by Gayle

I lost my son at 8 months. He was a victim of a botched caesarean delivery. Inside of the same year I lost my Dad who was my hero and the greatest man I've known. Recently I lost my brother--my best friend at age 38 and my sister at 41. A son, a father, a brother& a sister before I was 40.

When I was little I was a victim of my moms munchousen by proxy and burned twice (my scalp when I was a baby an over 30% of my body ..3rd degree burns when i was 3. My brother was my only defender and he got into many fights with kids who taunted me. I blame myself for his death by alcohol because he had very bad childhood memories because of me :(

How does one get thru life without agony enveloping every moment?

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Feb 05, 2012
Gayle - your doing it
by: Anonymous

Gayle - you need to talk - and keep talking as long as you need to. I also have had a number of traumatic experiences in my life. I am not about to pretend at all that I know what you are going through because I never would be able to. Each one of us have our own experiences and our own ways of coping. I am glad that your brother was there as a hero to protect you. I had a similar situation were my brother protected us from my mother when she locked us in a room and set the room on fire when I was a child. As an adult, he committed suicide. I come from a large family. I have only two sisters left - out of 11. Like I said - there has been lots of trauma. Gayle - just keep talking. Find a support group, use the grief blog, find a church group, find a trusted friend. You deserve it - you are a lovable person - reach out and you will be surprised at the number of people who will reach back.

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