grieving before death
my girlfriend Val, of 5 years, was diagnosed with cancer in July.2010 terminal. The doctors give her 1 year, my grieving started on that day. Put on a happy face and started chemo, but the whole time i was crying inside, needless to say, i came home from work on 12/4/10, and found her dead, she never got her year. so i have felt this way since July,2010. Now i am trying deal with finding her which was the most horrible thing i have ever seen. Any body got any ideas?