Fragments of a Life now gone ~

by Patricia
(Las Vegas)

 The LeCieleci Men

The LeCieleci Men

I remember years ago when Billy and I first came to be. I told my cousin when she asked about him "I don't want a man I can live with, I want a man I can't live without" ~ how did I know those words would be so true to life?
Just as I started this writing to you all, because I know I can write what I feel and what I'm going through I was brought back to my life in Arkansas.
I got a call from a friend I hadn't spoken to in what seem like months or years. I found the talk was like from another world, Arkansas, it was liberating.
The girlfriend with memories not all of Billy but of a life and friends I didn't realize I missed until that call came in. I feel like I've been lifted to a time of no cares, a lift moving my emotions which have been in the dumps for lack of better words, down in the dumps to feeling good. Who knows how long it will last but for this moment in time. Happy feelings and emotions. My friend is coming to visit me in Las Vegas from Arkansas. Someone who has shared the road I'm on but on her own and her own road that has now crossed mine.
So what started out as tears and heartbreak with these words leave me OK for the moment. I wish I could past this on to those here just a little to help, but we all will have those feelings and moments in time. It makes me believe that time will go on and so will us... breaking in pieces at times, fragmented and disjointed but moving forward ~ ~ ~
1 step, 1 breath at a time ~

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May 14, 2011
fragments of a life now gone
by: jules

Patricia - so glad to hear you so upbeat - it is a hard road, but as time goes on, things happen, like your friend coming back into your life - doesn't mean you are "over" it - just means you have taken another step - take each day as it comes, enjoy time spent with others, and live life.
every day - one step, one breath
take care

May 13, 2011
Today gets better little by little

Its nice having days that are o.k even happy. Days where the smile is genuine not pasted on.
I Hope that all of us can do more than just survive grief, that one day we will appreciate the Love we had so rare. And that in itself will bring a smile to our faces instead of tears.

I no longer ask how long must I endure, but live in the here and now accepting what niceties come my way and damn grateful to feel anything but the gnawing grief that ate at me for more than a year.

We are getting there Patricia. Welcome the good days and accept the crummy ones. Its our life from here on out. What tomorrow will bring I do not know but I am better prepared for it and believe it or not you are too.

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