her side crying and holding her hand. i sat next to him and grabbed her hand,. she opened her eyes, and it hit me, my mom was really slipping away.
i told her shed be okay and to have hope like she always told me.
we stayed there for almost a week, and she wasn't getting any better. she slept and was getting weak.
they took me into a quiet room and my family was saying they were gonna take her off the machine, i burst into tears screaming and hollering ,. i didn't want to say goodbye to her i wasn't ready and never would be.
the next day hey took her off. she was barely breathing on her own. she just slept and didn't move.
i slept next to her with my brother on chairs.
it was 3 days later and she was still barely alive so they decided to move her to the fifth floor. but being in the hospital i caught h1n1. i had to leave and that hurt so bad because i didn't want to leave her.
i slept all day at my dads. ad my step sister came up to my room and told me my mom had passed away. i rolled over and went back to sleep. it didn't hit me til at the funeral when they closed her casket . i cried into my brothers arms. it was real, my mom was gone and wasn't coming back,.
even today it still is fresh , the pain. i still wanna cry cause i miss her so much and watched her slip away an couldn't do anything about it.
i miss my mom everyday and always will. losing her at 14 hurt so bad, cause she ain't here physically., but i know she is always with me now and she will never be forgotten she was the best mom i could ask for
"even though your gone your love lives on forever in my heart"