God hold's this precious one in his hands

I had been 13 weeks pregnant, and the fiance that I believed loved me and was commited to sharing my life with me, finally stated he would not and could not marry me.
The future that we had spoken about seemed like a distant memory and his only words were kill the foetus, and get over it.
He checked up on me to make sure I did as he requested. I lost a part of my soul that day of the termination. How do I pray to God for forgiveness when the greatest gift he had given me I callously returned.
My ex-fiance killed all emotion and the word love became dead to me.
He could have the heart to want his own flesh and blood dead, to leave me no choice but to do so, to threaten to kill the child if i went ahead with the pregnancy.

There are no words to describe the hollow emptiness that resides in my heart and soul.
All my tears will never change what has happened. The burden to carry forever on my scarred soul.

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Jan 21, 2013
God hold's this precious on in his hands
by: Doreen U.K.

I am sorry for your loss of your unborn child. I can't believe that this boyfriend could come to you and practically DEMAND that you get rid of your unborn child as a Foetus. What if his Mom decided to abort him. You are better off with him out of your life.
I think you could benefit from some grief counselling to resolve this pain and guilt you have been left with. You should not have been put into this dilemma where you were left unsupported and very much alone to make this decision which has left you feeling guilty and unsure about how God sees you.
God is mercifull. In our ignorance he overlooks the unwise decisions we make. You should talk with a Minister of Religion/Pastor for guidance and support. I'm sure you will find that He will guide you in a prayer of repentance and forgiveness that will leave you with some Peace in your soul. Counselling will also build your self esteem and confidence so that you will be able to control any situation in your life and not be manipulated into doing what someone else thinks you should do.

Jan 20, 2013
Lost Precious One
by: Pat

Oh, sweetheart. I am so sorry you had to go through all of this. Please forgive yourself for your loss. You did what you did because you couldn't see any other way out. Then, you made the right decision to leave your ex. You now have a new opportunity to find real love, a love who will cherish and protect you, who will be happy when you share the gift of children with each other. What happened was not a mistake. God has a reason for everything. You are enriched by the challenges you have already had to face. Life will get better, I promise. Take care of yourself. Take time to find the new you. You will be happy again.

Jan 20, 2013
Don't despair
by: Anonymous

Be grateful that this hateful, selfish man is out of your life before he managed to destroy all of your soul.

If you believe in God, you must know that God is all knowing and merciful. You will outgrow and mature from this situation and will continue to receive blessings.

I'm so sorry for the loss of your baby, but hopeful for your future.

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