Gone On Ahead
When unexpectedly out of the blue the doctor said that my husband of 33 years was in critical condition the shock hit
us like a ton of bricks. He had been somewhat ill for the past couple of years since he had a stint put in his heart but we were dealing with that....Evidently he developed a blood clot in the main artery to the bowel. He was told that because of the condition of his heart he may not be able to survive any surgery that they would be able to do.
He did not want surgery anyway. He was very sick and he did
not like his options. It was a very difficult time for all of us, he was dying. I had to help my husband come to terms with this fact very quickly. It was the hardest thing I have ever had to do. I tried to keep my wits about me so that I could be there for him. To comfort him, to quiet him and all the time I was thinking to myself..No
No this can't be happening. It has to be at nightmare. I
stood by his bed soothing him in any way I could for eighteen hours. I watched as the vapors of the human spirit
take flight as the body finds it final moment. I am in shock. I am numb. I can't consentrate. I am so tired I can not believe it. I am raw. These are most of what I feel right now but I know that I will get through all of
this one day. Because I know also that my husband is not
gone he has just gone on ahead.....