Going to see a grief counselor
I am going to see a grief counselor tomorrow since my husband died 4 months ago. I am not handling things very well but this is what I have determined on my own. I do not know what killed my husband. He didn’t have cancer. He didn’t have a long drawn out illness which possibly could have helped me prepare for his death. I didn’t get to tell him what I really felt (I don’t think most people even realize their true feelings until it is too late). He died, no warning. But, for now, the only thing that gives me peace is knowing that my husband loved me when he died. He didn’t leave me for another woman. He left me to be with God. I think about all the people out there that have experienced an affair in their marriage only to be left alone in the same way that I have been. My heart goes out to anyone that has had to experience such pain. I don’t know what this counselor is going to tell me but I think it is past time for me to take this step.