Gert. Cardinal

It's with a broken heart that I write this story. On January 16/2008 I lost the sunshine and joy of my life, my youngest son, Michael Jean Berube, as the result of a homicide. Mikey had just moved to the town of High Level to stay with me and his stepdad, he wanted to look for a good paying job and start over in a new town.
He never got that chance. He went to work at Boston Pizza the week-end before he died and met the young man who took his life the following week. There was no sense or reason for this man to kill my son, considering they did not know each other the week before.

How do you say good-bye to a son who worshipped the ground you walk on? Mikey loved life, he lived to laugh, and he loved to live. He was only 25 years old, the funeral was the hardest thing I've ever done in my life, it's still so much like a bad dream. Even now, I keep expecting my son to phone me and say Mom, where are you and Doug? I miss you Mom, I love you. He also has a big brother he worshipped as well. Joey is having a hard time dealing with the loss of a little brother loved.

This is such a lonely walk without him, we were so close, we were like one person. Mikey's greatest joy in life was to make people laugh, he was always playing a joke on someone, he never hesitated to help someone in need, he loved little children. I have so much more I could write about my son but I'll close for now, it feels good to share my story about my beautiful son. I promised him his memory will live on as long as I have breath in my body. God bless anyone who reads my story.

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Mar 08, 2011
by: C. C . H

Its been over 3 years and it feels like its been over 10...I could only imagine how you feel Auntie. I tried So Hard not to completely break down after reading what you wrote, but the harder I try, the weaker I get...I told myself I wasn't going to judge people by there Mistakes, But by there Heart. But i found it very hard to stick by my protocol today...I Love you Auntie.

Jun 08, 2010
I know how you feel
by: Anonymous

I knew Michael he was my friend, brother and all I feel is heartache; I pray that you and your family are happy to know where he is now.

Sep 24, 2009
Never forget
by: Derek Gagnon

Hey Gert, I found your story about Mikey and the only thing i can say is... never forget. I will never forget the way he always put a smile on my face, how he would make any situation easier, no matter what the cost. I took him in as my own brother and he will always hold a special place in my heart. My prayers will follow you where ever you go. I love you mom. be sure to keep in touch.

May 01, 2009
by: terry drugas

On Dec,3, 2008 I too lost my child . Mine died after giving birth three weeks before. It does not make sense that our wonderful loving children are gone. The loss is overwhelming. Hope that time will help both of us . Kerri Mae was my angel just as your son was yours. Hopefully their loss will mean something.

Jan 26, 2009
see through your grief
by: Lynn Hilton

Gert what a lovely young man, so sad to lose him at such a young age. I hope that when the dark clouds of grief part, there will be rays of light that will show you his spirit in your loved ones. You will see him in the face of his brother or hear him in the laughter of your grandchildren, part of him will always be there with you, you just need the courage to look for it. I am sending you all my love and good wishes to you and your family.


Nov 02, 2008
I understand
by: D

I do know how you feel. I too have lost a son and he was my youngest. It is the hardest thing to go through and I'm too having a hard time. Don't you feel like no-one understands what you are going through?

My heart aches like crazy, the tears are endless. I just finished reading your letter and I do understand. Do take all the time to grieve over your son and don't let anyone tell it's been long enough.

I know what you are going through, I understand.

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