Gone but never forgotten

by Christine

I lost my mom recently. Just 2 days ago my aunt sat my brother and I down to tell is the news. My family had just went on a cruise and were going home the next day when my mom was sent to the hospital. My dad and uncle stayed behind while the rest of the family went back home. We were in Barcelona, Spain going to Toronto, Canada. My dad assured me only for a couple of days that they will be back. We never thought it was that serious.

My mom had two brain aneurysms and had many surgeries. If she recovered, she would not have full body function. My family prayed and prayed for her safety over the course of the week before she passed away. My mom was a fighter but it wasn't enough, she passed away in the morning of August 22, 2012. I am only 16 with an older brother that is 21. We are still waiting for my parents to come home from Spain.

It is very hard to cope, I've cried countless times and think of her often. I'm constantly regretting and thinking about things I should have done. I am a teenager needing her mom, but I'm sad to say my mom won't be here. It's tough, everywhere I look she's there. My mom, my one and only mom, gone from my life. I really don't know what to do anymore. I don't think I'll ever be the same again. I just wish things were different but I know it's too late now. This is my story and no matter how many times I keep thinking its a joke, a prank, a dream, it's not.

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Aug 25, 2012
Gone but never forgotten
by: Doreen U.K.

Christine I am sorry for your loss of your Mom. It is one of the cruelties of life. That death will come upon us and take someone precious from us. Part of your grief is to feel guilty over what you didn't do for your Mom. but this is just the grief. We all live with REGRETS. It is part of life. You are so young at 16yrs. to not have her mother around. Do you have an aunt or significant other older female member of the family who you could confide in and seek support from? This would be way of having a surrogate mother who could mentor you and help you through the few teenage years you have left. You could also keep a journal and write in this each day, all your feelings, hopes, dreams, unhappiness, even letters to your mom. This can also be part of grief. Life will get better in time. Just let grief do its work until it is over. You will always have the memories of your mother. they will sustain you through your grief.

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