My dad died less than 4 hours ago. We have known it was coming since 3 days ago but the death has become surreal. He and my mum used to argue a lot and he moved out of the house in my late teens. Though I feel like I never really knew him. And furthermore because I'm only 24 I feel like I never got to prove to him that I was truly a successful male in life like he was. Its made a lot worse because he died of alcholism related illness, so I have a shadow of success which i aspire to and a shadow of regret which I wish to avoid.
I guess I'm most worried about a fathers death at my young age, although I realise I am lucky that I made it through to adulthood without losing him.