by Brittanie Campbell
My grandpa was my hero the person I looked up to and the person I could never picture my life without.we did everything together and I would call him all the time just to come get me.i would make my mom come get me and I would be at my mamaws house the time he got off work and be Ready to run and hug him when he got there.i ran to him to tell him I loved him but he didn't have that big smile on his face instead he had tears In his eyes he wasn't happy like usually he wasn't smiling ,I didn't know what I did wrong but it wasn't me. he was in pain and no one knew why except him.drs kept telling him different things till one day they figured it out.he had stage 4 pancreatic cancer.that word always terrified me and it did him to.they tried to get him to take chemo but he wanted no part in it he wanted to live his life to the fullest,and that he did.he did everything he did before except he had tons more pain.everything was going ok he had good and bad days until he really got down couldn't walk eat or anything.i knew that I didn't have long to be with him. I knew my whole world was Ready to be turned upside down he kept telling me he loved me and it was ok and I told him I loved him and the next day my Mamaw told him it was ok to go she could do it on her own.so October 17,2007 he was gone and wasn't coming back.all I could do was scream and cry and beg god to send him back but I knew it was selfish of me.he was gone for good but wasn't in any pain at all anymore and in heaven watching over us.theirs so many things I sit and wish I could take back but I know that he was proud of me and always loved me no matter what I did.i don't understand it and I never will ,and I feel like it will never get any easier.
Always tell the people you love them cause you never know when it's gonna be there last cause I didn't