Forever in your daughters heart
Hi, my dad passed away Wednesday, December 15,2005. It has been about 8 years. I lost him from a sudden cardiac arrest. It was a normal weekday, i was in jr high at the time when i got a call to the office that i would be picked up from a family member. I still remember the long quiet drive home in my aunts car, wondering what could possibly be going on. I remember parking outside my house and wondering why some of my family members were either over or pulling up. My aunt took me and my older sister to my parents room to see my dads sister balling in bed and my mom looking at us with a blank expression to tell us your dad has died and collapsed at his work while he was away on his work trip. I remember my aunts in the room hugging us so tight. Since i was so young i didn't know how to react. I remember being in denial and coming out of the room almost in disbelief. I remember breaking down and my uncle just hugging me. I even felt like it was a dream attending his funeral and then returning back to school after winter break. Honestly it hadnt hit me until a few years ago because i never had the grieving process. I had honestly never dealt with it but been in complete denial. Ive finally allowed myself to feel emotions of it but it has truly been hard to go through especially since i have grown now to be 21, i constantly face anxiety and depression and hope for this to pass. My dad was such an amazing person and i would do anything to have had the chance to say goodbye although he did come to my room the night before he left for his business trip. I wish i could remember the exact words he said and conversation i had. May he rest in peace and i hope to see him again.