Getting through this together

by Donna
(Texas)

Bryan has told me for the past 26 years of our lives that as long as we have each other and the lord we can get through anything. No matter how tough times got or what we went through as long as we had each other we always came through. But how am I supposed to get through anything now that he is gone?

I had my first real test since the funeral. I had to have oral surgery to have two teeth removed and boy was it hard. For the first time in forever, I had to go it alone. My youngest daughter asked me if I wanted her to go but I told her no. I somehow felt as if I had to do this by myself. Oh god the first real thing that I've done since he has gone to heaven.

I asked Bryan and God to please help me. I made it. It was hard not having Bryan there to make sure that I didn't need anything, because he was that kind of husband. I can't take pain medicine except for Tylenol or Advil, anything else makes me sick. So Bryan is always there when ever I have had any type of surgery to help nurse me back to health.

I miss him so much. Will this pain ever subside? Well anyway I guess as long as I ask Bryan and the lord for help or guidance I will get through this-together.