Gone On Ahead

When unexpectedly out of the blue the doctor said that my husband of 33 years was in critical condition the shock hit
us like a ton of bricks. He had been somewhat ill for the past couple of years since he had a stint put in his heart but we were dealing with that....Evidently he developed a blood clot in the main artery to the bowel. He was told that because of the condition of his heart he may not be able to survive any surgery that they would be able to do.
He did not want surgery anyway. He was very sick and he did
not like his options. It was a very difficult time for all of us, he was dying. I had to help my husband come to terms with this fact very quickly. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I tried to keep my wits about me so that I could be there for him. To comfort him, to quiet him and all the time I was thinking to myself..No
No this can't be happening. It has to be at nightmare. I
stood by his bed soothing him in any way I could for eighteen hours. I watched as the vapors of the human spirit
take flight as the body finds it final moment. I am in shock. I am numb. I can't consentrate. I am so tired I can not believe it. I am raw. These are most of what I feel right now but I know that I will get through all of
this one day. Because I know also that my husband is not
gone he has just gone on ahead.....

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May 14, 2012
Always Looking for Signs
by: Babe

Thank you for your great comments. I actually totally understand your two hours gone like minutes. I pray for a decent job now...a little scared sometimes...y'know I was left by surprise...and a little worried sometimes over finances.

Your words made me feel more confident. Reminding me that God has ALWAYS gotten me out of every mess somehow.

We do need encouragement from time to time and I thank you for providing that for me in your story of the blue light. I hope I can have a more direct obvious visitation very soon.

God's blessings to you....and thanks again !

May 14, 2012
Look for the signs
by: Anonymous

I was with my partner alone when he passed, holding his hand and talking right up until his last moments.
As he passed I felt an overwhelming feeling of love and peace. I am certain I experienced something out of this world that day. If there was any doubt about the beyond it was crushed that day. I didn't even shed a tear, I felt calm and full of love. I sat with him and played his favourite music and danced around his bed for 2 hours which passed like minutes. I could only describe it as surreal.
Looking back, it still makes the hairs on the back of my neck stand up. How I never cried and how I felt so full of love and calmness that day I can't explain. Considering leading up to that moment I was terrified as it approached.
I miss him terribly, but I know for sure he is in a better place without his sick body, it must be wonderful where he went. And I know when my turn comes he'll be there with his big smile waiting. I look forward to that moment.
In the mean time I must continue here, as lonely as it is. I want to make him proud and show him how strong I am, as he was when confronted with his own death.
A couple of nights ago I woke to see a small extremely bright star (blueish) darting around on my bedroom door. It gave me goose bumps. I felt my partners presence, I'm sure he also comes to visit too from time to time. I always acknowledge him when I think it's him.
Sorry for your loss and the pain it brings, but remember they never really ever leave us. Watch for the signs and acknowledge them. They're waiting to be with us again too.

May 14, 2012
God Bless You
by: Babe

May God bless you, dear woman. Oddly, I had a very similar experience two years ago with my beloved husband of 30 yrs.

I still cry bitterly for him when I'm alone and miss him terrible much. But, I have had several dreams of him now and believe with all my heart that he's occasionally communicating with me on some level. I'm absolutely certain that there is a "beyond".

I, who NEVER finds pennies or quarters, have found a JAR FULL since his passing. I've been told these are "pennies from heaven". It's odd, but I love it.

He showed me some numbers in a dream; four digits which I played and it WON me $ 200 on a one dollar bet !

The greatest of all lessons in this for me is that God wants me all for Himself and that I must STOP my grieving,{ yeah that's easy to declare but hard to do }, be grateful for having had such a great marriage and get on with it already.

Well, I'll forever be thankful for having had time with my love, but I also hope he's the first person I see when it's my turn to go back from where we came. I wonder just how long it takes before I can finally go a day without getting teary eyed at some point.

May God bless you and make your future a happy one, with happy memories and hope and laughter. I think we're still here because God has a plan and we have to fulfill it. My husband's last words to me, "You're gonna have to be strong now, Babe." And, I know you're gonna have to be strong too. KEEP THE FAITH !!!

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