GIVE HIM BACK TO ME

by HEATHER
(P.C FLORIDA)

I'M 26 YRS OLD AND NOW A WIDOW, MY HUSBAND PAST AWAY 2WKS AGO FROM CYSTIC FIBROSIS. I WANT HIM BACK!!!!

HE WAS ONLY 27 YRS OLD, I GUESS THAT SONG IS TRUE ONLY THE GOOD DIE YOUNG. I DON'T UNDERSTAND AND I'M MAD!! LIFE IS NOT FAIR.

I MET MY HUSBAND WHEN I WAS 16 YRS OLD, AND BY THE 2ND DATE HE TOLD ME ABOUT THE DISEASE HE HAD AND THAT HE WOULD NEVER BE ABLE TO GROW OLD. IT WAS TOO LATE, I COULD NOT RUN AWAY FROM HIM, I WAS ALREADY MESMERIZED BY HIS WARM SMILE AND AMAZING PERSONALITY, JUST BY THE FIRST DATE.

IT WAS VERY MUCH LIKE A BLIND DATE, "TONY" MY HUSBAND, WORKED AT A CAR WASH, MY MOTHER WAS HAVING OUR CAR WASHED AND TONY SAW MY DRIVERS LICENSE THAT WAS LEFT IN THE CAR. HE LIKED THE PICTURE OF ME, AND LEFT A NOTE WITH HIS NUMBER. I CALLED HIM AND WE DECIDED TO MEET AT THE MALL.
IT WAS LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT!! I FEEL LIKE I'M STUCK IN A NICHOLAS SPARKS NOVEL, I'M THE ONE LEFT BEHIND.

I FEEL I WAS PART OF THE BATTLE, THAT WHEN HE WENT, I SHOULD HAVE GONE TOO! PEOPLE SAY THAT THE PAIN IS GOING TO STOP, BUT I KNOW THAT IT WON'T. I KEEP YELLING AT GOD TO GIVE HIM BACK TO ME. I'M LOST WITHOUT HIM.

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Jul 25, 2010
Live your life for him
by: Jack

I am sorry that you are going through this at such a young age. But you have your whole life ahead of you to make your husband proud of you.

Do some things that you know that he would want you to do. And I'm sure if you loved each other the way that you said, he would want you to be happy. His battle is over, and if you want to take up the sword for him do things you both would be proud of, or that you would be proud of.

I wish I could give him back to you! Heck I wish I could have my own wife back, but she died of cancer and I know she would want me to go on.

So I try to do what would make her proud of me, I hit the lowest point in my life when she died, and we were each others family. We didn't have any kids or family left. We only had each other.
So make you husband proud and live for him.
God Bless.

Jul 19, 2010
You have to stay strong
by: Anonymous

So sorry for your loss, it's hard to lose the love of your life. I know how it feels. Like you're lost, and little things make it hard, especially when you see couples kissing or holding hands. My husband died 8 months ago, and I miss him every day. But, I know if I stay strong and do something good in my life I will be with him again. I hope you find comfort in knowing you're not alone, we are all here for you. God Bless. Pam

Jul 16, 2010
I understand
by: Sandy

Hi. I lost my husband 1 1/2 years ago, feels like yesterday. It still hurts! I thought of how lucky your husband was to have had someone like you who loved him so much. Try to focus on the wonderful memories and feelings. They will keep you going. I, too, have struggled with the fact that I did not want to be left behind. I want to be with my Mack no matter what that means. Unfortunately, we don't control that and that too makes me very angry. Please focus on the fact that you will see him again some day and that you were a blessing to him while he was here. May God bless you!

Jul 14, 2010
I can relate
by: Kim

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I fully understand how you feel. It is so hard to function without our loved ones. When they leave, a big part of us leave with them. I cry every day and ask god to give me back my son. I am so confused and just wish things would go back to the way they were, but I know that can't happen.

It is extremely hard when you love someone so much;
my thoughts are with you
Kim

Jul 14, 2010
New Grief New Pain
by: Hope

I know that you are angry, I still am, 7 months later. My mother used to say who said life is fair? Who thought it would apply here? Be angry, at god, for taking him, be angry at him, for leaving you. This is early grief and the anger, numbness, disorientation, lack of patience and concentration are all normal. I am so sorry that you have to go through this...Keep reading, we are all here for you...HH

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