Gary - The love of my life
I lost my husband on January 27, 2010. He was diagnosed in October 2009 with terminal lung cancer. They gave him max a year with chemo and radiation. So in December 2009 he started his treatments. Everything went downhill from that point. He had so many complications and never had a good quality of life from that point on. But he never gave up and gave it his all.
On the evening of January 27th, 2010, with me by his side, he lost his battle. I am so lost without him. We were so close and did everything together. Everything happened so fast and he was taken so quickly. I didn't get to say to him all the things I wanted to say to him.
I seem ok on the outside to family and friends, but when I'm alone that is when I fall apart. I just want to hold him again and tell him I love him. But the reality is settling in that he is never going to walk through that door again.
That is so hard to accept. We were married for 10 great years and had a great life together. He was only 61 years old. Way too young. How do I hold together and keep the pieces together? If anyone knows what I'm going through please give me some encouragement.