Going about life, but never happy
It has been 5 months since you were taken away from me. I know you did not want to leave. I know you could not have imagined leaving me. I know you loved me more than life. And i love you. I have tried to move on. For dad and mom. And for you. I go to work, go out with friends and stuff at times but I am basically living for them, dad and ma. I know that when they will go away too, I will be all alone. you were meant to be around to take care of your little bro. Now with you gone I feel so dead. I miss u,miss u,miss u. I lose my temper all the time now and am mean to people for no reason and hate myself for it. I wish I could just come to you and hug you.I cant even do that. I have to stick around for mom and dad. I cant deal with so much responsibility, I am 23! Every day is torture and I am still supposed to live? Why should I? How is that fair Di? I want to go away to a beach with you, we can sit there all day and talk, like we used to, i have so much I need to tell you that I cant tell anyone else.And then I'll take you shopping. Ill paint you a portrait, if you promise to sit still, and we can have ice cream at midnight. Just come back Di. I cannot live like this. I cannot live without you. Plz just come back.