Goodbye to Many
I'm considerably young and can't seem to escape death of my close friends and family.
My grandfather (dad's side) passed away when we were celebrating an early Christmas.
The funeral the Christmas Eve so there were barely any people. He was extremely well liked and knew many people. It was somewhat unexpected because a few months before hand, he's been fine. Then he got sick. Very sick.
That same day, my mothers uncle (I hardly knew him because it is my aunts ex-husband's father) had committed suicide.
I turned 15 a few days later and I had to watch my grandma sit there alone.
January comes around. New Year and starting fresh and we get the news my other grandfather is dying. He'd slip into a coma and die.
He died a few minutes ago.
I'm so worried he won't be in Heaven and I am hoping God will forgive him.
Two days ago, my former best friend's mother, basically my mother, has 2 weeks to 2 months left seen as she's been battling stage 4 cancer for a few years.
My best friend's mother's grandmother had passed the day before.
I just read what people dealing with multiple deaths feel and I've gotten to know each point very well.
I especially agreed in the part of forgetting yourself and feeling like you've forgotten your identity.
That's exactly what I feel.
I don't feel like me,