It's been 4 & a half months since my son completed suicide I still feel so lost,sad, angry & the list goes on & on. I feel like I haven't moved an inch since his death it seems like yesterday. I started counselling, I read book after book about parents that lost a child nothing seems to console me. I hate this new life I'm forced to live, I want my old life back,how in the world do people survive after the loss of a child my son was 36yrs old. I pray & pray but it seems like God has chosen not to hear me,someone told me I needed medication.I am afraid if I start on medication it will just mask the pain & when I don't use it anymore I will have start my grief where I left off. This new life sucks.