Four Losses in less than two months
(Colorado Springs, CO, USA)
In November, just before Thanksgiving, I lost a high school friend. He had been sick a month previously. We all thought he was doing better. Unexpectedly, he was gone. A heart attack. His mother had just passed away the week before. I think the loss of his mother was just too much for him. He was a wonderful, sweet person, with much to offer others. He will be greatly missed at our high school reunion this year.
November 26 brought the last day together for me and my beloved 16 year old kitty. She wasn't just a cat. She was with me through some really hard times in my life. I'd had her since she was 8 weeks old. She sat by my side, in my lap, slept beside me for every day of her life; listening to my "stuff" and purring. Making the decision to let her go peacefully was the right decision. I will love her and miss her always.
December 31 I lost a friend of 14 years to cancer. He had been diagnosed just two years ago. I am still amazed at his strength which he carried right to the end. He was a man of integrity, a husband that most women dream of, and a father who brought up his children to be respectful of others, well mannered, and so loving and giving. I think what made the loss of him so hard for me, is that the relationship between him and his wife, reminded me so much of the relationship of my own parents. If ever two people were meant to be together, it was them. They are soul mates. His wife is a strong woman. I look up to her. She is amazing. I know she will continue to parent her children as she and her husband always have. My heart goes out to them.
Side note - I remember when my father passed away in 1989. After the funeral was over.... the days passed.... And I had to return to my home 2000 miles away from my mother. Leaving her was so difficult. My mother and I talked about this many times. How hard it was for her once everyone was gone. Everyone went back to their lives; but she was alone. I felt helpless. I know the many cards I sent to her were a small comfort. The daily phone calls weren't enough. She still grieves for my father and misses him, as do I. So, keeping this in mind, I don't want this to happen to my friend. She is not the type of person to ask for help. I don't know what to do to help her. But, I can cook. I've decided I will take a meal to her every Friday till she tells me, "hey, you can stop now".
Yesterday, I lost a young friend. She was only 24. Married with a young child. She took her own life. I am so heart broken. I just can't take this pain. I can't believe she is gone. This young woman was the type of person to light up the room when she walked in. All of her friends and family loved her so much. She was beautiful inside and out, and now.... she is gone. I didn't know her parents, but I will still contact them to see if they need any help.
I don't know how to deal with all of this loss. I really don't. I'm numb. Then panic attacks start. I am calling my doctor tomorrow and asking for a referral to a counseling center. I need to get help.
Thank you for taking the time to read this post. I ask for prayers for the families of these wonderful people who left all too soon.