From July 2010-April 2 2011
Im not sure where to start....In July I lost my sister~in~law, she was one of my best friends, She lived in another state so we didn't get to see her much but I did talk to her often, then in January we lost my Brother~in~law (they were my husbands siblings) , then in April my son lost the love of his life...and some think that just because he was 16 that he didn't know what love was, he did and she was it, to suicide at age 14. The grief we are all going through is so much that we just don't talk about it!...When my son's girlfriend died it was the hardest to take! She was so young and such a shock. She was always happy and smiling. We could not understand the WHY. As time has passed we've come to realize that the "why" would never be answered. We are not allowed to show any form of mourning for her as we were told we didn't have the right, it was about her friends and her family not us..but we loved her like she was our own daughter...they were together almost 24/7 and for just shy of a year! I have no idea what to do with all the pain I feel for her loss, I just know that as time goes on it takes alot more energy to suppress it. My husbands family has basically said that I have mourned completely wrong so I don't even talk to them about it either. I feel more alone then ever and have basically turned my feelings off to please everyone else. I just miss them all more then words can express and if it was up to others involved I wouldn't even be allowed to grieve at all! Thank you so much for your time :)....writing about it sure does help.
Completely heart broken!