grandad died, then mum and now dad has terminal cancer with only months left
I'm a 34 yr old single mum to a 10 year old son. I have just had the worst 4 months of my life and it's only getting worse. I was made redundant at the new year and 5 days late was told my mum was terminal with months left only. On the 18th Jan my grandad (mums dad) died after having dementia for several years previously. There was some major family fighting between my mum and her brother, and their partners about funeral arrangements and care for my nanna, mums mum. This eventually got resolved but the stress took its toll on mum. She died a few days after the funeral on 3rd February. As I'm an only child I was responsible for everything, although I did have help from mums boyfriend and family friends, I still have loads left to do. Mainly because I have to get my head into my new job, which is fantastic but mentally demanding, finish the final year of my post grad diploma, as well as being a mum etc. A few weeks after mum died, my son's father walked out on his partner and her children, my son's blended family. This combination resulted in my son not coping and I now also have a suicidal, depressed 10 year old with anger management problems as well. He's been referred into children's mental health services and the school are also looking at support for him.
I have been suffering from depression, anxiety and stress for a number of years and have been medicated on and off for decades. Despite this I've put myself through university and have a good degree, while working and supporting my son. I have to finish my post grad this year or I lose all the work I've done and would have chucked away £7500. I'm now on the maximum dose of my antidepressant. Today my dad told me that he has terminal cancer, with an optimistic estimate of 4-6 months left. He didn't want to tell me til after my birthday, which was two days ago. A week ago he married his long term partner at a registry office. They told nobody and had two strangers from the street as witnesses. It's very typical of my dad that it would take terminal cancer for him to marry. But it won't be long before she is a widow and I'm an orphan.
I know there's nothing anyone can do. I just find myself rather reeling. The time scale is absolutely insane. I don't see this as God's mysterious ways. Just don't know where to even start to deal with all of this.