Found out about death online
I had become best friends with someone for 6 years until we began our romantic involvement. Seven years into the friendship/relationship, we had a child born who died shortly after. We continued seeing one another until he moved to take care of his mother for another 4 years. Then we mutually decided to date other people. We kept in touch every single day, multiple times in a day whether by phone, text or email. We had planned to meet up again in December 2013 or in January to see where we were emotionally and if there would be a change, it would be me moving to be where he was. Except that never happened. In September, I was working in a building that had a bad connection and I missed the last phone call he ever made. My phone never registered the call. I noticed for about 2 weeks, he never sent me daily messages and about 2am, I decided to call him but hesitated, thinking he would be asleep. Instead, I googled to see if he was in the news again for the work he did. That is when I came across his obituary. I was devastated and am still in disbelief. His family and I never met. Both parents have dementia and Alzheimer's. They would not think to call me. I miss him terribly and am still sick to my stomach. I missed the last call he made. I still save that voicemail. I accidently deleted it but recovered it before I hung up. My heart raced, thinking I could not hear his voice everyday. Since then, I am still lost and in shock. I have found someone else and I absolutely adore him. I have fallen in love again and it did not even take long. I obviously was not looking and neither was he. He also lost someone, his wife of more than 30-40 years. I had seen pics of him and his wife and they were so in love. She was a beautiful woman with such a beautiful aura and smile. He loved her very much. I am saddened that his wife also lost her life, both were very young. She was 49 and mine was 51 - both had heart attacks. I love that I can love again and that I can make the rest of my life and my boyfriend's life get back to some sort of normalcy and happiness. It is very hard....but having this new man in my life makes it easier to look forward to every day.