Great friend and also my cousin
by Pam hercules
(Wisconsin united states)
Three years ago in march I lost a great friend. In high school I was bullied he protected me . Was nice to me when no one else was. He saw how great I was when no one else did. He moved away after he graduated . He moved back and we went out one night had a great time. A week later I talked to him on the phone he was drunk . Three hours later there was an accident he fell out a two story window. I found out two weeks later and shortly after that they took him off life support I blame myself and feel terrible for not going to the hospital. He was such a great part of my life its difficult to get over and its almost been three years. Also in august my cousin was in a terrible car accident and they took him off life support I wasn't able to get to the hospital in time either I feel terrible again. They were both donors so I feel better about that. But still hurts everyday knowing I can't pick up the phone and call them I'm a cna so I deal with deal with death alot so I don't understand y I just can't get over this I miss them both so much and so guilty for not being there for them.