going out of my mind

by fran
(new york)

My beautiful 24 year old only daughter was killed walking her dog in Hurricane sandy. Three months before that my husband of 35 years was diagnosed at stage 4 liver cancer out of the blue and he died Dec 5 5 weeks after my daughter. If not for the fact that I dont want to leave my 21 year old son an orphan, I would not feel like going on with life without them. I am so sad that my daughter will never get to be 25. It is so unfair. She just had started teaching, her life was ready to really begin.

I was with my husband since we were 20. We grew up together and I thought we would grow old together.

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Apr 10, 2013
going out of my mind
by: Doreen U.K.

Fran I am so sorry for your loss of your daughter at such a young age and for the loss of your husband of 35yrs. To cancer.
To lose an Adult child is such a terrible heartache forever. One just can't contemplate losing a child till it happens and then your world is shattered and you feel you will never recover. Life is so very cruel. We don't know what each day will bring. I couldn't bear to lose any of my 3 Adult children. I lost my nephew of 30yrs. and that was bad enough. I lost my husband of 44yrs. to lung cancer 11 months ago. His cancer was inoperable and incurable. Caused by working with asbestos. 11 months on I am only now feeling the full wrath of my grief. Thank God I have got past the initial death and burial. I thought I would never be able to cope. Grief will be a very slow healing process. May God comfort you in your loss and bring you swift healing from your loss.

Apr 09, 2013
I'm so sad for your losses!
by: Ana

Your story breaks my heart. I lost my adult daughter last year and if it wasn't for her 5 year daughter and my other daughter I would happily have taken my life. I understand how devastating that grief is. I can't imagine losing a husband in such close proximity.

You are right, you must go on for your son. His world has been shattered as has yours. He needs you in the world. Your loss on top of that of his sister and father would just be too much.

For months I actually felt angry that I had to "stay alive" for other people. It seemed that the death of my daughter was punishment enough.

It has been a year and 2 months since we lost Jessica. She is on my mind and in my heart all day every day, but the rawness of the grief has lessened. I have more control now. It's gotten better, but as you can imagine, it's not okay. It never will be.

I hope that in a year's time, you too will be getting to your feet a little more.

Id suggest finding a support group or a grief counselor to help you deal with these early days.
God bless you

Apr 09, 2013
I lost Christy 03/18/08.she was 22Macon,Ga from Pensacola for family support.I am totally alone and feel like I AM DIENG A SLOW DEATH....She was my life.my only child.I feel your pain.
by: Anonymous

I hope to be able to return to Pensacola soon.I left my support behind.cannot find a job.pray for me.I will pray for you
. Sandrawallisrn@AOL.com

Apr 09, 2013
by: Mona

I am so sorry to hear this news and I remember reading about your daughter in the paper. It is so sad everything you have been through. I send you love and warm thoughts as you go through your grief. I just lost my father a month ago and I am not doing well myself. Time heals a brokenheart and nothing will ever erase the love you have in your heart for your daughter and husband. Thinking of you. Sending you love and healing thoughts.t

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